Re: I'm done.
At one point, during the discussion of whether Crazy Party should be banned from this forum, I sincerely thought about asking for my account to be deleted. I didn't agree with the stance the mods were taking about it, not because the game doesn't contain copyrighted assets, but because I thought, and still do think, actually, that attacking one blatant example of piracy while sweeping others under the rug because it would be too difficult, or too devastating, to go through the entire database wiping out games left and right, would be too hypocritical for me to bear. I figured that, by my account existing here, I was condoning that stance. I realize, however, that even if it is possible for them to erase accounts, it would probably do more harm than good. Not to toot my own horn, but it's possible, though quite unlikely, that people have found some of my posts useful. These days, I rarely come around much anyway. I'm often too tired to give one iota about bullshit that is inconsequential in the real world. Plus, the internet is forever, and you can't really nuke all traces of yourself from a given site or community, no matter how hard you try.
As for pandemic loneliness, I can absolutely relate to that. As an introvert myself, I don't need tons of social interaction, but I do suffer without my baseline, which I'm not getting, and God knows when I will again. My partner and I haven't seen each other since March. We are in a long distance relationship to begin with, but this, among other reasons, has intensified the anxiety that I feel at least about being apart. That, coupled with the fact I've started a new job recently that is, shall we say, not ideal, plus the stress of living with people I can't share any of my true identity or feelings with about pretty much anything, makes life difficult. I recognize that there's a comfort in knowing that someone would notice if I died, but it's honestly kind of fucked that that's one of the few positives of my situation.
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