These kinds of depressions in spiritual aperture of experience, this kind of 'dark night' testimony you relate is not unknown in spiritual life and practice. This sounds simply like some time of acedia or a kind of spiritual depression in aperture that was endured.
Practically taking exercise in a walk, possibly for 50 minutes as modern science does indicate by looking at the physiology of mental well-being, is not a bad idea in means to help let these times pass. I feel like you proly did a right thing taking extended walks at the time. Also, I feel we should not just discount deeper spiritual processes entirely like some are advocating here. Brahmananda Saraswati counseled keeping the company of the illumined, saints, wise or holy people. The science seems to indicate this now too, like what one's grandmother who would advise, watch the company you keep. Is a good lesson in life. -Buck in Fairfield, Iowa turquoiseb@...> wrote : Advice to take with a grain of sand, Sal. Based on many of Buck's previous rants FFL, I think we have to assume that "un-re-cert" is synonymous with "quitter". You wouldn't want to entrust your spiritual future to one of them. :-) Ohm no Sal, No. You could've gotten your meditation checked. You know, sit with a meditation checker or even an un-re-cert teacher if you could not have found your way in to a Peace Palace near you. There are a lot of un-re-certs everywhere who would be capable of checking meditation if asked. -Buck in Fairfield, Iowa salyavin808 shares: It was a long time coming. Just sitting there and looking at all the twitching and hopping about I sudden; saw it from an objective viewpoint rather than as an insider and realised it was all a load of crap and we were kidding ourselves. What has been seen can never be unseen I'm afraid, and once you've looked at it like that there aint no going back. My Skem friends didn't mind. I didn't tell them I'd given it up or why at the time, I just didn't go back to the dome, and instead took walks in the woods in the morning. This was the thing that I never liked about the TMSP, the amount of time it takes out of your day. From the very beginning I resented the lack of quality time I could spend out cycling etc. That was one of the reasons I moved in to the academy, because the day was built round the TMSP and I could still feel like I wasn't just a hermit with a job. From: salyavin808 <[email protected]> To: [email protected] Sent: Tuesday, March 3, 2015 11:54 AM Subject: Re: [FairfieldLife] Re: If they Withdraw your Dome badge again, Buck.. ---In [email protected], <mjackson74@...> wrote : Sal were you still living in a Movement facility when you stopped TMSP or had you already left the place? I had left the employ of the movement and was on a course in the dome in Skem when I had the revelation that it really was just a big fat waste of time. I just folded up my blanket and walked out. Never looked back, not for a second.
