Alan Sondheim <[EMAIL PROTECTED]> wrote:
This is absolutely brilliant; I have no idea of the circumstances it was
written within/under, but pain often brings the strongest work (I've felt
that for example re: Bernadette Mayer and for that matter Paul Chamberland
- if you remember him at all - for a long time). Anti-colonialist, anti-
war writings, writings of the oppressed - what is it that they carry, that
speaks - not only in terms of psychology and empathy, but also the
language itself, urgency?
- Alan, musing
On Thu, 21 Sep 2006, Sheila Murphy wrote:
> Big full-of-the-love heart b(ull)rushes up against the bully heart and then what?
> Coaches on the side past, present and to come exclaim beatitudes on steroids, trying to get a rise, it's called, out of the hurt heart.
> "Tell her to _____ (let's call it "collapse") herself."
> "Tell her to off herself."
> "Tell her she couldn't become interesting if she had every morself of her routine body replaced."
> "Tell her she will always be a drudge machine nobody loves."
>
> Big full-of-the-hurt heart disappoints the coaches
> and drowns pills for years instead.
> Big full-of-fatigue heart turns drip-dry with sadness in the sun.
> Big full-of-admiration heart seeks to age kindly without kiss thirst,
> while out on the the surrounding lawn it always rains sans prompt,
> and roller-coaster thought continues making marks on the experiential sky.
> Big full-of-self-infliced-hurt heart fevers into sleep.
>
> Big full-of-the-insanity-clause heart decides it's never easy not to die,
> Having once died, and come back as a saint.
> Big full-of-the-acclaimed heart offers crisis as proof of breath.
> Big full heart finds a light to watch and watches.
> Big heart tries to self sustain where there are other hearts.
> Big heart pieces together versions of the recent history as if to make it early.
> Big heart ceases to be large enough, as as to wedge into the tiny size allowed by its untenable surroundings.
>
>
> sheila e. murphy
>
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