Re: Kat - Drawing disease to our lives

[Nina]

Kat,
Thank you very much for that in depth and thoughtful answer.  When I 
found my box of FelV bottle babies I had an AC acquaintance tell me that 
she thought it was because I was being called to healing.  I've heard 
that before in my life; that I have healing hands when I massage; Mom 
always thought I should be a vet; etc.  I've helped nurse some animals 
back from what seemed like the brink and  I will do whatever's necessary 
for any animal in need, (and most humans :) ), but I have been kicking 
and screaming most of the journey.  How do I find a way to balance my 
vulnerable heart and my desire to help?  For instance my knee-jerk 
response to my mother was that I didn't want to become callous to the 
suffering and didn't know how I could retain my sanity otherwise.  As 
I'm typing this I'm answering my own question in my head.  I think it 
has to do with my perspective and viewing life as something that happens 
to us, rather than something that we create together, also that this 
life isn't the be all and end all of existence, but a learning 
experience to be treasured.  I guess even though I believe these things, 
I haven't quite "owned" them yet.  Thinking of the seemingly random and 
unfair traumas that occur in the lives of innocents is still very hard 
for me to expose myself to, (think head under the covers as an avoidance 
tactic).  What do I do with that?  Just keep repeating the Serenity prayer?
Nina