Re: [silk] What is happiness?
On Mon, Mar 11, 2013 at 9:40 AM, Udhay Shankar Nwrote: We've discussed this here before (e.g. [1] [2]), but here's another > worthwhile take, from a former colleague at Yahoo! and a recent silklister. > > Thoughts? > > Udhay > > [1] http://groups.yahoo.com/group/silk-list/message/4965 > [2] http://groups.yahoo.com/group/silk-list/message/37925 > > http://blog.mizannethrope.com/post/45039337095/happiness-is- > pine-sol-and-clorox-and-like-them-both https://www.inc.com/betsy-mikel/yale-is-letting-anyone-take-its-most-popular-class-ever-for-free.html When Yale began offering a new course this semester, over 1,000 students jumped at the opportunity. It wasn't about business, technology or innovation. It's about how to be happy. Nearly a fourth of the undergraduate student body enrolled in Psyc 157: Psychology and the Good Life. It quickly became the university's most popular class in Yale's 316-year history. Psychology and cognitive science professor Laurie Santos teaches the course. In it, she covers the science behind positive psychology and behavioral change. Students are required to embark on a self-improvement project throughout the course. "Students want to change, to be happier themselves," Santos told the The New York Times. Don't we all? According to Santos, antidepressants are prescribed at 400 times the rate they were 20 years ago. That's why Santos and Yale started offering an adapted version of the course for free via online learning platform Coursera. It's called The Science of Well-Being. (h/t to Quartz for the news.) Learning -- and practicing -- how to be happy The Coursera lectures are filmed in Santos' own living room. With a casual and personal approach, Santos hopes to reach people on a deeper, habit-changing level. "The hope is that this isn't gonna be an ordinary class or lecture series," Santos explains in an introductory video about the course. "This is the kind of thing that we hope will change your life in a real way." Santos believes understanding the science of happiness isn't enough. People need to put that knowledge into practice. So The Science of Well-Being has two areas of focus: Teach you about the science of happiness, and help you learn how to "practice" happiness in your daily life. Ultimately, the hope is that you'll finish happier than when you started. That is, if you commit to doing so. "You're signing on to do that hard part," Santos says. The six-week course covers the following topics: Misconceptions about happiness Why our expectations are so bad What stuff really increases happiness Strategies to reset our expectations Putting strategies into practice Registration opened in March, and people have already started taking it. One reviewer raved that the course was "much better than verbal therapy." Currently the course has 31 reviews, which average four-and-a-half stars. So will taking The Science of Well-Being make you happier? Guess there's only one way to find out.
Re: [silk] What is happiness?
Shrabonti Bagchi shrabont...@gmail.com wrote: I keep going back to this piece by Tim Kreider whenever someone talks about finding the meaning of happiness http://opinionator.blogs.nytimes.com/2009/08/02/averted-vision/ Averted Vision By TIM KREIDER Happiness is a mystery, like religion, and should never be rationalized. -- Gilbert K. Chesterton
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I keep going back to this piece by Tim Kreider whenever someone talks about finding the meaning of happiness http://opinionator.blogs.nytimes.com/2009/08/02/averted-vision/ Averted Vision By TIM KREIDER In 1996 I rode the circus train to Mexico City where I lived for a month, pretending to be someone’s husband. (Don’t even ask.) I remember my time there as we remember most of our travels — vivid and thrilling, everything new and strange. My ex-fake-wife Carolyn and I often reminisce nostalgically about our honeymoon there: ordering un balde hielo from room service to cool our Coronas every afternoon, the black-velvet painting of the devil on the toilet that she made me buy, our shared hilarious terror of kidnapping and murder, the giant pork rind I wrangled through customs. Which is funny, since, if I think back honestly, while I was actually there I did not feel “happy.” In fact, as mi esposa did not hesitate to point out to me at the time, I griped incessantly about the noise and stink of the city — the car horns playing shrill, uptempo versions of the theme from “The Godfather” or “La Cucaracha” every second, the noxious mix of diesel fumes and urine, the air so filthy we’d been there a week before I learned we had a view of the mountains. I was similarly miserable throughout the happiest summer I ever spent in New York City. I was recovering from an affair that had ended badly, and during my convalescence I was subletting a cool, airy apartment a block from Tompkins Square Park, with a kitchen window that looked out on a community garden. A theater troupe was rehearsing a production of “The Tempest” out there, and I got used to the warped rattling crash of sheet-metal thunder in the evenings. I happened to catch “The Passion of St. Joan of Arc” on cable for the first time late one night, a film I knew nothing about — it was grotesque and beautiful, astonishing. One of the happiest memories of my life is of sitting on top of the little knoll in the park with my friend Ellen, eating a sweet Hawaiian pizza and waiting to see what movie would play on the outdoor screen that was being inflated in front of us. (It turned out to be “Raiders of the Lost Ark.”) Even though this whole time I was preoccupied with thoughts of the woman I’d lost and torturing myself with jealousy and insane fantasies of vengeance, in retrospect it’s obvious now that the main thing I was doing that summer was falling in love. I wonder, sometimes, whether it is a perversity peculiar to my own mind or just the common lot of humanity to experience happiness mainly in retrospect. I have of course considered the theory that I am an idiot who fails to appreciate anything when he actually has it and only loves what he’s lost. Or perhaps this is all just what Michael Chabon called “the ruinous work of nostalgia, which obliterates the past.” But I think I recall that summer with such clarity and affection for much the same reason that I remember my month in Mexico City so fondly. The fresh heartbreak was, in a sense, like being in a foreign country; everything seemed alien, brilliant and glinting. It was as if I’d been flayed, so that even the air hurt. When you’re that unhappy, any glimmer of beauty or consolation feels like running into an old friend abroad, or seeing mountaintops through smog. Maybe we mistakenly think we want “happiness,” which we tend to picture in very vague, soft-focus terms, when what we really crave is the harder-edged intensity of experience. We do each have a handful of those moments, the ones we only take out to treasure rarely, like jewels, when we looked up from our lives and realized: “I’m happy.” One of the last times this happened to me, inexplicably, I was driving on Maryland’s unsublime Route 40 with the window down, looking at a peeling Burger King billboard while Van Halen played on the radio. But this kind of intense and present happiness is heartbreakingly ephemeral; as soon as you notice it you dispel it, like blocking yourself from remembering a word by trying too hard to retrieve it. And our attempts to contrive this feeling through any kind of replicable method — with drinking or drugs or sexual seduction, buying new stuff, listening to the same old songs that reliably give us shivers — never quite recapture the spontaneous, profligate joy of the real thing. In other words be advised that Burger King billboards and Van Halen are not a sure-fire combination, any more than are scotch and cigars. I didn’t always enjoy being a cartoonist. During the 12 years of my career, if I can call it that, I bored my friends and colleagues by complaining bitterly about the insulting pay, the lack of recognition, the short half-life of political cartoons as art. And yet, if I’m allowed any final accounting of my days, I may find, to my surprise, that I reckon those Fridays when I woke up without an idea in my head and only started drawing around noon, calling friends at work for emergency humor
Re: [silk] What is happiness?
Message: 1 Date: Fri, 29 Mar 2013 16:52:25 +0530 From: Shrabonti Bagchi shrabont...@gmail.com To: silklist@lists.hserus.net Subject: Re: [silk] What is happiness? Message-ID: CADXEv+Nzi=fpt56nu2w5jh4lqolcb9k86rmjap_02v+gh5v...@mail.gmail.com Content-Type: text/plain; charset=windows-1252 I was similarly miserable throughout the happiest summer I ever spent in New York City. Maybe intensity is what we seek to escape the existential vacuum that Sartre talks about.
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Hi Shiv! Really poetic description of your rite of passage back to India. I have found that India never leaves you and it has nothing to do with the actual physical place - our mind, the placenta where the blood of the past and the future touch each other. Now that I find all physical evidence of my childhood is being destroyed in India (only time I find it is in a few remote Air Force bases), there is a chance to create anew. Empty mind, yes. You should check out a wonderful lecture by Allen Ginsberg on a site called Simply Haiku. Life in Vancouver, without snow or moose (what is the plural - mice???) is precious. -- Be careful what you water your dreams with. Water them with worry and fear and you will produce weeds that choke the life from your dream. Water them with optimism and solutions and you will cultivate success. Always be on the lookout for ways to turn a problem into an opportunity for success. Always be on the lookout for ways to nurture your dream. ~ Lao Tzu (courtesy -Peacefrog) Simplicity, patience, compassion. These three are your greatest treasures. Simple in actions and thoughts, you return to the source of being. Patient with both friends and enemies, you accord with the way things are. Compassionate toward yourself, you reconcile all beings in the world. -- Lao Tzu, in Tao Te Ching
Re: [silk] What is happiness?
-BEGIN PGP SIGNED MESSAGE- Hash: SHA1 On 03/16/2013 01:21 PM, SS wrote: For decades I have insisted that happiness is inside the head, between one's ears. Over 20 years ago when I used to live in the UK I found Indians who had achieved their dream of leading a wealthy life abroad lamenting that they wanted to go back to India. There were whiny and unhappy. *nod* I think that a lot of people think that money will buy them happiness, because many of the things restricting their happiness at the moment can be solved with money. But removing limitations to happiness doesn't automatically mean finding happiness. If I became rich, I suspect I would start by solving the problems in my life that I can solve with the money I have, then allocate a fixed budget to splashing out in order to throw away the constraints of many, many, years of making do with what I had - then, with that out of my system, settle down to living frugally again, and decide how to wisely use the remaining money... I did something along those lines when I inherited four thousand pounds as a teenager: I replaced the computer whose limitations were holding back my experiments in computer science, splashed out on meals and music CDs and books for a while, then tucked the rest away into savings to see me through University, having sated my desire for material acquisition. Sadly, a stressful past decade has re-kindled that desire, so I'm awaiting the opportunity to sate it again :-) It's all relative, though. I have resources and a standard of living that would seem unimaginable to some, but I see many of my peers living much better for less work, and that creates the feeling of desire... ABS (delurking somewhat due to a tidy-up of his mail folders making it easier to follow lists again!) - -- Alaric Snell-Pym http://www.snell-pym.org.uk/alaric/ -BEGIN PGP SIGNATURE- Version: GnuPG v1.4.11 (GNU/Linux) Comment: Using GnuPG with Mozilla - http://enigmail.mozdev.org/ iEYEARECAAYFAlFHIdoACgkQRgz/WHNxCGq+YwCfaCY3fqr+/9XpTq7NNOWM5uz5 XJoAn3nsW7r/yIYnEcPq7cEk8/w87oau =D5Dp -END PGP SIGNATURE-
Re: [silk] What is happiness?
On Mar 17, 2013, at 11:13 AM, Shoba Narayan sh...@shobanarayan.com wrote: ing happiness possible. For decades I have insisted that happiness is inside the head, between one's ears. Over 20 years ago when I used to live in the UK I found Indians who had achieved their dream of leading a wealthy life abroad lamenting that they wanted to go back to India. There were whiny and unhappy. I was planning on going back to India anyway, but did not want to regret that I did not try something that I could have done. I had decided against the US simply because I had medical qualifications from India and the UK and had no intention of requalifying in the US at an age when I could be teaching my teachers something. I decided to check out Canada. For me the checking out route meant buying a practice and what was available was a practice in the town of Wadena (pop 1000), Saskatchewan.I visited Bangalore briefly before going to Canada. In Bangalore I happened to meet the mother of a young man living in Saskatoon who instantly (and very kindly) arranged for me to use his home as base while I checked out Wadena, 60 odd miles away. She spoke glowingly of her son and his wife. They had double of everything. Two cars. Two TVs. Two whatnots. Four bathrooms. This was 1989. In February 1989 I flew out to Toronto and thence to Saskatoon. I flew Wardair that served their food in Wedgwood crockery, and went out of business in a year or so. The temperature in Saskatoon was -20 centigrade. My breath was freezing on my moustache. People who parked cars at the airport did not turn off their engines. Cheap oil. The couple I stayed with were very warm and hospitable. But they lamented that they wanted to be back in India. Look outside they said. 5 feet of snow. Wadena had two hotels. One was called Hotel Motel where I got a room and spent a night. The mayor who had heard that a doctor was visiting came up in the morning and had breakfast with me. He was very friendly and genuinely welcoming. He drove me around that little town in his pick up truck. I asked him what there was to do in town, and he told me that I could go moose hunting on his estate and indicated that there were snow scooters I could use. I had visions of telling my wife to pick up the rifle and go moose hunting because I was held up at the clinic and that I would join her later. Canada was not the place for me. I returned to India the next year. People in India were amazed that I was idiot enough to return to India after having made it in the west. I told them that I had been living in the north of England and had suffered a nervous breakdown. The previous summer I had seen a bright light in the sky that scared me witless leading to the breakdown. When I recovered people told me that the light was actually the sun. I had not seen the sun for 2 years in the north of England and had forgotten about it. Scary innit? Happiness is in one's head. There is a digitized 8 mm home movie of me as a 4 year old child carrying a toy gun. I still love shooting. There is something compellingly satisfying about pulling a little lever attached to a pipe in front of you and seeing a Coke can explode dozens of yards away. I have received warning letters from the Society for Prevention of Cruelty to Tin cans. But what do I care? Happiness is doing things that you feel like doing. Things that relax you and keep your mind empty like that recently perforated Coke can. shiv Lovely writing, Shiv. I agree, this needs - deserves public homage.
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On Mon, 2013-03-11 at 09:40 +0530, Udhay Shankar N wrote: Is not the cup that holds your wine the very cup that was burned in the potter’s oven? I read that to mean that to truly experience happiness, you must experience deep sorrow. Which to me, means that you can’t be happy all the time. It’s not possible and it’s not even desirable. Take pleasure in the little things and stop looking for the “HAPPINESS,” all-caps. Be happy with “happy,” lowercase. And understand that sadness (or in my case, a messy house, or on a whole different scale, the recent death of my mother) is what makes knowing happiness possible. For decades I have insisted that happiness is inside the head, between one's ears. Over 20 years ago when I used to live in the UK I found Indians who had achieved their dream of leading a wealthy life abroad lamenting that they wanted to go back to India. There were whiny and unhappy. I was planning on going back to India anyway, but did not want to regret that I did not try something that I could have done. I had decided against the US simply because I had medical qualifications from India and the UK and had no intention of requalifying in the US at an age when I could be teaching my teachers something. I decided to check out Canada. For me the checking out route meant buying a practice and what was available was a practice in the town of Wadena (pop 1000), Saskatchewan.I visited Bangalore briefly before going to Canada. In Bangalore I happened to meet the mother of a young man living in Saskatoon who instantly (and very kindly) arranged for me to use his home as base while I checked out Wadena, 60 odd miles away. She spoke glowingly of her son and his wife. They had double of everything. Two cars. Two TVs. Two whatnots. Four bathrooms. This was 1989. In February 1989 I flew out to Toronto and thence to Saskatoon. I flew Wardair that served their food in Wedgwood crockery, and went out of business in a year or so. The temperature in Saskatoon was -20 centigrade. My breath was freezing on my moustache. People who parked cars at the airport did not turn off their engines. Cheap oil. The couple I stayed with were very warm and hospitable. But they lamented that they wanted to be back in India. Look outside they said. 5 feet of snow. Wadena had two hotels. One was called Hotel Motel where I got a room and spent a night. The mayor who had heard that a doctor was visiting came up in the morning and had breakfast with me. He was very friendly and genuinely welcoming. He drove me around that little town in his pick up truck. I asked him what there was to do in town, and he told me that I could go moose hunting on his estate and indicated that there were snow scooters I could use. I had visions of telling my wife to pick up the rifle and go moose hunting because I was held up at the clinic and that I would join her later. Canada was not the place for me. I returned to India the next year. People in India were amazed that I was idiot enough to return to India after having made it in the west. I told them that I had been living in the north of England and had suffered a nervous breakdown. The previous summer I had seen a bright light in the sky that scared me witless leading to the breakdown. When I recovered people told me that the light was actually the sun. I had not seen the sun for 2 years in the north of England and had forgotten about it. Scary innit? Happiness is in one's head. There is a digitized 8 mm home movie of me as a 4 year old child carrying a toy gun. I still love shooting. There is something compellingly satisfying about pulling a little lever attached to a pipe in front of you and seeing a Coke can explode dozens of yards away. I have received warning letters from the Society for Prevention of Cruelty to Tin cans. But what do I care? Happiness is doing things that you feel like doing. Things that relax you and keep your mind empty like that recently perforated Coke can. shiv
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What happens when one wants to print a mail like this on a mailing list onto another platform? What is the proper way to do things? bonobashi From: SS cybers...@gmail.com To: silklist@lists.hserus.net Sent: Saturday, 16 March 2013 6:51 PM Subject: Re: [silk] What is happiness? On Mon, 2013-03-11 at 09:40 +0530, Udhay Shankar N wrote: Is not the cup that holds your wine the very cup that was burned in the potter’s oven? I read that to mean that to truly experience happiness, you must experience deep sorrow. Which to me, means that you can’t be happy all the time. It’s not possible and it’s not even desirable. Take pleasure in the little things and stop looking for the “HAPPINESS,” all-caps. Be happy with “happy,” lowercase. And understand that sadness (or in my case, a messy house, or on a whole different scale, the recent death of my mother) is what makes knowing happiness possible. For decades I have insisted that happiness is inside the head, between one's ears. Over 20 years ago when I used to live in the UK I found Indians who had achieved their dream of leading a wealthy life abroad lamenting that they wanted to go back to India. There were whiny and unhappy. I was planning on going back to India anyway, but did not want to regret that I did not try something that I could have done. I had decided against the US simply because I had medical qualifications from India and the UK and had no intention of requalifying in the US at an age when I could be teaching my teachers something. I decided to check out Canada. For me the checking out route meant buying a practice and what was available was a practice in the town of Wadena (pop 1000), Saskatchewan.I visited Bangalore briefly before going to Canada. In Bangalore I happened to meet the mother of a young man living in Saskatoon who instantly (and very kindly) arranged for me to use his home as base while I checked out Wadena, 60 odd miles away. She spoke glowingly of her son and his wife. They had double of everything. Two cars. Two TVs. Two whatnots. Four bathrooms. This was 1989. In February 1989 I flew out to Toronto and thence to Saskatoon. I flew Wardair that served their food in Wedgwood crockery, and went out of business in a year or so. The temperature in Saskatoon was -20 centigrade. My breath was freezing on my moustache. People who parked cars at the airport did not turn off their engines. Cheap oil. The couple I stayed with were very warm and hospitable. But they lamented that they wanted to be back in India. Look outside they said. 5 feet of snow. Wadena had two hotels. One was called Hotel Motel where I got a room and spent a night. The mayor who had heard that a doctor was visiting came up in the morning and had breakfast with me. He was very friendly and genuinely welcoming. He drove me around that little town in his pick up truck. I asked him what there was to do in town, and he told me that I could go moose hunting on his estate and indicated that there were snow scooters I could use. I had visions of telling my wife to pick up the rifle and go moose hunting because I was held up at the clinic and that I would join her later. Canada was not the place for me. I returned to India the next year. People in India were amazed that I was idiot enough to return to India after having made it in the west. I told them that I had been living in the north of England and had suffered a nervous breakdown. The previous summer I had seen a bright light in the sky that scared me witless leading to the breakdown. When I recovered people told me that the light was actually the sun. I had not seen the sun for 2 years in the north of England and had forgotten about it. Scary innit? Happiness is in one's head. There is a digitized 8 mm home movie of me as a 4 year old child carrying a toy gun. I still love shooting. There is something compellingly satisfying about pulling a little lever attached to a pipe in front of you and seeing a Coke can explode dozens of yards away. I have received warning letters from the Society for Prevention of Cruelty to Tin cans. But what do I care? Happiness is doing things that you feel like doing. Things that relax you and keep your mind empty like that recently perforated Coke can. shiv
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On Sat, Mar 16, 2013 at 11:52 PM, Indrajit Gupta bonoba...@yahoo.co.in wrote: What happens when one wants to print a mail like this on a mailing list onto another platform? What is the proper way to do things? Just point them at the archives. Udhay
Re: [silk] What is happiness?
ing happiness possible. For decades I have insisted that happiness is inside the head, between one's ears. Over 20 years ago when I used to live in the UK I found Indians who had achieved their dream of leading a wealthy life abroad lamenting that they wanted to go back to India. There were whiny and unhappy. I was planning on going back to India anyway, but did not want to regret that I did not try something that I could have done. I had decided against the US simply because I had medical qualifications from India and the UK and had no intention of requalifying in the US at an age when I could be teaching my teachers something. I decided to check out Canada. For me the checking out route meant buying a practice and what was available was a practice in the town of Wadena (pop 1000), Saskatchewan.I visited Bangalore briefly before going to Canada. In Bangalore I happened to meet the mother of a young man living in Saskatoon who instantly (and very kindly) arranged for me to use his home as base while I checked out Wadena, 60 odd miles away. She spoke glowingly of her son and his wife. They had double of everything. Two cars. Two TVs. Two whatnots. Four bathrooms. This was 1989. In February 1989 I flew out to Toronto and thence to Saskatoon. I flew Wardair that served their food in Wedgwood crockery, and went out of business in a year or so. The temperature in Saskatoon was -20 centigrade. My breath was freezing on my moustache. People who parked cars at the airport did not turn off their engines. Cheap oil. The couple I stayed with were very warm and hospitable. But they lamented that they wanted to be back in India. Look outside they said. 5 feet of snow. Wadena had two hotels. One was called Hotel Motel where I got a room and spent a night. The mayor who had heard that a doctor was visiting came up in the morning and had breakfast with me. He was very friendly and genuinely welcoming. He drove me around that little town in his pick up truck. I asked him what there was to do in town, and he told me that I could go moose hunting on his estate and indicated that there were snow scooters I could use. I had visions of telling my wife to pick up the rifle and go moose hunting because I was held up at the clinic and that I would join her later. Canada was not the place for me. I returned to India the next year. People in India were amazed that I was idiot enough to return to India after having made it in the west. I told them that I had been living in the north of England and had suffered a nervous breakdown. The previous summer I had seen a bright light in the sky that scared me witless leading to the breakdown. When I recovered people told me that the light was actually the sun. I had not seen the sun for 2 years in the north of England and had forgotten about it. Scary innit? Happiness is in one's head. There is a digitized 8 mm home movie of me as a 4 year old child carrying a toy gun. I still love shooting. There is something compellingly satisfying about pulling a little lever attached to a pipe in front of you and seeing a Coke can explode dozens of yards away. I have received warning letters from the Society for Prevention of Cruelty to Tin cans. But what do I care? Happiness is doing things that you feel like doing. Things that relax you and keep your mind empty like that recently perforated Coke can. shiv Lovely writing, Shiv.
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On Mon, Mar 11, 2013 at 10:24 AM, Bonobashi bonoba...@yahoo.co.in wrote: This is not funny. Cuts too close to the bone. You are hereby warned to cease and desist. You would perhaps prefer the view of the great sage Scott Adams? http://dilbert.com/strips/comic/2010-12-27/ Udhay
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On Mon, Mar 11, 2013 at 12:30 PM, Udhay Shankar N ud...@pobox.com wrote: On Mon, Mar 11, 2013 at 10:24 AM, Bonobashi bonoba...@yahoo.co.in wrote: This is not funny. Cuts too close to the bone. You are hereby warned to cease and desist. You would perhaps prefer the view of the great sage Scott Adams? http://dilbert.com/strips/comic/2010-12-27/ Or euphoria? http://bestofcalvinandhobbes.com/2011/10/calvin-demands-euphoria/
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This is not funny. Cuts too close to the bone. You are hereby warned to cease and desist. Indrajit Gupta On Mar 11, 2013, at 9:40 AM, Udhay Shankar N ud...@pobox.com wrote: We've discussed this here before (e.g. [1] [2]), but here's another worthwhile take, from a former colleague at Yahoo! and a recent silklister. Thoughts? Udhay [1] http://groups.yahoo.com/group/silk-list/message/4965 [2] http://groups.yahoo.com/group/silk-list/message/37925 http://blog.mizannethrope.com/post/45039337095/happiness-is-pine-sol-and-clorox-and-like-them-both Happiness is Pine Sol and Clorox and Like Them Both, Probably Toxic in Large Quantities Happiness. There are a lot of books written on this topic. I know because I’ve read them all. ALL of them. This is a matter that mankind has pursued throughout time. It’s fundamental to our very existence. It’s what separates us from the beasts of the wild. What is happiness? How do we get it? If we have it, how do we keep it? Or more precisely, how do we prevent ourselves from losing it? When we have it, how do we know we have it? I started seeing a therapist when my mother was diagnosed with advanced stomach cancer. I probably should have started years earlier. Years. Maybe at birth. One of the first things she asked me was, “What makes you happy?” I kind of stumbled when she asked that so she rephrased the question. “Can you tell me a time, recently, when you felt really happy?” After sitting there for a moment, I said the first thing that popped into my head. That’s what you are supposed to do in therapy, right? Not over-think the question but rather, respond naturally so you reveal your true self. So I told the unedited, unvarnished, unmitigated truth. Or as Oprah would say, I told MY truth. So here it is. I am happiest when…. “The hour after the cleaning people leave my house. When everything is clean, orderly, and smells like Pine Sol. That’s when I am happiest.” You know you’ve achieved something when your therapist looks a little puzzled. I joke all the time about being OCD. In reality, I do not suffer from obsessive-compulsive disorder. At least not in a clinically diagnosable way. I really shouldn’t joke about it because plenty of people really do have debilitating issues associated with OCD. I am just a freak about tidiness and thus, my Twitter handle: @clean_freak. Many people apparently take me at face value. Ergo, some of my Twitter followers include: @scrubblingbubble, @cleanercleaning, @abhousekeeping, @goofoffpro (a cleaning agent, apparently), @acepressurewash, and @bugoffseatcover. I will readily admit that the smell of cleaning products makes me feel, well, happy. Those same products are probably going to give me brain cancer. Although to be clear, I’m not sniffing them in open containers like gasoline or airplane glue. The smell of cleaning products just gives me a weird feeling of comfort when I’m cleaning or otherwise at home. Like all things revealed in therapy, this too, can be traced back to my mother. My very Korean mother. Margaret Cho does a great routine about her Korean mother. After her mom suffered a heart attack, she came to live with Margaret. Her mother told her about her near-death experience. In broken English, she said to Margaret, “After I die, my spirit float out my body. I float far, far away. I go you house. I look down. Ay-gu! Why so messy?” And that folks, is probably what my mother is doing right now. Looking down at my house today and thinking, “Ay-gu! Why so messy?” (Because I was away on a business trip for 5 days, mom! Don’t judge me!) But to get back to my earlier point, what is happiness anyway? I think my initial response to my therapist hit the nail on the head. Happiness is not some big, grand destination. Or even some fanciful life-long journey. It’s the sum of all the little things. For me, it’s crystallized in that moment of peace and serenity when everything is just-so. In a house with 3 dogs and 3 kids, it’s rare. It’s the calm sense of accomplishment I feel when I am getting things done. Not huge things. Little things. I remember when I was in school, I’d get incredibly stressed during exams. I always thought I’d feel so relieved when they were over. But the moment I turned in my last test, the feeling of lightness I thought I’d have never materialized. Or if it did, it was never as uplifting as I imagined it would be. The quest for happiness seldom results in a sustainable sense of overwhelming joy. If it comes, it usually lasts only for a fleeting moment. And really, if you felt happy all the time, how would you know what it is to be happy? There is a beautiful passage in The Prophet - The deeper that sorrow carves into your being, the more joy you can contain. Is not the cup that holds your wine the very cup that was burned in the potter’s oven? I read that to mean that to truly experience