Well Mark, I guess - been there, done that - part of the process. What is it that keeps us feeling alienated, isolated, separated from our creation? The fact that you feel these overwhelming emotions is great, it shows you are sensitive, that you are on the journey and will reach home soon.
I don't think self centeredness is a problem, the only thing you can really know is your own subjective world. However do we feel separate or one with our creation is the key. Why do we feel rejected - there's really no one rejecting us except ourselves? On Oct 24, 2011, at 9:41 AM, Mark Landau <[email protected]> wrote: > Why thank you, Ravi. You do surprise me. So many emails, so much > mind-stuff, so little life force/time seemingly left in/to me. Maybe that > will change. Maybe I'll finally free myself of these would-be rakshasa > parasites (and/or my very own debilitating conditioning/ego-mind) and learn > to revel in (FF)L again. I really do seem to feel like Grey's "Despair" > character all too much of the time. (Sorry for the maudlin self-pity. Though > there is a bit of that here, just, also, trying to tell it like it is.) Part > of me thinks I need to refind my deep discipline and do an intense "cave > experience," working on all aspects of my being again (let's call it some > kind of neo-rounding), or, perhaps, throw myself into sacred activism, a la > Andrew Harvey. But also, I can't help but directly feel the something rotten > in the state of the world/me/the world's pain right down to the roots of my > soul and the totality of my viscera. It almost always seems to have been > that way, and still is, for me, though maybe I continually romanticize and > self-perpetuate this as well. Hmm, wonder why I'm dumping/wallowing/spilling > my guts like this in this public forum at this time in my/world history. Ah > self-indulgence, self-centeredness, the me generation--might some of us be > beyond inclusion? Will our rebirth ever really happen? > > > On Oct 23, 2011, at 11:30 PM, Ravi Yogi wrote: > >> >> Please just stay... >> >> >> --- In [email protected], Mark Landau <m@...> wrote: >> > >> > LOL... I actually might give it a few more days, or even more. No promises >> > on this one. Some good things have been coming through lately. I loved >> > that Eisenstein article. A good friend tried to get me to go see him when >> > he was here in Santa Fe, but I wasn't able to at the time, due to that job >> > I finally got myself fired from. >> > >> > On Oct 23, 2011, at 9:31 PM, seventhray1 wrote: >> > >> > > >> > > Hey Mark, I like your posting here, but didn't you forget to tell us >> > > when you'd be unsubscribing again. Like we're down to one day, and 32 >> > > minutes. >> > > >> > > >> > > --- In [email protected], Mark Landau <m@...> wrote: >> > > > >> > > > Hey Robin, >> > > > Have you read this? >> > > > I thought it might interest you. >> > > > http://www.realitysandwich.com/Alex_Grey_Mind_Parasites >> > > > Perhaps others, as well. >> > > > Sorry if it's already been posted here, I haven't been keeping up. >> > > > >> > > >> > > >> > > >> > >> > >
