Well stated. :) The paranoia was horrid in those last days. I thought I was going crazy...and I probably was. My saving thought as I sat alone rocking back and forth on my bed at 16 years old...my saving thought was, "If I was crazy, I wouldn't know it." I cling to that thought of logic.
I found my way down the stairs at my parents home and pulled out the local newspaper in search for help. There was an add for TM. I made the phone call and was soon receiving my mantra. I'm not sure if TM was what helped me specifically or if simply taking some sort of action and replacing the drugs helped. Regardless, that action did help save my mind and my sanity. (Though some may disagree. haha) :) ******* --- In FairfieldLife@yahoogroups.com, "Seraphita" <s3raphita@...> wrote: > > > I also agree with you about trips eventually taking a turn toward the > dark side. > I'm convinced that taking a top-end psychedelic can give one a genuine > experience of the divine - a gnosis of the divine Mind. The trouble is, > when you take the drugs you're also trying to escape your everyday self > and its everyday boring routine. You want to squeeze the maximum > pleasure from the experience and twist it to serve your own desires and > fantasies. The divine is indifferent to our ego games and one's > repressed fears can't be held back for long and so come to the surface > nightmarishly magnified by the effect of the psychedelic. > Me too: when I'd had a bellyful of taking acid then trying TM seemed > like the next natural step. And so it proved . . . > > > --- In FairfieldLife@yahoogroups.com, "Carol" <jchwelch@> wrote: > > > > Hey Doc, > > > > Sometime in this past week I read one of your responses on a thread. I > forget the thread now. But I recall the essence of your response. (I > couldn't respond at the time because I had carpal tunnel surgery this > past Monday, 2/18, and wasn't able to really type and now can't remember > where you commented. Sorry bout that.) > > > > Anyhoo...you stated something to the effect that a person's experience > when under the influence of a psychedelic drug mirrored that person's > internal state. (Again, going by memory ... so if I mis-understood, > please correct me.) > > > > In my experience that isn't always true. An example would be the > drug/herb jimson weed. Every experience I've ever read/heard has always > been horrid hallucinations. (I danced with jimson weed when I was 15 > years old and can atest to its horrors.) > > > > As far as other psychedelics, they each had their own nuance in my > experiences. For example: Mescaline often made me laugh a lot. MDA made > me horny. LSD afforded psychedelic sensory distortions. > > > > I'm of the opinion that different chemicals evoke various hormones (or > whatevers) to respond...and thus a certain drugs/herbs can cause bad > effects (bad trips) or good effects (good trips). > > > > I do think whatever one experiences within the good trip or the bad > trip comes from somewhere in the person's psyche...but the drug used > helps determine if what is pulled from the psyche is pleasurable or not > pleasurable. (Hope that makes sense.) > > > > Eventually all my trips tuck a turn toward the dark side, which was > probably a blessing because I gave up tripping. Hmmm....that is when I > turned to TM by the way. Ha. > > >
