>>--| -----Original Message-----
>>--| From: Neil Clark [mailto:[EMAIL PROTECTED]]
>>--| Of course ultimately the decision will not be yours or the US
>>--| citizens, it will be the politicians of all free world countries not
just
>>--| the United States.
Ultimately, I am saddened and dismayed after spending all day yesterday,
most of the night (could not sleep) and again this morning, listening
watching and reading about all of the horrific tales and visions of
yesterday's attack. I've cried for the people lost, and the terror they
feel. We had friends and family in the area. All are safe thankfully, even a
friend who was on the 20th floor at the time of the attack.
I know nothing of politics, they never interested me as a profession. Not
that I'm without opinion. I'm not into belonging to any movements or groups,
other than the ColdFusion community. I keep my mouth shut, and I read all of
postings coming through this list and others, where everyone tries to tell
everyone else what the US is supposed to do, and will do, and who should do
what and what is wrong and what is right. I respect everyone's differences
of opinions and it's fascinating to see such a diverse group of people
discussing their views, sometimes heated, but most times respectfully.
Through all if this, Neil's statement struck me the most in this newest
argument of whether or not the US will retaliate in force..... I think he
really hit the nail on the head....despite any power Bush and his
adminstration think they may have, the US has to confer with leaders of
other nations, and decisions will be made, and there is likely nothing any
of us can do to stop these decisions....no matter what we think is right or
wrong, no matter where we live or what nationality we are.
I'm scared. I don't live far from NY. I've always had this thought in the
back of my head for many years, that I live too close to one of the US's
most popular war/terrorist targets. These recents acts make me want to run
to a remote mountain hideaway in Switzerland. But now I'm afraid to fly. I
have to get over this fear before next month when I'm to board a plane to
Orlando, to meet most of you in person for the first time.
I'm afraid to leave my residence right now. Thankful that I work from home.
These fears are silly, I know, but they are real to me right now....and I'm
not someone who scares easily (unless it's a spider <grin>) ... if I feel
like this, how many others are terrified today? The media puts up a good
front for us.....and thankfully there are many volunteers risking their
lives to save whomever is left in the devastation that was once a beautiful
scene from my partner's apartment in Jersey City. But how many of these
volunteers are going to be scarred for live, emotionally and physically?
I hear all of you arguing with each other, and while I know you must voice
your opinions and state your standings, and I like to read them to see
everyone's viewpoints, it saddens me so much to hear you guys going off on
each other, as recreational as some of it may be, in these times of turmoil.
I "love" all of you so much and rely on your daily trials and tribulations
to get me through my workdays, knowing there are so many of you going
through the same stuff I go through everyday. I haven't been around too much
lately, but I'm lurking ... and I sincerely hope all of your families and
friends and coworkers are safe and sound, and that you take some time to
smell the roses and enjoy the miracle of the everyday, that allows us to
communicate like this and live.
Thanks for letting me spew here and forgive me my vulnerabilities....I'm
still a bit dumbstruck....trying to jumpstart my brain into focusing on work
again...still waiting to hear from several people that live and work down in
lower Manhattan.....
Erika
(with a *K*)
Man supposes that he directs his life and governs his actions, when his
existence is irretrievably under the control of destiny. - Goethe
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