Oh Del,
We know how you feel. I held off vacuuming for as long as I could
after losing Vixen. I complained about her shedding Siberian Husky fur
all over the house while she was with me, but after I lost her, I just
couldn't bring myself to clean it up, knowing it would be for the last
time. I'm so sorry for your grief, it just never gets easier. I try
to prepare myself for the inevitable, sometimes I even feel some
acceptance of the situation. It only lasts for 10 minutes, or so, then
I find myself pleading for my angels not to be taken from me.
Something that helps me walk past those familiar places where my babies
used to be, is imagining them still there. I speak to them and tell
them how much I love them, how much I appreciate having known them and
what a privilege it was to care for them. I tell them about what's
going on in the household, sometimes I ask for help in getting through
to somebody whose being particularly naughty. I call on Vixen and
another lost beloved GSD, Contessa, when I have a lesson with a dog
that I'm concerned about reaching (I'm a dog trainer), and ask them to
be with me in spirit to help communicate. After my Tess died, I felt
and saw her out of the corner of my eye many times. There was one time
in particular, I was sitting at the computer writing an homage to her
and her wonderful spirit. I could have sworn she was right at my feet
where she always used to lay. I almost reached down to pet her. Effie
is still with you, she loves you and she's watching over you.
Much love,
Nina
Del Daniels wrote:
Thank you to everyone who responded
with sympathies to my huge loss of Effie. She was such a light in our
lives and we miss her terribly. The "real" Effie gradually faded away
and she became a more sedentary waif with less fur and less weight. At
times her eyes were bright and interested in playing but the body
didn't allow response. Lack of energy and increasing discomfort took
her away, little by little. Gosh, how I love her and miss her.
In January 04 intuition was that she
was in her last year with us and I wanted to soak up as much of her as
possible and give her even more love and attention and I moved in her
bedroom with her. I was already in with her a lot, sitting in her
sunroom or watching tv, any projects that could be done there. That
bathroom is "mine" and she inspected my shower and checked the drain
for possible thingies ... don't know if she ever found any but it was
one of her daily rituals. There is a screen door on her
bedroom instead of a hard paneled door and we looked in at her and
talked to her every passing by. My heart breaks again and again as I
look in and she is not there. I have been cleaning in her sunroom and
bedroom (her apartment :) and her fluffy fur is still flying around;
remembering all her favorite games and resting places. And crying and
crying. I am going to buy new bedspreads and kind of change the look
of it, the others need replacing anyway. The toilet seat cover where
she loved to pull on the loops and made very long loops will have to
stay for a while. She loved pulling things apart with her teeth. She
decarpeted her bedroom and we put in tile! A roll of paper towel makes
great confetti. Hubby had to put a toilet tissue holder UP HIGH -
betcha Effie wasn't the only one who liked to unroll that stuff and
make more confetti ... you all have a kitty who enjoys doing that?
Your prayers and caring has held me
together,
Del
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Original Message -----
Sent:
Friday, March 04, 2005 8:36 AM
Subject:
Re: Effie has her angel's wings
Dear Del,
How sorry I am to hear that Effie has left you. We all know
how hard it is; the hardest thing in life, it seems. She's free of
pain and happy now, surely with your friend Liz. I'm sorry for your
loss of Liz, as well, but I hope you can find comfort in knowing they
are together and in the special memories you have of each of them.
Sending a big, big hug your way. Take care of yourself.
Effie left us this
morning and my friend, Liz, who passed away last week, is taking care
of her in heaven. The pain from the growing mass against her spine
took away her quality of life. It was awfully hard. It IS hard. You
understand, we continue to look at their favorite places and those
places are empty ... and I cry for her. My heart is broken.
Thank you everyone for
support and feedback. Without these groups, she would never have lived
this long or this well.
Del
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