--- In [email protected], Bhairitu <[EMAIL PROTECTED]> wrote: > <snip>> > > You can call it "me" "pog" or "gloop" for all I care. Certainly the > "me" is an illusion as is everything else in the universe, but what has > been your experience? I'm more interested in here the experiential > instead of the theoretical of scholasticism. > My experience was/is that there used to be this guy named Jim, who was me, who if I focused inwardly when I was actively awake, like sitting at my PC, was me. Like living in a sphere of identity called 'Jim'.
Then, like a string being cut, there is still Jim, and he pretty much operates like he used to, only he isn't me. Me if I take a few seconds to assess myself now has no boundaries. 'Me' either goes infinitely outward or infinitely inward. Its really confusing trying to understand this stuff from waking state, and absolutely normal and just like life always was and will be, afterwards. I like to think of it in terms of who we identify with. In waking state I identified with Jim. After waking state, I identify with whatever. Sometimes Jim, sometimes not, sometimes past, sometimes here, sometimes there, sometimes future. Doesn't matter- One thing is for certain- there is a *lot* more freedom, whether I like it or not. Sometimes I revel in the infinite, and other times it is like falling continuously without end, and grabbing for a rope that is never there for long. It is incomprehensible intellectually and comprehensible only through being. Other than that, everything is the same; same bills, same activities, pretty much the same values, likes and dislikes. etc.
