Re: [FairfieldLife] Re: BBC News Online: Warning over narcissistic pupils
What sort of clarity do you wish for? I recall my father's death perfectly. I could go into details but I am not sure what value it would have for you. It did fuck up my entire life and it took me at least thirty more years to process and see the results. Though the results on my motivation were instantaneous. I had been a perfect 'A' student, of course we're talking about up to third grade. At that time I took a nosedive and my grades went down and I became more 'punky.' The 'narcissistic' sense of 'entitlement' continued through my actions and was a sort of carrier of my angst. It wasn't until witnessing destruction of my city that my sense of change became overwhelming and rather incapacitating for me. I no longer feel a sense of 'entitlement' whatsoever, not after watching my best friends entire way of life permanently displaced. I was watching him cry yesterday. He's epileptic and had seizures recently and was banned from work until he get's a doctor's slip. Anyway, that was a couple weeks ago, or more like a month, and he can't get a doctor's slip, and now he is going to be evicted. So now I am watching my best friend, and one of the few people I love move away. Sorry I'm rambling. Loss. I was being 'narcissistic' about my loss. Maybe not. Anyway, fuck me. I'm tired. Happy St Patrick's Day. - Original Message - From: lurkernomore20002000 steve.sun...@sbcglobal.net To: FairfieldLife@yahoogroups.com Sent: Monday, March 16, 2009 10:05 PM Subject: [FairfieldLife] Re: BBC News Online: Warning over narcissistic pupils Kirk kirk_bernha...@... wrote: I was quite spoiled as a small child - with attention - breast fed, large family, I also had three older sisters , grandmother living across the street. I was very much feeling - entitled - until I watched my father die when I was eight. Everything changed. Would you care to elaborate? I am in the process of examining my childhood, which I remember as only very ideal, to try to find some clues to some adult issues I am presently dealing with. As well, my wife's dad died when she was just a baby, and that, naturally has played a significant role in her life. But I can recall no such event, yet I have issues that I am trying to get some clarification on. Thanks To subscribe, send a message to: fairfieldlife-subscr...@yahoogroups.com Or go to: http://groups.yahoo.com/group/FairfieldLife/ and click 'Join This Group!'Yahoo! Groups Links
Re: [FairfieldLife] Re: BBC News Online: Warning over narcissistic pupils
My addictive tendencies were there from youth. I started smoking pot at age twelve. I stopped though at fifteen until I finished my MIU experience at 21. Then was re-introduced in Law School, of all places. Then I went to food service which is a cross section of the criminal world. Most of my friends are at least huge partiers if not outright druggies. My task has been to reintegrate into society at large in a non-criminal and wholesome way. Eschewing drugs. I am attempting, not very successfully, to give up all substances. If you have addictive issues feel free to PM me as I probably know all about any of them first hand. My best friends GF just went to rehab and moved due to multiple hard drug addictions. She was also one of my best friends. It was saddening to watch her escape the chain of addiction by having to escape. This is something that TM has helped me with, and is still available as a tool for me, is in personal rehab, when I have sunk to the bottom and have to go through it. I have never sought to finally escape anything. I don't believe in it. I have gone through the bottom I feel more often than most. It's a funny thing but spirituality doesn't cease under pressure. It is refined. If one remains open to their failures and can accept them as positives. I have had 45 jobs in my adult life. But I was introduced to all of New Orleans Creole Cuisine first hand and cooked it all in the best restaurants until I was myself adopted into it. Then Katrina, and you can be sure only the few hard line Creole restaurants still exist. Lately, I am thinking death is the real reality and we here are all living in the world of shadows. Because everything and everyone has gone on I can say that if it weren't for my wife I don't think I would have made it this far. She showed me goodness in a hard edged world. Been lavish with her goodness. If I was given the choice of immortality I would turn it flat down. Now: Addictions are all self based self medication. Due to some feeling of imbalance in neurophysiology. One shouldn't feel embarrased or distracted, but one should try to seek help in the most societally accepted way as available. IE., work with a shrink for a little while. In the words of a Buddhist teacher I have - he says - problem with drugs is that you need more and more. One should understand that this is one of the major issues as toxicity to oneself and environment grow exponentially. - Original Message - From: lurkernomore20002000 To: FairfieldLife@yahoogroups.com Sent: Tuesday, March 17, 2009 7:53 AM Subject: [FairfieldLife] Re: BBC News Online: Warning over narcissistic pupils --- In FairfieldLife@yahoogroups.com, Kirk kirk_bernha...@... wrote: What sort of clarity do you wish for? The clarity deals with my own situation, which I am working on. You said everyting was going well for you until you watched your Dad die at age 8. Then it sounds like you started acting out, as they say. So, I guess that, as in many cases, you had difficulty processing this event, and therefore dealt with it in a different way. That is all. I believe this is a common scenario. What I am curious about, is that if, say, one has a childhood which seems nearly perfect, or at least not marred by any abuse, or major event like you experienced, and one starts to come up on some addictive tendencies as an adult, where might the problem lay. I recall my father's death perfectly. I could go into details but I am not sure what value it would have for you. It did fuck up my entire life and it took me at least thirty more years to process and see the results. Though the results on my motivation were instantaneous. I had been a perfect 'A' student, of course we're talking about up to third grade. At that time I took a nosedive and my grades went down and I became more 'punky.' The 'narcissistic' sense of 'entitlement' continued through my actions and was a sort of carrier of my angst. It wasn't until witnessing destruction of my city that my sense of change became overwhelming and rather incapacitating for me. I no longer feel a sense of 'entitlement' whatsoever, not after watching my best friends entire way of life permanently displaced. I was watching him cry yesterday. He's epileptic and had seizures recently and was banned from work until he get's a doctor's slip. Anyway, that was a couple weeks ago, or more like a month, and he can't get a doctor's slip, and now he is going to be evicted. So now I am watching my best friend, and one of the few people I love move away. Sorry I'm rambling. Loss. I was being 'narcissistic' about my loss. Maybe not. Anyway, fuck me. I'm tired. Happy St Patrick's Day. - Original Message - From: lurkernomore20002000 steve.sun...@... To: FairfieldLife@yahoogroups.com Sent: Monday,
Re: [FairfieldLife] Re: BBC News Online: Warning over narcissistic pupils
Sure also some things like hypo/hyper thyroid and other similar hormonal or endocrinal imbalances may lead to addictive and self medicating behaviour. In other words sometimes people get 'nerves' and 'tightness' anorexia' or something like it, and so on. Such things might drive a person to drink or smoke pot, or worse. So I should add that medical reasons could also underlie the need to seek --- medicine. - Original Message - From: lurkernomore20002000 steve.sun...@sbcglobal.net To: FairfieldLife@yahoogroups.com Sent: Tuesday, March 17, 2009 6:33 PM Subject: [FairfieldLife] Re: BBC News Online: Warning over narcissistic pupils Kirk kirk_bernha...@... wrote: snip Now: Addictions are all self based self medication. Due to some feeling of imbalance in neurophysiology. One shouldn't feel embarrased or distracted, but one should try to seek help in the most societally accepted way as available. IE., work with a shrink for a little while. Thanks much for sharing this part of your life. This last paragraph really encapsulizes the situation- the problem, a likely cause, and a course of action. Privately I would share what steps I am taking. Thus far it has been a positive experience because I had issues I wasn't dealing with, and now they are being addressed. To subscribe, send a message to: fairfieldlife-subscr...@yahoogroups.com Or go to: http://groups.yahoo.com/group/FairfieldLife/ and click 'Join This Group!'Yahoo! Groups Links
Re: [FairfieldLife] Re: BBC News Online: Warning over narcissistic pupils
You probably know me, you at least know my email. If you feel like emailing me I'm around. - Original Message - From: lurkernomore20002000 steve.sun...@sbcglobal.net To: FairfieldLife@yahoogroups.com Sent: Tuesday, March 17, 2009 6:33 PM Subject: [FairfieldLife] Re: BBC News Online: Warning over narcissistic pupils Kirk kirk_bernha...@... wrote: snip Now: Addictions are all self based self medication. Due to some feeling of imbalance in neurophysiology. One shouldn't feel embarrased or distracted, but one should try to seek help in the most societally accepted way as available. IE., work with a shrink for a little while. Thanks much for sharing this part of your life. This last paragraph really encapsulizes the situation- the problem, a likely cause, and a course of action. Privately I would share what steps I am taking. Thus far it has been a positive experience because I had issues I wasn't dealing with, and now they are being addressed. To subscribe, send a message to: fairfieldlife-subscr...@yahoogroups.com Or go to: http://groups.yahoo.com/group/FairfieldLife/ and click 'Join This Group!'Yahoo! Groups Links
Re: [FairfieldLife] Re: BBC News Online: Warning over narcissistic pupils
On Sun, Mar 15, 2009 at 9:04 PM, curtisdeltablues curtisdeltabl...@yahoo.com wrote: --- In FairfieldLife@yahoogroups.com, I am the eternal l.shad...@... wrote: I have no idea what goes on at the Maharishi School but I can tell you that I never, ever want to be near a TM brat. The kid screams, cries, screams and I never hear even hush. I don't know what age you are talking about here. But in my experience this is not a TM thing. This is how this generation is raising their kids all over America, kid centric lives. We'll have to see how it turns out. I just remembered. Two of the guys on my first IA taught at the Maharishi School part time giving (free) seminars. Neither one of them could stop talking about the unruly pupils. The boys were sitting in the teacher's chair, throwing things about the room. It was all the could do to regain control of the classes. IRRC this was 2-4 grade. Both guys were from Ireland.
