Jane,
I am new to all of this as well...My friend and I rescued a mom and 6 kittens
and the mom ended up being FeLV +. We were told to put them all to sleep but I
could not do it...I am the softee of the 2 of us. I wanted to know more before
making a decision since so many of my pets have issues anyway...the more I find
out the more it makes sense NOT to put them to sleep...the more it makes sense
to give them the life they deserve whether it turns out to be1 year, 5 years,
10 years or 15-20...it has happened that these positive kitties end up living
longer lives than negative kitties...be patient and just live for that kitty
now. I will not give up on finding this family a home. We think we may have
done it already but are not positive. They go to the vet on Friday for their
combo tests and momma's is going to be redone.
Give Meme all the love you have and that is enough for her. By the way I had a
cat named Peanut that I nicknamed Meme and he lived until he was almost
20...have hope Jane...we can never lose hope...you have already given her your
heart now you just need to move on and forget about the diagnosis...
Sheryl
Jane Lyons <[EMAIL PROTECTED]> wrote: Cassandra you and Kisa are in my thoughts
and prayers.
Does the anxiety and sadness ever go away? I feel as though
I am still in shock with the diagnosis. I feel I am back to the place
I was when my 19 year old (NoNo) was failing and I would wake up every
few hours to make sure she was ok. The feelings of impending loss
and sadness became like a low grade fever for many months. When it
became clear that she was in pain and had to cross, I was prepared and
relieved to be free of the fear and anxiety and sadness that became a
part
of the end of her long and happy life and our infinite bond.
When I brought this kitten (MeMe) home, I was exhilarated by her
sweetness and
smitten by the antics of a young cat. It had been a long time since
someone had
propelled themselves across the room from a counter top to the back of
my neck.
She sleeps between us in the same spot that NoNo had for 19 years.
The Feline Leukemia diagnosis has brought back the sadness and
bittersweet feelings
of loss and mortality and connectedness. While I am committed to doing
whatever I can to
give her the best care and support available, will I ever be able to
hold her and kiss her
without a surge of sadness and regret and longing? Does the shock of
this disease ever move
to a place of acceptance and appreciation for the present time and
moment.
I realize that what I am asking has to do with my own consciousness and
ability to live in
the moment with gratitude that I selected this dear, sweet being to
love and care for.
She's sitting on my lap, purring and I am typing. I guess that is an
answer.
Thanks for listening.
Jane
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