If I had an out of body experience, I don't remember it. I wouldn't doubt it,
though. I did die many times. I remember hearing a voice when I was in the
ICU asking me, "Do you want to stay or go?" I don't think I was informed by
this voice of what my life would be, (although I do enjoy all that I can every
day, despite being trapped in my body and behind my eyes), and I replied, (all
this happened in my mind, and I saw nothing), "No, my family would miss me too
much." This was during a time when I was coding every five minutes, literally.
After that, I don't think I was as unstable.
Had I known what my life would be, I still would have stayed. My family would
have missed me too much, it would have torn them apart. Just as it would have
if what happened to me had happened to my sister. Which I am extremely happy
that it didn't. She wasn't there, but I'm just saying.
I've thought about it many, many times over the years since my injury, and out
of all of my family, immediate and extended, I'm glad I'm the one. You have to
be tough to be like this, as I'm sure everyone here knows. I don't think any
of them could handle it. It would be worse for them, that's why I'm glad it
was me, if it was going to happen to any of us.
I fully believe there's existence after each life, and that we're reincarnated
after a time, and that we get to decide when to come back. I don't believe in
the Christian beliefs. Not any more. Had I not been injured, I would have
come to that conclusion for myself anyway. I first questioned it when I was
seven. I think the voice was from a guide. Not from an angel. I don't buy
into angels.
I'm looking forward to my next life. And you can be damn sure that I'm
requesting, STRONGLY, (if possible), to not have any physical disabilities or
life-changing traumas in the next one. I.e. I'll be checking the box under NO
next to, "spinal cord injury." I don't think I checked the YES box next to
that before I was born into this body and life, though. I think somebody lost
my paperwork! Here's hoping that person got fired. LMAO!
- Angelique Novak
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