hey ur so kind hearted soul plz do social service to needy poor feed hungary on streets near temple and feed cows with green grass and also give clothes to old poor desperates and also go to Delhi big temple recently built also got award in Guiness books of Records ,life is so precious ,if u care ur parents take them to holy pilgrimage and throughout the world including the holy places at USA*CHICAGO,HOUSTON,CANADA,LONDON where even prince charles-2 comes and stands before God supreme and also MADAME DIANA who came for 10 minutes but stayed long for 2 hours realising the divines and power of God in Holy place at NEASDEN,why don't u do these things and search ur love and affection and i sure say that God will give ur ur desereved love be it in any form its not just that u neeed a partner u need love and infact we all need love because its also a form of god alone. Dude ! after crossing -84,00,000-eighty four lakhs of all the bodies we all get this human body and u want to waste for no good ,no way u BRAVO come on sTANDard aND AWAKE and do prayers merciness to all and donate if u can live for others and god shall shower u with infinite love first for ur Parents . thanksrgs
--- On Mon, 7/4/11, friendslover121 <friendslover...@yahoo.in> wrote: From: friendslover121 <friendslover...@yahoo.in> Subject: g_b Re: I am headed for a perfect disaster in my life.... To: gay_bombay@yahoogroups.com Date: Monday, July 4, 2011, 8:08 AM i love you....tc :) --- In gay_bombay@yahoogroups.com, "someoneforeverdear" <someoneforeverdear@...> wrote: > > I am headed for a perfect disaster in my life…which I can predict….I will end > by committing suicide in distant future. I would like to make it clear it in > the beginning itself that, this mail of mine is no attempt in hogging > sympathy or a stint to become famous. I am already 33 and I cannot even think > of a single two legged animal… that is known to me? Forget best or even good > friend. My sis settled abroad and quite busy with her routine life. My > parents are near 70….relation with relative is merely there. > > I am in relationship since 3 years…but there is a quite an emotional gap. I > will also set the record straight for my present partner, that he may have an > objection on my declaring that he is emotionally distant from me. I would > rather say that, its me who think so, that he is emotionally distant from me > or I think, that he is selfish or disrespectful or simply gives a damn about > my psychologically well being, which might not be the thought in his mind. > Tragically he might give a damn about me but he is very conscious about what > you all (practically strangers) think of him! > > If my mother survives my father's death, I will live a few years more. But > god forbids if my father survives my mother's death…I will commit suicide > within a year. Though, I will end my life after my mother's death for > certain. Marriage was never an option for me but so is fucking loneliness!!! > I have theoretically, practically and even psychologically did, doing and > will do for this relationship to work. I was expecting that I will be awarded > by being referred to as the best partner that one can possibly have but > instead I am being blamed for things which were, are and would be out of my > control. > From my childhood...I saw the women of my house and practically everyone > house being a victim of their male counterparts irrational, inhumane and > utmost disrespectful and I made quite a fun of those who were self sufficient > in continuing with their ordeal but today I am myself a voodoo doll. I had > promised myself, that I would not be a victim and I very courageously and > indiscriminately advised everyone around me. But today I have not stood my > own ground…It's a pain…I have lost my self-respect. > > Today also I have very tiny some hope that I will get a deserving partner, > why wouldn't I? I cook, I clean, I cheer, I care and cry for my partner love. > But that tiny some is really worry some…What if I don't? I have survived this > relationship by burning my self respect, at the cost of my deserving care and > love. > I just hope I get the deserving courage to take the first step, which would > be my last step in ending my misery, because if I live, my misery would be 10 > folds more. >
