Hello Lori and welcome,
I guess everyone on this list has gone through what your going through, I
know I had a rough time and concederd suicide. The depression just about
got the best of me, I too begged to die. I thought about rolling out in
front of a big truck, but worried it would hurt the driver. My 3 kids and
family was the biggest reason I couldn't do it, Lori just think how your
family and friends would feel without you. I know its hard, but it will get
better! The biggest thing now for me is the weather, I never set in the
house and now I get depressed when I can't get out. Also I was always
healthy slim 185lbs now I look down at the quad gut and could cry. Im
thankfull that I don't have the pain as bad as you, get some help and try
not to dwell on it. Stay Busy Busy is the best thearphy, there are plenty
of things you can do be creative. Good luck with the pain your not alone as
long as you have this list to listen and give you good advice. Silas c3/c4
complete vent dependent.
P.S. Just think it could be worse and there's someone in worse chape than
you. Hugs!
----- Original Message -----
From: "lori" <[EMAIL PROTECTED]>
To: <[email protected]>
Sent: Saturday, May 13, 2006 4:53 PM
Subject: [QUAD-L] Lori Ann - I'm New
Hi,
My name is lori ann and I'm a C-6 complete, just over 13 months post. My
biggist problem is PAIN,PAIN,PAIN!
It is so severe it colors every aspect of my life and I know it has held
me
back from recovering some independence in my life.
I was in a car accident on my way to the meth clinic, where I was trying
to
beat an addiction to prescription pain meds, that was completely out of
control.
I was being treated for chronic pain.boy if I'd have only known
what was in store for me!!!! Now we can't find a pain med that comes close
to even touching the pain. It's so ironic too, 'cause the pain keeps
getting
worse and worse. Everyday I'm astonished at the intensity. You just can't
prepare yourself against it. I'm very depressed, I wish I wouldn't wake
up,
I'm ready to die..
Being a quad though, I'd have to have someone assisst me with suicide. I'm
almost ready to ask my fiancee' of 12 1/2 years if he would do it. I don't
think he would, though. Even if I begged.
I have all kinds, the hellfire burning, which for some reason is getting A
LOTworse., I Also have shoulder and hip and knee pain.but the biggest
worse
pain I have is in my buttocks. It is SO severe that I can't stay in my
chair for more than 4 hours at a time. Even in bed I have to be rolled
onto
my side, and then my shoulders and hips ache. And that's in an air
mattrress. I try to work through the pain, it just wears me down,
Here's what meds I take for pain:
3900 mgs neurontin split in 4 doses
120 mgs methadone a day
70mgs of baclofin a day (for spasms, which I never had, dr.tells me it
helps w/pain) does it?
1mg klonopin 3 x day
75 mgs trazodone at bedtime ( to help me sleep though the pain) hah!
Well, I've whined enough, just wanted to get it out, thanks for listening
and any suggestions greatly appreciated,
Hi, again everyone,
Lori ann
