Packing up one's stuff is debilitating. You learn
very quickly how much of your stuff owns you, as
opposed to vice-versa. I've got eight boxes of books
just on the Cathars and medieval stuff! Teaches one
a bit about attachment.

On the other hand, you run across things that you 
are *done with*, no longer attached to. DVDs you
watched once and that was enough. Books you *know*
you'll never open again. LPs that are Department Of
Redundancy Dept. because you gave away your turntable.
Clothes that you wouldn't wear again even to cart 
trash to the dumpster. Canned foods you bought two
of, and one was more than enough, thank you. Candles
that are partly burned down, but still have a few
hours of life in them. Those sorts of things.

In Sauve, we have enlightened recycling. You don't
have to cart your stuff to the Salvation Army (although
it does exist in France) or to the local Good Will or
whatever. You just take your stuff and put it on the
12th-century stone ledge outside Fouzia's épicerie
and then, if you're feeling like it (and I was today),
you sit in the Micoccoulier and have un petit sauvin
(white wine with fresh ginger syrup) and watch *as*
your former loved ones transit through the Bardo and
into new incarnations.

You watch as people look through the books and take the
ones they want. You watch as some 15-year-old film fan
discovers the stack of glossy French film magazines and
runs off with them as if his whole day (and possibly the
next few weeks reading them) has been *made*. You watch
folks "try on" the clothes, holding them up against 
their shoulders as they would in a vide grenier (literally
"empty your attics") or marché, and if they seem to fit,
walking away with them. You watch the local vinyl freaks
just *drool* over the rare Telefunken classical records.
You sit and watch and sip your petit sauvin, and life
is *good*, man.

And it strikes me that this recycling process is a lot
like my idea of what spiritual teaching should be like.
We seekers spend our lives gathering stuff -- techniques,
knowledge, words from other seekers and finders, inspiring
stories and tales of power, maybe a bit of personal power 
ourselves, and a whole lot more.

And then you "pop," as today's FFL word of the day puts
it. Something happens -- or more exactly, nothing happens --
and you just don't *need* all this path stuff any more.
Your life has become about Here And Now, with nowhere to
go and nothing to seek.

So what do you *do* with all these techniques and all these
words and all this knowledge and all these inspiring tales
of power? 

Well, some sell them. And I guess that's cool; I've sold
off more than my share of old stuff I don't need any more.
And the buyers were grateful for the bargains they got,
so I don't think there is anything necessarily wrong with
that, especially for those who are used to paying for 
things, and don't trust anything that comes to them for
free.

But there are a few who, when they find themselves in full
popped-popcorn mode, all white and fluffy and all, just
put their stuff out and sees who is interested. If someone
wanders by and says, "That looks like a cool technique,"
you teach it to them. If someone says, "That knowledge sure
sounds fascinating to me," you share it with them. If they
get off on tales of power, you tell a few tales of power.
And then you go home.

And you don't let them *follow* you home. You don't let
them praise you for having given away all these bits of
knowledge and techniques and tales of power. And you try
your best not to feel cool because you once *had* all these
bits of knowledge and techniques and were part of the tales
of power -- they were then, this is now. And now is some-
times best spent just giving away fragments of then that
you don't need any more, but which might be of use to 
someone else. 

It's a real rush, and in my opinion a great deal *more* of
a rush than sitting up on a throne in front of a room full
of ga-ga seekers who are focusing all their attention and
all their energy on you just because you collected a bunch
of stuff. The stuff had a *purpose* -- it helped you to
get to Here And Now. But its *only* real purpose now is
in helping others to get to their own Here And Now.

I'm sorry -- I know that a lot of people here disagree with
me, and they may be right in doing so, but selling the stuff
to them them still strikes me as a little tacky. It's just
so much more FUN to give it away...and then *walk* away.

No muss, no fuss, no spiritual seekers clinging to you and
hanging on your every word and trying to make a big deal out
of you. As Robert Anton Wilson once said so well, "A disciple
is an asshole, looking for a human being to attach itself to."
Who needs it? Got one already. Heck, I *am* an asshole 
already...who needs a bunch of extra ones hanging around?

I guess this rap boils down to an extended answer to Marek's
wonderful question recently. What (and, unspoken but implied,
*how*) would you teach. I think I'd just give it all away,
and walk away after the giving. If people find a use for
some of the things I've given away, cool. If they don't, and
end up giving them away to someone else, even cooler.



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