Seems like you got "slapped" hard when that "I" went.
I lost it leaving the dome one afternoon.
Consciousness withdrew back into itself and there was
no "I" or individuality. The mind freaked-out, but
everything kept on working all by itself.
Consciousness apperceived itself as a "point". No
dimensions or time at all "in" that point...no inside
or outside either! Completely outside mind.
--- Paula Youmans <[EMAIL PROTECTED]> wrote:
> Hi Peter and thank you for the welcome! Ha-ha.I hope
> it is a tough
> neighborhood! Good for learning :-)
>
>
>
> I can talk about the experience directly, but am
> never sure "what" to talk
> about. To tell you the truth, I knew very little
> when it happened and I know
> even less now.
>
> I'm not sure what anyone would like to hear. How it
> felt? How it changed me?
> Why it was difficult? What happened spiritually and
> physically? There would
> be so much to tell!!!
>
>
>
> Ego loss is a tricky subject for me, because when it
> is gone.there is no "I"
> to lose it. So in that regard, of course I have an
> ego lol. When "I"
> disappeared there was no "me" to experience it.quite
> literally. So did "I"
> lose ego? That is a good question. (Rubbing my chin
> in deep thought).
>
> I will tell you the experience and let you decide. I
> was in water at the
> time what I consider to be me began to disseminate.
> The next thing "I" was
> aware of was the question "who are you?" The
> question reminded me that I
> did, in fact, exist..as I was trying to remember who
> I was, I felt the words
> "I am." coming from my own mind and everything came
> rushing back as I was
> launched out of the water. (I swear I felt a hand
> push me out of the water
> at the same moment I realized my legs could hold
> me). I most definitely
> would have drowned had it not been for whatever
> asked me who I was.
>
>
>
> So, is that what people mean when they reference ego
> loss? I'll never
> know..but it is what I mean when "I" say it ;)
>
> There was no me.so how can I say I lost it? It just
> happened.It simply was.
>
>
>
>
> When I reference "I" now..it is a lot like
> referencing your hand. It is
> yours and you can use it and you can feel it.but it
> is not "you" complete.
>
>
>
> I sure hope I make sense lol. Words become so
> awkward in these subjects; at
> least for me they do.
>
>
>
> Someone told me once that "enlightenment" is not
> only being able to bridge
> into the "heavens"..but being able to go AND come
> back at will.
>
> I liked that.
>
>
>
> _____
>
> Subject: RE: [FairfieldLife] Re: Proclaiming ones
> enlightenment
>
>
>
> Hi Paula and welcome to our tough neighborhood! Can
> you talk about your experiences directly? You seem
> to
> have experienced a degree of ego loss, one of the
> points of enlightenment discussed here quite often.
> Do
> you have an ego now, or is there only "no thing"
> when
> mind tries to reference an "I"?
>
> --- Paula Youmans <[EMAIL PROTECTED]> wrote:
>
>
>
> _____
>
>
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