I ran out of family. I can't even remember what it's like to have parents since I lost them when I was a teenager. Then I lost my grandparents who loved having me live with them. Then I lost my first common law husband of 13 years and then my husband of 15 years. So it is my Golden (retriever) that my husband and I adopted together and who stays with me 24/7/365. I have 2 much older sisters and only 1 niece who talks to me so this is the first time I have been living alone without family or a spouse.
I was so traumatized by the loss of my husband that I began to have Psychogenic Nonepileptic Seizures (caused by stress) and so when I lose my devoted canine daughter I know I will have even more seizures. I am not thinking negatively but she is the only "being" who loves me for who I am and stays with me and when I have to go to a doctor's appointment without her or something she won't eat or drink until I get back. Now, after last year of hell... she is the only reason I get up in the morning now. On Fri, Jan 27, 2017 at 1:18 PM, Larry Willis <[email protected]> wrote: > My family is what keeps ne going. Without then I would be ready to go. 46 > years as a quad is enough. > > Sent from my iPad > > Begin forwarded message: > > *Resent-From:* [email protected] > *From:* RONALD L PRACHT <[email protected]> > *Date:* January 27, 2017 1:35:43 PM EST > *To:* Quad-list Post <[email protected]> > *Subject:* *Re: [QUAD-L] Why keep pushing on* > *Reply-To:* RONALD L PRACHT <[email protected]> > > What it comes down to is there is no option other than suicide to get out > of it. What has helped me is the realization that life is short for > everybody and in 50 years nobody will know the difference who was a quad or > not. Life is a gift, even as a quad and each of us have to find our own > reasons. I dont know if you have heard the song by garth brooks called the > dance, but it talks about lifes pain and gifts. In order to get out of the > pain you would of had to miss the dance. Think about all the special things > you have done in your life. We have to struggle harder to find purpose each > day that the average person thats for sure. I think a quad knows and > appreciates the little things life gives us more. Listen to the song and > maybe that can help. > > > On Friday, January 27, 2017 11:57 AM, Paul Jacobson <[email protected]> > wrote: > > > love > > *From:* Jeffrey Gaede > *Sent:* Thursday, January 26, 2017 6:34 PM > *To:* Quad-list Post > *Subject:* [QUAD-L] Why keep pushing on > > Why do people keep pushing on? I mean it's bad enough to be substantially > disabled, but it doesn't stop there. People, in general, don't want to be > around you. It's difficult to go places and do things; average things that > most people do all the time. And you know from experience that illnesses > and such can pop up at any moment, much more easily than the average > person. You try like hell to avoid being dependent on the government but > it's nearly impossible, even if you work full-time. That means you > constantly have someone with which to answer. Someone with their own rules, > who can't begin to understand you and what you go through on a daily basis. > I could see where if you were recently disabled then maybe you haven't been > through enough to realize what life is going to throw your way, but what > about those of us that have been around a while? What keeps you pushing on… > Jeff > > > ------------------------------ > *From:* greg <[email protected]> > *To:* [email protected] > *Sent:* Thursday, January 26, 2017 6:30 PM > *Subject:* [QUAD-L] Bd > > I hate going to bed. I freeze the first half hour no matter how warm I get > my room. > Shake like I'm convulsing. > I'd stay in my chair 24/7 if I could. > Plus I just hate not being able to move around. > Greg > > > > > -- "Petting, scratching and cuddling a dog could be soothing to the mind and heart and deep meditation and almost as good for the soul as prayer." ~Dean Koontz
