How do Sebastian's gums look? Are they pale? How's his breathing? He could be fighting anemia...but I'm guessing the vets would have tested for that when they saw him last...are they leaning towards something neurological? It may help your piece of mind knowing what is going on with him...it sounds like Sebastian has enough strength for both of you...let that guide you so that you can get to the bottom of his illness. I know it's easier to kind of float about in denial out of fear of losing a loved one (I've done it several times myself), and while you can't control when a loved one will depart, you can take control over treatment...and with that control there's piece of mind and a sense of purpose that will over-shadow your fear...You guys are in my thoughts!!
Jen **************************************************** "But if you tame me, then we shall need each other. To me, you will be unique in all the world. To you, I shall be unique in all the world; You become responsible, forever, for what you have tamed..." --Antoine de Saint-Exupéry "If you talk to the animals they will talk with you and you will know each other. If you do not talk to them you will not know them, and what you do not know you will fear. What one fears one destroys." -- Chief Dan George
--- Begin Message ---I have not written for so long because I feel that I have given up hope. Sebastian has not been doing very well. He can no longer walk and he relies on me to take him to the litter box and to feed him. He still has a good appetite. He seems so depressed now. I am so heart broken that I cry almost daily. I am not strong enough to let him go. I feel that it isn't up to me to play god and that he will go when he is ready. He just keeps fighting. He is so much braver than me. I took him to the Virginia Tech Veterinary hospital on August 1st. They were wanting to run alot of tests. The tests were very risky, so I decided against them. Now I feel that I have no choice and I have to find out what is wrong with him and see if there is something that can be done. I don't know what I will do without him. I am so scared of losing him.
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