Re: [FairfieldLife] Re: Hate to say I told you so.
Honestly Paul, I can't remember having said that though I'm sure it was so. I used to talk alot.When I came off student purusha I had a fire under my butt to accomplish the stuff that I had set aside for a couple years. Like having some fun. I actually had given up listening to music for almost two years at MIU, but then on purusha I started listening again. I really liked purusha. I consider that the highlight of my MIU time. In the pod me and this guy Nick used to sing in the showers at the top of our lungs. Like that "In the jungle" song. We used to laugh so hard. It was hard to just be quiet during times like those, so yes, I was a good bit uncaring of others and I'm sorry now that I was such an asshole. I'm reading a Buddhist tract and it says that compassion is the antidote to bliss because it really grounds one in actuality. I wasn't very compassionate back them. I was too full of myself. And too full of bliss. A bliss that was undeserved and was merely a byproduct of meditation but not the reward for good behavior. My MIU exodus and oddessey have been through many hells and back and I am the same and yet different. I have bliss now too, but it's not something that means anything too me, it's merely there, and it usually gets dashed to pieces as soon as I head to work. A much harder process for me has been to stabilize compassion. Because it too gets dashed to pieces. Thank for the words. I don't really remember your face. I don't think you ever told me to turn it down. There was another guy Dave who had a real stereo system, maybe he was the culprit. I just had a small ghettoblaster. This is bringing back alot of memories. The only problem is they're all out of order. My days and years at MIU are sort of of one taste. I can't get a timeline in my head about events. - Original Message - From: at_man_and_brahman To: FairfieldLife@yahoogroups.com Sent: Monday, May 09, 2005 12:51 AM Subject: [FairfieldLife] Re: Hate to say I told you so. Kirk,In reality, though I hated your music, I thought that what you said in Annapurnawas a fascinating statement, and I thoughtmuch more highly of you after that. I'vequoted your statement to many, manypeople over the years.--Paul WilsonYou probably aren't Mara.--- In FairfieldLife@yahoogroups.com, "Llundrub" [EMAIL PROTECTED]... wrote: Cool. There is someone here that know's me. That rocks. I felt so alienated having always to explain myself when obviously my motivation was just so patent and superficial and absurd. Playing music was obviously such a sin. That would make me a great sinner. I knew I was good at something. But in my defense, I only played music between programs at about 3 o clock. And moreover I was the first person to live in that pod you mention. I don't know who or when you all decided it was a quiet pod. I was living there for months while it was being renovated. My one time arguing with soomeone over music it's true I told them to fuck off or put em up, which was plainly wrong, and I always regretted taking that muscular stance which was just so not me. That person must have been really naturally irritating to have struck me in such a manner as to make me want to kick their ass. I never fight. Or almost never. That is, twice in the last 20 years. Woohoo, I thought no one remembered me. I'm so psyched. So nothing I said below was true because it's my goal in life to be obnoxious. That explains why I was at MIU in the first place too. Meditating on how to be obnoxious. - Original Message - From: at_man_and_brahman To: FairfieldLife@yahoogroups.com Sent: Sunday, May 08, 2005 5:39 PM Subject: [FairfieldLife] Re: Hate to say I told you so. Kirk Bernhardt was in my pod. Though everyone had prearranged that this pod would be a "quiet" building, Kirk took it upon himself to fill the whole building with his super-loud music from downstairs. He was generally despised in the pod. I once sat near him at lunch when he explained his philosophy. "At an early age, I learned that the only thing I was good at was being obnoxious. I decided that I'd just make it my plan for life." K.B. was Mara; it takes one to know one. -Kirk Bernhardt MIU Class of '87" To subscribe, send a message to: [EMAIL PROTECTED] Or go to: http://groups.yahoo.com/group/FairfieldLife/ and click 'Join This Group!' -- Yahoo! Groups Links a.. To visit your group on the web, go to: http://groups.yahoo.com/group/FairfieldLife/ b.. To unsubscribe from this group, send an email to: [EMAIL PROTECTED] c.. Your use of Yahoo! Groups is subject to the Yahoo! Terms of Service.To subscribe, send a message to:[EMAIL PROTECTED]Or go to
Re: [FairfieldLife] Re: Hate to say I told you so.
Very right said.at_man_and_brahman [EMAIL PROTECTED] wrote: Kirk Bernhardt was in my pod. Though everyonehad prearranged that this pod would be a "quiet"building, Kirk took it upon himself to fill the wholebuilding with his super-loud music from downstairs. He was generally despised in the pod.I once sat near him at lunch when he explainedhis philosophy. "At an early age, I learned thatthe only thing I was good at was being obnoxious.I decided that I'd just make it my plan for life."K.B. was Mara; it takes one to know one. -Kirk Bernhardt MIU Class of '87" To subscribe, send a message to:[EMAIL PROTECTED]Or go to: http://groups.yahoo.com/group/FairfieldLife/and click 'Join This Group!' Yahoo! Groups Links To visit your group on the web, go to:http://groups.yahoo.com/group/FairfieldLife/ To unsubscribe from this group, send an email to:[EMAIL PROTECTED] Your use of Yahoo! Groups is subject to the Yahoo! Terms of Service. Discover Yahoo! Get on-the-go sports scores, stock quotes, news & more. Check it out! To subscribe, send a message to: [EMAIL PROTECTED] Or go to: http://groups.yahoo.com/group/FairfieldLife/ and click 'Join This Group!' Yahoo! Groups Links To visit your group on the web, go to:http://groups.yahoo.com/group/FairfieldLife/ To unsubscribe from this group, send an email to:[EMAIL PROTECTED] Your use of Yahoo! Groups is subject to the Yahoo! Terms of Service.
[FairfieldLife] Re: Hate to say I told you so.
--- In FairfieldLife@yahoogroups.com, Llundrub [EMAIL PROTECTED] wrote: Thank for the words. I don't really remember your face. I do not have one, or at least did not have one then. To subscribe, send a message to: [EMAIL PROTECTED] Or go to: http://groups.yahoo.com/group/FairfieldLife/ and click 'Join This Group!' Yahoo! Groups Links * To visit your group on the web, go to: http://groups.yahoo.com/group/FairfieldLife/ * To unsubscribe from this group, send an email to: [EMAIL PROTECTED] * Your use of Yahoo! Groups is subject to: http://docs.yahoo.com/info/terms/
[FairfieldLife] Re: Hate to say I told you so.
--- In FairfieldLife@yahoogroups.com, Zdravko Baselli [EMAIL PROTECTED] wrote: Very right said. at_man_and_brahman [EMAIL PROTECTED] wrote:Kirk Bernhardt was in my pod. Though everyone had prearranged that this pod would be a quiet building, Kirk took it upon himself to fill the whole building with his super-loud music from downstairs. He was generally despised in the pod. I once sat near him at lunch when he explained his philosophy. At an early age, I learned that the only thing I was good at was being obnoxious. I decided that I'd just make it my plan for life. This is Rudra Joe, aka Llundrub ? To subscribe, send a message to: [EMAIL PROTECTED] Or go to: http://groups.yahoo.com/group/FairfieldLife/ and click 'Join This Group!' Yahoo! Groups Links * To visit your group on the web, go to: http://groups.yahoo.com/group/FairfieldLife/ * To unsubscribe from this group, send an email to: [EMAIL PROTECTED] * Your use of Yahoo! Groups is subject to: http://docs.yahoo.com/info/terms/
[FairfieldLife] Re: Hate to say I told you so.
,Maharishi is an obvious tyrant. Have you ever seen him act from charity and give something to someone downtrodden and poor? He gave me tons of stuff...all for free. I must be the only one though. To subscribe, send a message to: [EMAIL PROTECTED] Or go to: http://groups.yahoo.com/group/FairfieldLife/ and click 'Join This Group!' Yahoo! Groups Links * To visit your group on the web, go to: http://groups.yahoo.com/group/FairfieldLife/ * To unsubscribe from this group, send an email to: [EMAIL PROTECTED] * Your use of Yahoo! Groups is subject to: http://docs.yahoo.com/info/terms/
[FairfieldLife] Re: Hate to say I told you so.
--- In FairfieldLife@yahoogroups.com, off_world_beings [EMAIL PROTECTED] wrote: ,Maharishi is an obvious tyrant. Have you ever seen him act from charity and give something to someone downtrodden and poor? He gave me tons of stuff...all for free. I must be the only one though. You are not the only one. Millions of people will think of Maharishi as the most generous person that ever lived. In Boppard He said this, not a word by word quote: I could have stayed in the mountains, but sacrifising this life was necessary for the new age to come. To subscribe, send a message to: [EMAIL PROTECTED] Or go to: http://groups.yahoo.com/group/FairfieldLife/ and click 'Join This Group!' Yahoo! Groups Links * To visit your group on the web, go to: http://groups.yahoo.com/group/FairfieldLife/ * To unsubscribe from this group, send an email to: [EMAIL PROTECTED] * Your use of Yahoo! Groups is subject to: http://docs.yahoo.com/info/terms/
[FairfieldLife] Re: Hate to say I told you so.
Hi Llundrub, That was a loaded post that was interesting to read. i have two questions Why didn't you post that directly by yourself to alt.meditation.transcendental insted of having John Manning who forwarded Eve Kadmon quating you? what am I missing? By the title you obviously feel the same, so was it at that time that you started to shift towards Buddhism? --- In FairfieldLife@yahoogroups.com, Llundrub [EMAIL PROTECTED] wrote: Google Groups : alt.meditation.transcendental To subscribe, send a message to: [EMAIL PROTECTED] Or go to: http://groups.yahoo.com/group/FairfieldLife/ and click 'Join This Group!' Yahoo! Groups Links * To visit your group on the web, go to: http://groups.yahoo.com/group/FairfieldLife/ * To unsubscribe from this group, send an email to: [EMAIL PROTECTED] * Your use of Yahoo! Groups is subject to: http://docs.yahoo.com/info/terms/
[FairfieldLife] Re: Hate to say I told you so.
Kirk Bernhardt was in my pod. Though everyone had prearranged that this pod would be a quiet building, Kirk took it upon himself to fill the whole building with his super-loud music from downstairs. He was generally despised in the pod. I once sat near him at lunch when he explained his philosophy. At an early age, I learned that the only thing I was good at was being obnoxious. I decided that I'd just make it my plan for life. K.B. was Mara; it takes one to know one. -Kirk Bernhardt MIU Class of '87 To subscribe, send a message to: [EMAIL PROTECTED] Or go to: http://groups.yahoo.com/group/FairfieldLife/ and click 'Join This Group!' Yahoo! Groups Links * To visit your group on the web, go to: http://groups.yahoo.com/group/FairfieldLife/ * To unsubscribe from this group, send an email to: [EMAIL PROTECTED] * Your use of Yahoo! Groups is subject to: http://docs.yahoo.com/info/terms/
Re: [FairfieldLife] Re: Hate to say I told you so.
I originally posted it a few months before that repost or maybe a year. I couldn't find the original, but I did want the time stamp to show that what I felt then is being borne out now. Yes, Maharishi's emphasis on money was directly responsible for me awakening to the fact that the TMO was very fallable, wrongful, and temporary. I wanted a religion that I felt would still be around during my next life. No point wasting time building up beliefs that are just going to cease to have any effect the next moment. I saw Maharishi imploding, and still do. The only religion that I found which was geared to experience and not belief was Buddhism. That will be more true in a hundred years. The end is not yet here for the Movement. Rock bottom is very low and still a bit away. I still think that even more toxic things will come about regarding Maharishi and TMO, things that will finally show that Maharishi is actually insane. He will continue to show his true colors - greed, fascism, mysogyny, lust for power, duality, hatred. The irony is that what we thought was the "lovebomb" was actuallly just the plain old bomb. From my philosophy this is very easy to measure. To wit, in unity, it all already is God and perfect, it's only the eyes that need clearing from sleep to see it. No new world order is needed. The more a new world order is pushed the more dualistic the teacher must be. We're already quite ok, no new outfit is needed. I'll say it again, the more far out the scheme the further from truth the scheemer. No one on earth has been more far out than Maharishi including Hitler. I could go on, but I won't. - Original Message - From: anonymousff To: FairfieldLife@yahoogroups.com Sent: Sunday, May 08, 2005 5:03 PM Subject: [FairfieldLife] Re: Hate to say I told you so. Hi Llundrub,That was a loaded post that was interesting to read.i have two questions Why didn't you post that directly by yourself to alt.meditation.transcendental insted of having John Manning who forwarded Eve Kadmon quating you? what am I missing?By the title you obviously feel the same, so was it at thattime that you started to shift towards Buddhism?--- In FairfieldLife@yahoogroups.com, "Llundrub" [EMAIL PROTECTED] wrote: Google Groups : alt.meditation.transcendental ingTo subscribe, send a message to:[EMAIL PROTECTED]Or go to: http://groups.yahoo.com/group/FairfieldLife/and click 'Join This Group!' To subscribe, send a message to: [EMAIL PROTECTED] Or go to: http://groups.yahoo.com/group/FairfieldLife/ and click 'Join This Group!' Yahoo! Groups Links To visit your group on the web, go to:http://groups.yahoo.com/group/FairfieldLife/ To unsubscribe from this group, send an email to:[EMAIL PROTECTED] Your use of Yahoo! Groups is subject to the Yahoo! Terms of Service.
[FairfieldLife] Re: Hate to say I told you so.
--- In FairfieldLife@yahoogroups.com, at_man_and_brahman [EMAIL PROTECTED] wrote: Kirk Bernhardt was in my pod. Though everyone had prearranged that this pod would be a quiet building, Kirk took it upon himself to fill the whole building with his super-loud music from downstairs. He was generally despised in the pod. I once sat near him at lunch when he explained his philosophy. At an early age, I learned that the only thing I was good at was being obnoxious. I decided that I'd just make it my plan for life. K.B. was Mara; it takes one to know one. -Kirk Bernhardt MIU Class of '87 . LOL ! I guess he hasn't changed. he's trying though...right Kirk? To subscribe, send a message to: [EMAIL PROTECTED] Or go to: http://groups.yahoo.com/group/FairfieldLife/ and click 'Join This Group!' Yahoo! Groups Links * To visit your group on the web, go to: http://groups.yahoo.com/group/FairfieldLife/ * To unsubscribe from this group, send an email to: [EMAIL PROTECTED] * Your use of Yahoo! Groups is subject to: http://docs.yahoo.com/info/terms/
Re: [FairfieldLife] Re: Hate to say I told you so.
LOL !I guess he hasn't changed. he's trying though...right Kirk?---Yep To subscribe, send a message to: [EMAIL PROTECTED] Or go to: http://groups.yahoo.com/group/FairfieldLife/ and click 'Join This Group!' Yahoo! Groups Links To visit your group on the web, go to:http://groups.yahoo.com/group/FairfieldLife/ To unsubscribe from this group, send an email to:[EMAIL PROTECTED] Your use of Yahoo! Groups is subject to the Yahoo! Terms of Service.
[FairfieldLife] Re: Hate to say I told you so.
--- In FairfieldLife@yahoogroups.com, Llundrub [EMAIL PROTECTED] wrote: Cool. There is someone here that know's me. That rocks. I felt so alienated having always to explain myself when obviously my motivation was just so patent and superficial and absurd. Playing music was obviously such a sin. That would make me a great sinner. I knew I was good at something. But in my defense, I only played music between programs at about 3 o clock. And moreover I was the first person to live in that pod you mention. I don't know who or when you all decided it was a quiet pod. I was living there for months while it was being renovated. My one time arguing with soomeone over music it's true I told them to fuck off or put em up, which was plainly wrong, and I always regretted taking that muscular stance which was just so not me. That person must have been really naturally irritating to have struck me in such a manner as to make me want to kick their ass. I never fight. Or almost never. That is, twice in the last 20 years. Woohoo, I thought no one remembered me. I'm so psyched. So nothing I said below was true because it's my goal in life to be obnoxious. That explains why I was at MIU in the first place too. Meditating on how to be obnoxious. I got that siddhi. Friendliness, compassion, obnoxiousness. The next one is steal money and feel OK, yeah that's it. Although I think that is MAHA's mantra. Right from the mahaveda. To subscribe, send a message to: [EMAIL PROTECTED] Or go to: http://groups.yahoo.com/group/FairfieldLife/ and click 'Join This Group!' Yahoo! Groups Links * To visit your group on the web, go to: http://groups.yahoo.com/group/FairfieldLife/ * To unsubscribe from this group, send an email to: [EMAIL PROTECTED] * Your use of Yahoo! Groups is subject to: http://docs.yahoo.com/info/terms/
[FairfieldLife] Re: Hate to say I told you so.
Kirk, In reality, though I hated your music, I thought that what you said in Annapurna was a fascinating statement, and I thought much more highly of you after that. I've quoted your statement to many, many people over the years. --Paul Wilson You probably aren't Mara. --- In FairfieldLife@yahoogroups.com, Llundrub [EMAIL PROTECTED] wrote: Cool. There is someone here that know's me. That rocks. I felt so alienated having always to explain myself when obviously my motivation was just so patent and superficial and absurd. Playing music was obviously such a sin. That would make me a great sinner. I knew I was good at something. But in my defense, I only played music between programs at about 3 o clock. And moreover I was the first person to live in that pod you mention. I don't know who or when you all decided it was a quiet pod. I was living there for months while it was being renovated. My one time arguing with soomeone over music it's true I told them to fuck off or put em up, which was plainly wrong, and I always regretted taking that muscular stance which was just so not me. That person must have been really naturally irritating to have struck me in such a manner as to make me want to kick their ass. I never fight. Or almost never. That is, twice in the last 20 years. Woohoo, I thought no one remembered me. I'm so psyched. So nothing I said below was true because it's my goal in life to be obnoxious. That explains why I was at MIU in the first place too. Meditating on how to be obnoxious. - Original Message - From: at_man_and_brahman To: FairfieldLife@yahoogroups.com Sent: Sunday, May 08, 2005 5:39 PM Subject: [FairfieldLife] Re: Hate to say I told you so. Kirk Bernhardt was in my pod. Though everyone had prearranged that this pod would be a quiet building, Kirk took it upon himself to fill the whole building with his super-loud music from downstairs. He was generally despised in the pod. I once sat near him at lunch when he explained his philosophy. At an early age, I learned that the only thing I was good at was being obnoxious. I decided that I'd just make it my plan for life. K.B. was Mara; it takes one to know one. -Kirk Bernhardt MIU Class of '87 To subscribe, send a message to: [EMAIL PROTECTED] Or go to: http://groups.yahoo.com/group/FairfieldLife/ and click 'Join This Group!' -- Yahoo! Groups Links a.. To visit your group on the web, go to: http://groups.yahoo.com/group/FairfieldLife/ b.. To unsubscribe from this group, send an email to: [EMAIL PROTECTED] c.. Your use of Yahoo! Groups is subject to the Yahoo! Terms of Service. To subscribe, send a message to: [EMAIL PROTECTED] Or go to: http://groups.yahoo.com/group/FairfieldLife/ and click 'Join This Group!' Yahoo! Groups Links * To visit your group on the web, go to: http://groups.yahoo.com/group/FairfieldLife/ * To unsubscribe from this group, send an email to: [EMAIL PROTECTED] * Your use of Yahoo! Groups is subject to: http://docs.yahoo.com/info/terms/
