Giselle, yes-when we love them so deeply, the loss is inconsolable...for a long time. It's been more than a year since I lost my Baby Ruben, and I still mourn him...but now that grief is tempered with memories of him as a teenie baby doing all sorts of silly things...and I can smile. I hope and pray your heart continues to heal and that one day you will smile again.
Debbie (COL) "The time is always right to do what is right" - Martin Luther King > From: gisell...@hotmail.com > To: email@example.com > Date: Thu, 28 May 2009 21:39:29 +0000 > Subject: [Felvtalk] Life without Pixie > > > Hi everyone. > > > I really, really appreciate > the support and wisdom this group has provided over the last 3 years > -- when strange things were happening (frothy clear vomit, a non-dilating > pupil) and I didn't know what to do, and especially during the scary and sad > days surrounding Pixie's death. This listserv is an example of the internet > at its finest, bringing together a > warm virtual community of FeLV cat guardians from across the globe. You gave > me the courage to adopt FeLV+ Pixie in the first place, when I was only a > foster parent to her and had no previous experience with + cats. > > It's been two weeks without Pixie. Grief feels like a private hell but > apparently I'm going through all the normal stages. I was in bad shape when I > went to pick up her ashes and the woman at the crematorium asked if Pixie had > lived a long life. I could > barely reply that she was still a baby when this disease snatched her. > But once I got her urn home and put it on the mantle, which was one > of her favorite places to perch, I felt strangely relieved: the awful > business of deterioration, dying and death was over. I > attached her collar tag to my keys (the jingling sound of which > made Pixie come running from any corner of the house in the hope she'd > get to go outside). I miss her 100 times day. > > I'm comforted to know that many of you have survived the loss of a beloved > cat and have eventually come to love new cats. > > Onwards and upwards, > > Giselle > > > _________________________________________________________________ > Windows Live™: Keep your life in sync. > http://windowslive.com/explore?ocid=TXT_TAGLM_BR_life_in_synch_052009 > _______________________________________________ > Felvtalk mailing list > Felvtalk@felineleukemia.org > http://felineleukemia.org/mailman/listinfo/felvtalk_felineleukemia.org _________________________________________________________________ Drag n’ drop—Get easy photo sharing with Windows Live™ Photos. http://www.microsoft.com/windows/windowslive/products/photos.aspx _______________________________________________ Felvtalk mailing list Felvtalk@felineleukemia.org http://felineleukemia.org/mailman/listinfo/felvtalk_felineleukemia.org