--- In [email protected], "Alex Stanley" <[EMAIL PROTECTED]> wrote: > Now my every waking moment is I/me in overdrive, living and reliving > the emotional Vietnam of my early adolescence. I hate being a 45 year > old teenager, forever stuck in unresolved psycho-sexual bullshit. But, > it is an opportunity to notice what remains the same in both the > presence and absence of internal turmoil. > I can relate. As your attention shifts more and more to what remains the same, and begins to identify with it, you will begin to see the psycho sexual bullshit as something that is not so closely identified with you, yet something or somethings that must be resolved. You can then begin to work with it intimately, directly and in a self- contained way.
For many of us this means seeing those elements of yourself as distinct entities, devas I think people have referred to them as. Then because there is not a binding identification with those non-desirable elements of yourself, you can directly transform them with love and compassion and caring. When you are identified with the psycho sexual bs, there is no opportunity for distance. It is like a monkey on your back. But you have already had an experience of freedom from that, so all that will happen next is the integration of the bs with you, through transformation of it. It is neutralized. Here is a personal example of mine recently, not of the resolution of a psycho sexual issue, but of a physical one, though the mechanics are essentially the same: I run for exercise and unfortunately I have been running in the wrong shoes for awhile. This has caused a tendon from my ankle to my heel to become torn and stretched. I have changed shoes to correct the problem though the injury is still there. While I was running Monday and today, by letting my attention rest on the injury points, the attachment areas on the upper bone, the lower muscle, and the tendon itself, I saw the tendon as a figure drenched in blood, a common sight for me for injuries of this nature. I mentally cleaned him up and embraced him. I then mentally cooled and cleaned the tendon itself, restoring its healthy pink color. I also saw the attachment points into the heel muscle as black dots. Black always indicates tissue stress and so I mentally transformed the dots into white by mentally cooling them, fading to a healthy pink. These processes instantly allowed the injuries to reintegrate with the healthy parts around them. Your visions and processes may be different from mine. The point being that by not identifying with the injury, either psychological or physical, you can heal it rapidly. My tendon is much improved today after the work Monday and today. Also, just let this occur naturally. A friend of mine shared this information about devas with me months ago and at the time it meant little. Only lately have I found myself putting it to use.
