Its a good decision.!! Glad that you chose the DISTANT future for your hara-kiri. A suicide in the near future is usually messy.... :-)) Aditya B
On 7/3/11, someoneforeverdear <someoneforeverd...@yahoo.in> wrote: > I am headed for a perfect disaster in my life…which I can predict….I will > end by committing suicide in distant future. I would like to make it clear > it in the beginning itself that, this mail of mine is no attempt in hogging > sympathy or a stint to become famous. I am already 33 and I cannot even > think of a single two legged animal… that is known to me? Forget best or > even good friend. My sis settled abroad and quite busy with her routine > life. My parents are near 70….relation with relative is merely there. > > I am in relationship since 3 years…but there is a quite an emotional gap. I > will also set the record straight for my present partner, that he may have > an objection on my declaring that he is emotionally distant from me. I would > rather say that, its me who think so, that he is emotionally distant from me > or I think, that he is selfish or disrespectful or simply gives a damn about > my psychologically well being, which might not be the thought in his mind. > Tragically he might give a damn about me but he is very conscious about what > you all (practically strangers) think of him! > > If my mother survives my father's death, I will live a few years more. But > god forbids if my father survives my mother's death…I will commit suicide > within a year. Though, I will end my life after my mother's death for > certain. Marriage was never an option for me but so is fucking loneliness!!! > I have theoretically, practically and even psychologically did, doing and > will do for this relationship to work. I was expecting that I will be > awarded by being referred to as the best partner that one can possibly have > but instead I am being blamed for things which were, are and would be out of > my control. > From my childhood...I saw the women of my house and practically everyone > house being a victim of their male counterparts irrational, inhumane and > utmost disrespectful and I made quite a fun of those who were self > sufficient in continuing with their ordeal but today I am myself a voodoo > doll. I had promised myself, that I would not be a victim and I very > courageously and indiscriminately advised everyone around me. But today I > have not stood my own ground…It's a pain…I have lost my self-respect. > > Today also I have very tiny some hope that I will get a deserving partner, > why wouldn't I? I cook, I clean, I cheer, I care and cry for my partner > love. But that tiny some is really worry some…What if I don't? I have > survived this relationship by burning my self respect, at the cost of my > deserving care and love. > I just hope I get the deserving courage to take the first step, which would > be my last step in ending my misery, because if I live, my misery would be > 10 folds more. > > > -- Sent from my mobile device -- ADITYA BONDYOPADHYAY Development Sector Consultant Advocate (Regd. No. F-218/192 of 1997, Bar Council of W.Bengal, India) Website: http://adityabondyopadhyay.webs.com/ ================================ Notice to all recipients: Communication not intended for you but reaching you inadvertently needs to be treated as confidential and destroyed or deleted immediately. Use of such communication in a manner prejudicial to the interest of Aditya Bondyopadhyay and/or his principals, and/or his clients, and/or his agents respectively, may attract legal proceedings which may be of a civil or criminal nature. 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