Hi Everyone, First and most important thing, in my initial mail, I did not mean to make any personal remark against Amit or someone else. I only want to say, that I did not deserve the kind of behaviour that I have had to face. And this was something that was not professional or transparent. Not transparent because the work that i was doing was taken away from me without even asking or telling me anything. I did not mean anything else (especially not in the sense they have been comprehended) by those words.
Never in my dreams, never in my life have I got to see so many things written about me at any place. I prefer to work behind the scene, to the best of my abilities. I don`t want to boast about myself. But there are certain things, which I want to share with everyone, before leaving. It was really strange to know that people lost their trust over me without even letting me know that. I have one question to ask. Did anyone care to confirm about the progress of the website from me before drawing any conclusions? If conclusions are drawn on false premises, then whose fault is it? As a matter of fact, I was not* invisible* for the so called 27 days period, 5th september onwards. I was reachable on phone and mail if someone would have tried to contact me. I was working on the website of Sanskaari, whenever I got time, since I had all the resources required to make the website (Though the work done was not as much as I wud have liked). I was doing this work with one more guy (I informed Amit about it), and he was having exams during that period, so I thought it was fine to wait for some more time before getting on with things finally. And as far as responding to group mails are concerned, please show me a single mail where my reply was expected regarding the website and I did`nt reply. No one ever expressed any kind of urgency for the website during the whole period. Now it is being said that I should have understood abt the urgency due to the fact that the content for the website was posted on grp after only 7 hrs of my mail. I am unable to understand the logic behind this sentence. I also expressed my apology for not being able to give any updates during that period in my mail on 2nd oct. That apology has gone unnoticed. I appreciate the prompt response I got for my mail when I asked for suggestions. I also started working over it immediately after that though others won`t have known abt it. I want to tell you that I also wanted to have a website of Sanskaari as soon as possible, but i also wanted to ensure quality. I considered it my duty and responsibility to complete the work I had committed for. This is the reason, why I was still working over it one month before my CAT exam. And I want to emphasize that I was doing it for myself as much as for Sanskaari. If I am feeling so hurt and disillusioned right now due to this fact that the members of Sanskaari lost their trust over me, it is only because of the level to which I attached myself to Sanskaari and to my work. Trust me, I wanted to do it in best possible manner. If Sanskaari does`nt find me competent enough, then I don`t have any problem. I just wanted to say, if I would have been informed abt it a bit earlier, things would have been much better than they are right now. About 4 days ago, I shared everything I had done till then with Rohit Sapra since he stays near my house and I was unable to contact Amit over his phone. I was almost 70% done with the Sanskaari website and now I m being told that my website is being scrapped. No one even found it necessary to even tell me about it while I spent so much of time working over it in last 7-8 days. If I won`t have been responsible and commited towards my promises, then u won`t have had such kind of reaction from my side. I would have been a lot happier doing away with my responsibility. But it is`nt and never was the case. I realize that the work I have done for Sanskaari till now is much lesser than that done by most of the members. But this is also a fact, that I worked whole nights sorting out pics, selecting and redesigning templates even when I had to attend my coaching class next day. Trust me, there have been 3-4 such nights. This is small indeed, but I cannot accept the fact that it does`nt deserve any respect or appreciation. I never imagined I would need to explain my small contribution in so much detail ever. I have never done that before, but today I felt it is required. I feel that this kind of behaviour (taking work from me and giving it to someone else without even informing me) was against professionalism and transparency, the things which one expects from an organisation like Sanskaari. And as far as my own Credibility and Professionalism are concerned, I would like to give an explanation if others would care to read. What I m sharing with u here is from the depth of my heart. I joined Sanskaari 3 months ago, with only one thing in mind. I have to do something. Something, not for the country, not for society and not even for Sanskaari, but for myself. I wanted to improve myself, challenge myself and know the deeper meaning of life. And I felt that Sanskaari will help me do that. I questioned myself, "How can I be of use to Sanskaari?" I found the website work an obvious answer. But, I did not want to stop there. So I asked Amit that I will work for Pathshaala and YLM projects also. I wanted to be involved at ground work also. No one asked me to do it. I took the responsibility. My mistake was that perhaps I expected too much from myself given the situation I was in. I had left my job to prepare for CAT and to learn from the experience of working on ground like the work that is done in Sanskaari. Now in such situations, one has to maintain balance between the things. And yes, I accept the fact that most of the members in Sanskaari give more time on ground than I do, even while they have many other things to care for. But here, I would like to draw an analogy. Suppose if a person`s income is 1,00,000 Rs per month and he donates Rs 10000 for charity every month. There is another person, whose income is just Rs 10,000 per month and he somehow manages to give Rs 1000 per month. Whose contribution is more valuable? Obviously of the first one in today`s scenario. But there is one thing that I wish to ask. Can we not give even a slight amount of respect for the latter person, even though his contribution is smaller. *About the Ground projects* like Pathshala and YLM, I feel that our organisation is a voluntary organisation. Here, people do things because they want to do them. If such kind of questionings and comments are done on the work done by people, the whole purpose of volunteering gets defeated. It is as good as comparing the donations given by the people without comparing their capacities. And since u never know about anyone`s capacity, U don`t have a right to comment abt that. If taking the responsibility of YLM and Pathshala were my mistakes, then probably they were. I myself did`nt know before taking that responsibility that I won`t be able to fulfil them bcoze of such a busy schedule. There was no such intention to cheat anyone by creating so called false promises or things like that. And neither would it have been a loss to Sanskaari if I tried and could`nt do rather than if i wud`nt have tried at all. *About the membership fees*, I accept my mistake over this point. I won`t defend myself here. I got late to deposit my membership fees. I have given my membership fees due till date to Rohit Sapra on Friday. I feel sincerely apologetic for not remembering to submit it on time. I don`t have anything else to say. I just wanted to clear my heart and I have done that. Thanks. -- Rohit --~--~---------~--~----~------------~-------~--~----~ You received this message because you are subscribed to the Google Groups "sanskaari" group. 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