Oh Julie,
Repeat over and over again - 'I'm six weeks postpartum, sleep deprived and awash with hormones, it's enough to topple anyone over the edge'.
You're right, people are often fabulous with great gestures and then disappear. They've done their job by offering I guess. If I can offer some advice, I'd say hold em to it. Ask them to deliver on their IOU's and don't be afraid to ASK - it seems that we are all expected to have and care for children all alone these days. It's also not rejection of YOU when the others don't help out.
I don't know if you have an NA or AA community or connections there, but you may want to ask for some help with the children as a support for your sobriety. That's not a joke, it's not a weakness, it's not a charactar flaw to feel the strings of addiction trying to rebind themselves. I'm really proud of you for venting and reaching out here and I know you've got the skin to get through. JUst don't do it alone.
blessings,
rebecca
