"... On Apr 22, 7:00 pm, Chris Jenkins <[email protected]> wrote: ..."
> I think it's bloody brilliant, Gruff. > > >2009/4/22 gruff <[email protected]>: > > > > I'd really like for you and some of the others would read this first > > installment of my autobio and give me your truth about it? I'd like to collectively thank all of you who read Boys_Town and commented on it. I'm sure you've all recognized parts of it from small bits and pieces I experimented with when appropriate here on Mind's Eye. I assure you it is all true to the best of my recall notwithstanding any denial or blindness which may have occurred. Chris, thanks for the exuberant acclaim. It gave my soul a shot of joy. But I'd like to probe further. Can you tell me why you thought it so? Tinker, I don't feel extraordinary for the most part, though I admit to extraordinary moments which have mostly occurred in my later years. Yeah, it was a tough way to come up but there are others who have had it much tougher and done better. I'm hoping this auto will be my magnum opus and if it does nothing else but to enlighten some parents and relatives to the sometimes disastrous effect they can have on their children, then I'll be pleased. Francis, I hope you have a lot of patience. It's taken me a year or more to get that first installment borne. Thanks for your kindness. I admit to the occasional courage this trip has taken but for the most part I was simply following a destiny of sorts. In spite of all the shit that was put into my head and soul as a child, I had a survivor mentality and that and getting away from that family at a young age -- has probably been the most contributory to my current condition. But as I said, it's a form of self-fulfilling destiny. One of the mindsets my childhood instilled in me was that everything that went wrong in my life was my fault and no one elses. Mix that with a blended heritage of catholic and jewish guilt and the only possible result is introspection and honesty with myself. But the path to that end is twisted and begain in pathological lies and self-deception till I found those methods usually come back and bite me in the ass. A lot of being bitten eventually led to some self-awareness and awareness of the world around me. So while I still find it difficult to deal with people on a daily basis I have an abiding faith in them en masse. Besides with no god to believe in, what is left but to believe in people. We all have to believe in something. It's our nature. So yes, it has indeed been a long strange trip. I've often felt a stranger in a strange land. Thank you for those four beautiful words: honesty, hope, intelligence and humanity. I was hoping Molly would respond because I know I could count on her for a thoroughly honest and elegant perspective, especially after our last little dust-up. --~--~---------~--~----~------------~-------~--~----~ You received this message because you are subscribed to the Google Groups ""Minds Eye"" group. To post to this group, send email to [email protected] To unsubscribe from this group, send email to [email protected] For more options, visit this group at http://groups.google.com/group/Minds-Eye?hl=en -~----------~----~----~----~------~----~------~--~---
