Dear Rory,

I am going to consolidate my replies in this reply to your post here
because it perfectly demonstrates what I want to say.

You say it's not your style to point your finger outwards with reference to
Barry. So you will just encourage someone's delusions (Barry's delusions in
this case) because it is not your philosophy. You don't want to feel the
tension, the metaphysical tension caused by the divergent, discordant
nature of reality and you would rather numb the complexities, the
contradictions by sticking to your philosophy of *Us* and *Me*. It is clear
then that you are not driven by any spiritual experience that has caused
any transformation, not motivated by any search for truth but have created
a very beautiful sounding narrative based on borrowed concepts of Maharishi
- now you have given your own spin to it and you spout your philosophy ad
nauseam.

This is the same issue with your erstwhile online  autobiography. It was
hilarous - I only read a few lines over a few chapters and it drove me
totally nuts. I'm glad you are over those experiences but its the same
thing you have switched one narrative for another.

I can't seem to remember the incredible narrative of your biography, I have
to say you have a highly fantasized, imaginative mind -  but you have this
new narrative now - me, Us, wavicles, particles, healing and integrating of
you and in me (did I get that right).

I am trying my best to be cordial given the sensitive nature of pointing
out someone's delusions - your delusions in this case. I don't doubt your
sincerity, your genuineness - you are a really nice guy. I look at your
picture to day and I go - Oh really Ravi, you want to do this to this nice
guy Rory with a beautiful smile? But I had to. This is not your school, not
your captive audience, not the Batgap list Rory - this is FFL where the
Kali's Pimp does his drive-bys.

I don't doubt your spiritual experiences, your spiritual path - you hear
me? It's the narrative you have built, it's the abstract, vague
philosophical bullshit that you spout that I have an issue against.

It's lame for you to concur with Share on me being testy from trying to
wean off smoking Rory. Anyone who knows me personally know how balanced,
how calm I am even as I am being under various stress, needs of life, how
totally under control I am even as I get mad at people's dishonesty (my
friends don't get to see that though - that is my anger)

No Rory - you can do better than that. Or may be you can't - you can't help
yourself.

But have mercy on others - just imagine there's a limit on posting, get
those wavicles of yours that are out of whack under control.


Ravi.


On Sun, Aug 11, 2013 at 7:05 PM, RoryGoff <[email protected]> wrote:

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> --- In [email protected], "Ravi Chivukula" <chivukula.ravi@...>
> wrote:
> >
> > Well Barry's never had an issue with Rory Mark II because Rory Mark II
> > never had anything much to say to Barry's dishonest tantrums other than
> > wavicle, particle, me, Us, love, light, laughter bullshit. Perhaps Rory
> > had an opening at the Rorian Mystery School and was looking at Barry as
> > a potential student? We will never know and perhaps it is destined to
> > remain a mystery.
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> Hey, Ravi, I am happy you have felt moved to call Barry on his "tantrums"
> (plural: tantra?), if that pleases you, but that is not my style. I don't
> find, usually, that pointing my finger outward really solves my feelings
> inward. Some of that may be because I grew up in a family with a very
> large, strong, unpredictably angry father, where that kind of honesty would
> have instantly brought me great suffering, if not death, and, coward that I
> am, I didn't particularly want to suffer or -- miserable though I found
> life sometimes -- to die.
>
> Of course, there are always exceptions, and I contain huge amounts of
> ignorance within me, and in real life I speak out in an attempt to "comb
> the mirror" more often than necessary, I am pretty sure.
>
> Your mileage may of course widely vary. I am not trying to change you or
> Barry or Judy. I see my mission here as simple: love what IS, no matter how
> ugly it may appear to me and in me at first. Of course, as you can see, I
> also like the feeling of understanding and being understood, and hence my
> dialogues. And I like the feeling of assimilation and healing, once I have
> actually assimilated and healed the rather intense suffering I often feel
> here. Anyhow, thank you for being You.
>
> *L*L*L*
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