What a coincidence ...today is my Bar Mitzvah ...it is exactly 13 years for me today...not sure how to celebrate. I came down with TM one week after my 50th birthday....therefore when i had my big 10 year mark it was the first time I allowed myself self pity...I broke down for a day or two and just felt so much self pity......and then i realized how many wonderful things I have and I went back to my normally positive attitude....but today after 13 years I just think when I go home I will have a good cry & allow myself tonight to feel sorry for myself. Tomorrow will be a better day! Ella ...give yourself a little time to grieve for what you have lost and then do your best to put it behind you... All the best! Rob in New Jersey
________________________________ From: [email protected] [mailto:[email protected]] Sent: Monday, September 27, 2010 2:28 PM To: [email protected] Subject: [TMIC] It's my birthday Hello everyone, Today I am TM 10 and not sure of how I feel. The fact that it is cloudy out doesn't help either. Ten years ago I went into a coma and awoke weeks later not able to move anything, not even my head. Eventually I got everything back but my legs and what happened in the 90's. Am I depressed? I say I am but doctors don't think so, just a bit of sadness. I think I live 80% in my head so I don't dwell on the pain below and everything else that goes along with TM. Am I scared? Sometimes when I think yes this is my new life knowing how bad I want the old. You guys are a God-send and the support we give each other is beyond words. Thanks, I thought I was feeling sorry for myself but writing this made me feel better, have a great day........Ella
