But you see, Ann, my post was not even directed at you. Your name and words appear nowhere in this post, only whose of RWC.
I have neither ill will nor malice towards you. Perhaps it is simply a case of you misreading? Perhaps if you re-read my post, and realize to whom it was written, *you* will open your eyes, your mind and get smart. --- In [email protected], awoelflebater <no_reply@...> wrote: > > You missed everything about my post. Read it again, open your eyes, your mind > and get smart. > > --- In [email protected], azgrey <no_reply@> wrote: > > > > So you are going with a "The devil made me do it." explanation. > > > > n'est-ce pas? > > > > Lack of succinctness often results in obfuscation. > > > > Just sayin'. > > > > > > --- In [email protected], maskedzebra <no_reply@> wrote: > > > > > > How Robin Struck PeopleAnd Lied About it: An Open Letter to Barry Wright > > > > > > > > > Dear Barry Wright, > > > > > > It is true that before I ever gave an official seminar I did, in fact, > > > apply in a more Western sense, the Zen Roshi method of shocking > > > someonethat is, I did on occasion, strike someone physically. Vaj said > > > there was a video of my acting in this way. I know that no such tape > > > exists. And if it did (as Vaj claims) it would be a simple matter of > > > contradicting my avowal here. You will naturally ask: But Robin, by > > > denying that you did in fact strike someone during a seminar, you are in > > > effect implyingsurely you know thisthat you *never* struck anyone. This > > > was your intent, right, Robin? > > > > > > It was not, Barry. For me to have on the one hand denied this accusation > > > knowing it was falseif it had been true, Vaj would be able to convince > > > me very easily of thisand yet, then and there, admitted that I did > > > engage in this practise, or rather *had* engaged in this practise, would > > > mean disclosing something about me which would tend to be interpreted in > > > an entire vacuum of understanding of just what the context of this > > > metaphysical theatre was. I chose, since you are so hostile and > > > prejudiced, to withhold admitting that in fact I had struck peopleon > > > rare occasionsinside the other, more intimate and personal context of > > > what chronologically preceded the formal seminars. When almost all the > > > persons who were convinced of my enlightenment lived in the same > > > residence. By itself, separated from the spiritual context within which > > > it is practised, the Zen Roshi's blow would seem primitive and brutal and > > > outrageous. But we must assume even Leonard Cohen accepted that this was > > > part of the spiritual methodology to which he was subjugating himself in > > > having determined he had a real Teacher. Now what I did resembled not at > > > all what is the classic Zen Flesh Zen Bones move. See if you can stay > > > with me while I try to explain the context within which this act did in > > > fact occur. Inside a seminar setting, however, it was never necessary or > > > appropriate. At least this is my sincere and I believe truthful > > > recollection. > > > > > > Now my purported enlightenment, as I came to understand it, Barry, came > > > about through not just my own efforts, and my devotion to the Master > > > (Maharishi Mahesh Yogi); it was effected by the Vedic gods, these > > > impulses of Creative Intelligence, the devas. This was shown to me in the > > > form of a revelation once I realized that my enlightenment could not be > > > compatible with the description of the universe and the human soul as > > > taught to me by Thomas Aquinas and my learning of the Catholic catechism. > > > It was not that Catholicism forced this revelation upon me; it was more > > > the tremendous shock of having the whole context I had created [or had > > > been created *through* me] since I returned from Switzerland come apart, > > > and eventually disintegrate. Once I realized that certain invisible > > > beings had had a hand in my ultimate liberation I immediately realized > > > that these very beings were not beneficent, were not interested in my > > > happiness. *They had deceived me*. > > > > > > From that point on, early in 1987, I became determined to vanquish my > > > enlightenment, to destroy the biochemical and intellectual basis of my > > > Unity Consciousness. I knew that if my enlightenment was an > > > hallucination, however real it was experientially, that my actions > > > flowing from this assumed state of consciousness, were also flawed, > > > defective, and problematic. And this included that infrequent instance > > > where I would, seemingly under supernatural inspiration and authority, > > > strike someone. Why strike someone, Robin? Well, here we get to the crux > > > of the matter, Barry. > > > > > > These same celestial beings who created my enlightenment, and then pretty > > > much inspired the context out of which I then actedthey evidently knew > > > both the inherent and unrecognized weaknesses of each individual, as well > > > as what the Western Tradition represented in terms of individuation of > > > one's experience through a true existential willingness to allow life to > > > 'make' one's soul:Also*this is the key point, Barry*—these same > > > celestial beings made me see each human being as existing inside a > > > context where actual fallen angels warred with the good forces in the > > > universe to take away a human being's innocence, determined as they were > > > to make an individual a tool of their purposes by subtly inducing that > > > person to compensate for some weakness or distortion inside of them > > > *through behaving in a particular mode*.The mode so chosen was the > > > creation of the fallen angel. Each person's mode was unique. 'Mode' here > > > representing the inauthentic presentation of themselves. > > > > > > The specific pattern of an individual's mode, then, revealed the > > > influence of these fallen angels (or rather, one specific and unique > > > fallen angel) upon this person, and it was my evident destiny to > > > interrupt, to challenge, to confront the fallen angels as they battled > > > with me, and the person's soul for domination over that person. > > > > > > You understand, then, Barry, that the beings who had created my > > > enlightenment made me actually apprehend each human being who I > > > encountered as being subject to this fearsome temptation and tyranny. And > > > those who had not passed through the seminar, or pre-seminar experience, > > > were dupes of this hegemonic power of these fallen angels. Now, as it > > > happens, almost every person I knew was a victim to some extent of > > > unwittingly identifying with these fallen angels, falsely assuming that > > > what the fallen angel insinuated who they were, and how they had to act, > > > was actually originating in the substance and integrity of their own > > > individuality. The person, then, never suspected there was a > > > preternatural conspiracy going on which was the attempt to force a person > > > to falsify themselves (and each person came to sense this dissimulation > > > deep from within themselves) such as to cover up and conceal their > > > weakness, their ultimate flaw. To transcend one's compensatory mode > > > became the desideratum. > > > > > > A seminar and before that the pre-seminar reality, was the process > > > precipitated inside the context of reading off reality such as to create > > > the actual metaphysical context within which *all that I have described > > > here became a physical perception for everyone present*. This meant that > > > the context was not actually under my control at all. It was a contextI > > > suppose like TM is subject to the mantras (or what Maharishi refers to > > > earlier in his history as the Vedic gods)that imposed itself on all of > > > us. Even myself. What unfolded in front of our eyes was the actual > > > opening up of creationseeminglyand what I was doing was merely a > > > systematic, mechanical, and objective process whereby the truth of what > > > was actually the casewith each individual soul intrinsically subject to > > > this explorationbecoming intricately and physically revealed before > > > everyone. There were no individual differences in what we all > > > experienced. It was as clear and unmistakable as a change in perception > > > effected by hallucinogens, only in this case, what happened to everyone's > > > consciousness in that room was virtually identical. Everyone experienced > > > the same thing. Everyone saw, understood, recognized what I was doing in > > > confronting someone. It all occurred very naturally as it were, very > > > intelligibly, with ultra metaphysical clarity, and the process obeyed > > > laws of its own. Far more compelling than even the laws which would have > > > protected or sustained someone in that state which would presumably not > > > be susceptible to this kind of context. > > > > > > We simply broke open the reality which was there. Once we did, reality > > > took over and conducted the course of the drama through my enlightened > > > state of consciousness, and presumed consummated individuation. (As it > > > would turn out, there was more wrong with me than anyone who "came to the > > > microphone". But no one got to see this. But I did, during this 25 year > > > ordeal of de-enlightening myself.) > > > > > > Now under the irresistible and inexorable inspiration of this > > > processconducted by powers beyond myself, but enabled to articulate > > > themselves through this orchestration of reality through my Unity > > > Consciousnessthe actual fallen being which had control over a given > > > personobstructing, inhibiting, interfering with the ability of that > > > person to truly individuate themselves within the authenticity of who > > > they actually wereindependent of this fallen angelwould make its > > > presence known, even coming right out and making itself visible in the > > > face of the person. > > > > > > This produced what became the classic state of "having gone cosmic". And > > > a person in this state was 'seen' unavoidably, choicelessly, in terms of > > > their unique problem in standing up to the power and influence of the > > > fallen angel which was attempting to keep them from becoming 'innocent', > > > becoming the person they actually were destined to be. Separated from > > > that fallen angel. > > > > > > If the person seemed so identified with this deceitful representation of > > > themselves through the malice of this fallen angel that they were in fact > > > defending or upholding the integrity of themelves in resisting the > > > beneficent and merciful inspiration of my enlightenmentconsciously as it > > > were, or unconsciously colluding with the fallen angelI might, on > > > occasion shock that person out of such an identification. And this took > > > the form sometimes of striking them. Maybe in total 4 or 5 persons were > > > struck. I hardly think it was more than this. And this was not something > > > that happened on a regular basis. It was in extremis. But we shall see if > > > this testimony is contradicted by someone who was there. > > > > > > This was not anger, punishment, retaliation, ritualistic violence. It was > > > an inspiredand much resisted (I hated it)response in me in order to > > > facilitate the process whereby a person could experience liberationeven > > > momentarilyfrom their trance caused by their being identified with the > > > particular fallen angel which had been chosen somehow to present this > > > formidable and ultimate existential challenge to this person's soul, and > > > their whole sense of who they really were. > > > > > > Now I have come, in having repudiated and deconstructed my enlightenment, > > > to see that once I became enlightened on that mountain above Arosa, that > > > my perception had been played such that I could only apprehend each human > > > being in terms of this cosmic battle between good and evil. Now I am able > > > to see each person absolutely on their own, without respect to 'the > > > demonic'. And therefore I am sorry for all that I did which amounted to > > > being determined by this hallucination. Which especially included on > > > occasion trying to shock the person out of his or her identification with > > > the fallen angel which was tormenting and deceiving them, even if they > > > appeared oblivious to this truth. > > > > > > Of course, you will realize from this analysis, that whenever this event > > > happened, no one so much as winced. Not because they were brainwashed, > > > but rather became everyone present sensed the intelligence and > > > inspiration behind this act. The act, then, simply occurred with a > > > complex process which made itself understood as being inevitable and > > > salutary in the extreme. It was harrowing, it was exhilarating, it was > > > dangerous, it was mysterious, it was terrifying. But for everyone present > > > it was very very real. And, I have to say it: right. > > > > > > Although of course everyone realizes in retrospect it was wrong. > > > > > > When Vaj first accused me of hitting someone at a seminar, I knew it was > > > not true. After all, many persons were there for the first time. Had I > > > done what I was accused of, a majority of those who had never before > > > attended a seminar would have walked out. I don't remember a single > > > person leaving a seminar. > > > > > > It was just not ripe for me to explain all this. I did not deny something > > > I knew was true. I denied what I was accused of. And knew, probably, > > > eventually the truth would come out, which might have the appearance of > > > my having at the very least equivocated on this matter. But my conscience > > > is clear. I never hesitated for a moment in knowing it was premature of > > > me to on the one hand deny having done what I was accused of in one > > > contextwhich was true: I did not strike anyone during a seminarwhile at > > > the same time feeling an obligation to acknowledge that this indeed did > > > in fact happenon rare occasionsin a quite different and more intimate > > > context. > > > > > > I will leave it to the readers of FFL to determine whether I am morally > > > culpable in having acted as I have. > > > > > > Robin > > > > > >
