Just like to thank people for their responses, which I've found very
helpful. I wrote my piece late last night after too much wine and was
rather apprehensive when logging onto FF Life this morning.. I now
feel "relatively" better. Seeing it as a Dark Night of the Soul is
maybe a bit grandiose for me but at least doesn't extinguish the candle
of hope altogether. Taking it all in a more liberating existential way,
just going with what life just IS, also helpful. There is still an OCD-
like compulsion to seek spiritual perfection, and a fear of ordinary
life with its inevitable ugliness as a contamination. Need to enjoy the
rose without minding the thorns. Playing with kids - that did the trick
100% when my kids were still young. Gardening was never a hobby for me
but getting in tune with nature and beauty, walking through gardens and
parks, that certainly is uplifting. Ordinary acts of kindness - I
agree, truly inspiring.
