So let me understand this, you said you were quitting. Here you are posting.
But your a man of your word. This is in no way contradictory to you? You claim all you wanted was for this shit to end, yet you continued to post, even now, and I'm expected to sit back and do and say nothing or I look like a thug and a hooligan. Guess what? I am. I always have been. You were made to look like a punk, partially by your own words. You did initially run away, and apparently have decided to jump in, take a parting shot, and run away again. You didn't back down, and I didn't claim you did, that would imply you changed your mind. While you didn't lose a fight, I would say you were soundly trounced in an argument, both on the points of contention (it is constitutionally allowable to conscript people) and the shit talking that went on around it. If you weren't intimidated why did you continue to write me off list, apologize, and call me a bully repeatedly? >> I told you a VERY public apology, and I go away. >Define very. Hey look there is where you finally took a stand, after you found out you had miscalculated. >Then you'll always be a bully. Being offended by a verbal comment, you choose to not only respond with verbal abuse (which I will admit to having done and >in this case instigated -- this is me owning up and taking responsibility for my actions) Funny to me that I am a bully when you very obviously instigated this all. Hey look, you had no problem admitting it was your fault off list, why not man up, and take responsibility for your actions man? By the way, why do you call your psychotic ranting a comment, but my own verbal abuse? Feeling sorry for yourself again? >I accept responsibility for having made hurtful comments and am willing to make restitution. I told you what form I wanted that restitution to take. It's about respect. Also, I didn't try and ruin your career. I just figure that the community deserves to know what kind of people are around, what kind of people are supposedly at the forefront of our industry. You said something about getting into a career ruining war with me, well it's kind of hard to do when you don't have a job, isn't it? So lets review, you lied when you said you were leaving the list, lied when you said you wanted to provide restitution, lied about our little war, as you have no career. So far, what I get is that you are anything but a man of your word. I freely admit I was angry as hell when I was posting the other night. I still don't think I said anything you didn't deserve. Maybe my language was more off color than normal, but everything I said was true. Well, I guess it's hard to explain truth to a liar that doesn't understand that words have objective meanings. Hey man, keep coming back, it works if you work it so work it your worth it, well to someone, sure as shit not to me. Tim > -----Original Message----- > From: S. Isaac Dealey [mailto:[EMAIL PROTECTED] > Sent: Sunday, April 16, 2006 12:00 PM > To: CF-Community > Subject: Clarifications > > > I've had some time for introspection. Personally I find that the > writing process > > helps me to deconstruct my thoughts and my emotions, so I'm preparing > to post my > > deconstructed thoughts in another thread. > > Before I do that I want to make a few things perfectly clear: > > I am a man of my word. I have read the recent entries on these threads > via the > > archives (it's mildly frustrating to guess who's saying what in some > cases). I > > will continue to answer personal email. > > I did not > - get punkd > - run away > - back down > - lose a fight > > I am not a child. I was not then and am not now fighting anyone. I was > then and am > > now engaging in conversation (however confrontational it might have > been). > > I was not intimidated and no one "put me in my place". Had I been > intimidated I > > would have posted a lip-service apology on cf-talk as had been > requested (and may > > have called the police as was suggested by Tim). As with anyone else, > had I been > > intimidated any apology I may have appeared to make would not have > been a genuine > > apology. As such imo it's better that I was not intimidated, since I > was able to > > offer a genuine apology motivated by my own feeling that my comments > warranted an > > apology. You'll all have to make up your own mind whether you believe > I was > > intimidated or you believe the apology was genuine, because the two > are mutually > > exclusive. > > The strangest correction I have is to Tim's apparent cognitive > dissonance over my > > job search situation. Yes, Tim sent me a lead or two. In spite of what > he's said, > > I contacted them and as far as I recall none of the leads Tim sent me > said I > > expected too much money (Tim, feel free to rebut if you have an email > that > > contradicts this). On the contrary they offered me potentially more > than what I > > described as my minimum salary. I have been told by one or two people > that I want > > too much money, but they are in the minority and none of them were > leads from Tim. > > One of them expected me to be grateful for a job in Richmond at $20k > less than my > > last full-time job, so I find it difficult to take her seriously when > there are > > other people offering me what I'm asking or more. > > As I've said before, I don't spend all my time wallowing in > self-pitty. I address > > my problems with action, when action is fruitless I vent my > frustrations and I > > move on to the next problem. > > Oh and... where did anybody get the bizarre notion that I was > complaining about > > people using personal information about me in their replies? I pointed > out in a > > previous thread that I don't consider the job situation to be relevant > in these > > matters. I was no more than annoyed by Tim's having dragged it over to > cf-talk > > where it doesn't belong in an attempt to ruin my career. I was amazed > he had the > > gaul to drag my girlfriend into it and think that was just peachy -- > she did > > nothing to him or anyone else. I have however posted personal > information on the > > list, and just as it is available for people to use against me in live > > conversation it's also available for people to use against me here and > I accept > > responsibility for that. I don't recall ever telling anyone it was > unethical or > > even not to use it. I do recall rebutting certain specific points, > although I > > simply ignored many comments simply because I didn't consider them > relevant and > > was limiting the amount of time I spent on responses. > > Others have expressed different opinions about my having been > dissected in this > > way, and I see their concern in spite of the fact that I personally am > not more > > than annoyed by it. I would be more concerned that others would be put > off by the > > threats of physical violence that I dismissed. > > I have not yet reinstated my subscription preferences, so I'm still > reading the > > list via the archives. I probably won't reinstate them for a month, > less because > > of the need for introspection and more because I expect to be in a > hotel on > > contract for much of the next month (and without a laptop), and will > probably also > > change my cf-talk preferences because I don't expect to have much > access to email. > > After this contract things will change of course, I'll probably be out > of state, > > but I hope to be picking up a laptop and maybe taking my desktop with > me. At that > > point I'll figure out whether I have time to be involved in the > community list > > based on my workload and living situation. > > s. isaac dealey 434.293.6201 > new epoch : isn't it time for a change? > > add features without fixtures with > the onTap open source framework > > http://www.fusiontap.com > http://coldfusion.sys-con.com/author/4806Dealey.htm > > > ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~| Message: http://www.houseoffusion.com/lists.cfm/link=i:5:204374 Archives: http://www.houseoffusion.com/cf_lists/threads.cfm/5 Subscription: http://www.houseoffusion.com/lists.cfm/link=s:5 Unsubscribe: http://www.houseoffusion.com/cf_lists/unsubscribe.cfm?user=89.70.5 Donations & Support: http://www.houseoffusion.com/tiny.cfm/54
