great post RS, an enjoyable read
On Aug 3, 1:48 pm, roomsearching <[email protected]> wrote: > The main problem was that there was nobody to guide me at the moment I had > this profound experience. > I don't do drugs and I didnt do alcohol at that time. > The problem was that for two days I had not eaten properly. > When you don't eat enough food, your mind stops moving. > There is only stillness. > That stillness is so wonderful that you will stop doing any work after that. > > But people will think you have gone crazy. > So I eat a lot of food now to keep my mind in motion. > > I didnt disappear as such. But the belief structure that "I" exist as a > unique independent entity had crumbled. > There personality was as if totally dissolved in a second into a huge > expanse of cool stillness. > I felt as if I had suddenly connected to the earth or something. > The connection with everything around me was clearly felt. > I exactly understood what I was in relation to everything around me. > My closed box body-mind was now opened up to the whole universe around me. > The opening was established as soon as I realized where the "I am" arises > from - the heart cavity as described by Ramana . > At that moment, there was a descending of everything from the head to the > heart. > And everything after that is rock solid. > > Disconnection and seperation are the main problem of an unrealized person. > An unrealized person is selfish, ignorant and arrogant and is unkind, cruel > and in pain and enjoys that whole game of win and loss. > An ego is always onto games - achieving tasks to boost itself to a higher > status(perceived status). > After that my games were finished. > I started obeying the guidance of the Self which is to just live as life > goes. > I did feel as if God had entered into me which is true because the Shakti > had arisen and joined with Shiva. > Shiva is now in me. Pure consciousness of the universe is now in equilibrium > within and without. > There are no trapped energies left. > I am sure I will not be born again. I will dissolve into the pure > consciousness when my body dies. > So no more heaven or hell for me. > But if you are not realized, you will surely go to the astral realms which > are slightly lower states of consciousness(mental realm). > The astral realms are where ghosts wander and the dead people wait for their > further journey. > In a way, our soul knows so many things. But we dont remember it in our > waking state. > Most of us, while we are asleep, do go walking around in the astral realms. > But we do not remember any of those experiences. > It is just that the mechanism of the memory does not work in the usual way > and the memory has to be consciously downloaded from the astral realm to our > physical brain to remember those experiences. > In that sense, our subtle energetic bodies have their own agenda and know > much more than our stupid physical person understands. > > On Tue, Aug 3, 2010 at 9:18 PM, Mahakali <[email protected]> wrote: > > roomsearching wrote: > > .......... > > > > Mine went back to normal after two days. I thought I was going to end up > > on > > > the streets as a homeless man because my brain was not working and I > > didnt > > > know what to do. > > > Kali: may I ask you if, on that occasion, had been high on something > > i.e. drugs or alchol? To disappear for two days seems to be very long > > time... > > > Did it happen again or was it the only episode? > > > Peace... > > > Kali
