--- In [email protected], "curtisdeltablues" 
<[EMAIL PROTECTED]> wrote:
>
> Great points.  Thanks for taking the time.  I will take a little 
time
> to make sure I let them sink in.
> 
> I can't resist this one to start:
>  
> The irony is that if what you're calling the "group 'I'"
> > is in fact the case, it means you are infinitely more
> > than just the currently living bodymind called "Curtis."
> > From that perspective, what you "love most about being
> > alive" is absurdly limited.
> 
> Since I handed over my eternal soul at the crossroads for a few
> guitar licks I may be stuck with my limits!

Maybe there are some more licks still out there?

>  This notion doesn't *reduce* what you love most about
> > being alive; it *expands* it beyond any limitation.
> > All you have to give up is the limitations!
> 
> Expansion beyond limitations seemed so inspiring to me at one time. 
> Now the words leave me cold.  I know it will sound like MMY's "My
> hut, my hut", but the joy of my life all comes from the details and
> limitations.  Do you relate to this more as a concept or is it tied
> to the expansive sense of euphoria in the program for you?  I can
> remember it in both contexts.

Both, as you remember it, and more.

What appeals to me is the expanded *range of choice*.
Working with details and within limitations is one of
the choices; the ability to do that doesn't get
withdrawn.  But you can set the limitations wherever
you want to, or drop them altogether if you feel like
doing that.  You aren't limited to one set of 
limitations, in other words, nor are you limited as
to how far you can go in exploring one particular set.

This is so abstract it's hard to get across, but do
you remember I said my experience of development of
consciousness was one of increasing transparency?  Part
of that is that limitations become transparent.  They're
still there, but they don't block what's beyond them.

> Funny how something that seemed so
> overwhelmingly powerful and important at the time has vanished as a
> value in my life.

I can't resist suggesting that perhaps the concept
that seemed so powerful and important *was itself
limited* as it existed in your mind at the time,
and that at a certain point you had grown beyond
what it meant to you then--but for various reasons,
instead of letting the concept expand along with
you, you left it where it was and went off in a
different direction.

To put it another way, you had a whole lot of
bathwater you had to dump in terms of having been
heavily involved with the organization and its dogmas
and having a personal need to separate yourself from
all that in order to breathe.  And the baby swimming
around therein was still just a baby, so underdeveloped
intellectually you couldn't easily connect it to
the growth you were experiencing in your life.

If my concept of "expansion beyond limitations" was
the same now as it was a few decades ago, I would no
longer find it very appealing either.  But I didn't
have any bathwater to dump, because my involvement
with the organization has never been more than
peripheral; so I didn't have any problem taking the
concept along with me and letting it grow in accord
with my experience.

  Curious really.  Consciousness really is amazing
> almost any way you look at it.

Ain't nothing more enthralling, by me.  And the
more you look at it, the more enthralling it gets.

  I do want to spend some time thinking
> about the limits of science you presented.  That is fascinating.

Enjoy!  Heh heh.






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