There are Bach essences and other aids for the person too. Check with your homeopath/health food store etc for recommendations for you and your grieving process. They help. Honest. They do not make the hurt go away. Don't think that. They do make it easier to deal with. If there is no pain on losing a loved one, you did not truly love. ----- Original Message ----- From: "Gloria Lane" <[EMAIL PROTECTED]> To: <felvtalk@felineleukemia.org> Sent: Thursday, September 22, 2005 7:09 PM Subject: Re: Question about Euthanasia and my Grace
> Nina, my heart goes out to you, I am so sorry for your pain. These > are such difficult, important, and soul-searching questions. I can > only answer of course from my own experience, but want to mention > that homeopathy also has ways of supporting the one who is about to > pass on, so you might talk to your homeopath. > > I agree, I have always interpreted with animals and people, when they > won't take the food or liquid out of the syringe or dropper, it's > time for them to move to a different level. I usually allow my loved > ones to move at their own speed, unless there seems to be pain or > other difficulty. > > I really don't know how difficult it is to euthanize an emaciated > animal - but they will pass on gently on their own. And, it's not > hard to ask your vet about a simple sedative for Grace if you feel > that's appropriate, and your dear Grace could remain at home. Also, > again, a good contact might be the homeopath, to give you gentle > suggestions on how to help Grace with making the transition. > > Let us know, we all are with you as you help her with this passage. > > Blessings, > > Gloria > > > On Sep 22, 2005, at 9:18 AM, Nina wrote: > > > My Beloved Group, > > First of all, I'm sorry I haven't been able to participate fully in > > the group this last couple of weeks. I love you all, but for the > > last couple of days, I haven't even been able bring myself to read > > the posts. I'm physically and emotionally exhausted by Grace and > > my last efforts to bring her back to health. Yesterday, I finally > > resigned myself to thinking of our time together as 'death bed > > vigil'. Those of you that know me, know that I pray all your > > babies are safe and healthy, and those that are losing, or have > > lost the battle; my love is with you. I don't know what I would > > have done without the love and support of this group. You have > > been a Godsend to me and my sweet fur angels. > > > > Yesterday morning Gracie "told" me she does not want to stay. > > Among other signs, I was syringe feeding her and she refused to > > swallow. I'm trying my best to make peace with her decision. I > > know you understand. She hasn't eaten on her own for a long time > > now and she's skin and bones. She spent a nice peaceful day, and I > > did my best to just "be with her". During the afternoon she made > > it clear that she didn't want to be sung to, or touched. It's so > > hard on me to watch her pull away. At one point, she seemed a bit > > agitated so I ground up a tiny bit of Valium and gave it to her in > > water. She was so relaxed she even did a stretch-semi roll out on > > the patio in the sun. She did something that startled me, and got > > my hopes up again. (I just can't stop believing in miracles). I > > was giving the dogs treats and she was laying on the couch. Well, > > we have this thing Grace and I. Whenever the dogs get treats she'd > > come bounding over the barrier and expect one too. When she saw me > > giving the dogs treats this afternoon, she jumped off the couch. I > > started to cry, because I thought, there's no way she's going to > > take a treat. I put one in front of her anyway and you could have > > knocked me over with a sigh. It took her a minute to decide to eat > > it, but she not only ate that one, but 3 more. Then she ate 3 or 4 > > pieces of kibble! My hopes were short lived though. > > > > I've been up with her most of the night. She still doesn't want my > > attention. She doesn't even want me to look at her, it's breaking > > my heart to say goodbye, and I guess it may be making it harder for > > her to go, although that is not my intention. It's not like I > > don't want her to leave her body, I do. I want her suffering to be > > over. Yesterday, when I knew it was time, I called my Internist's > > office to see if Dr. Ortega would be willing to help her cross. > > Grace has always liked Dr. Ortega, and I thought she would be > > calmest with her. Well, my Internist isn't going to be in the > > office until Friday. It doesn't seem possible that Grace will > > still be here by then. My stance has always been, that when I know > > it's the end, when I know that the chance of a recovery after > > treatment isn't possible, then it's time to help them cross. Even > > though Grace is peaceful, (she just lays on her side and breathes > > shallow, but relaxed breaths), I have a hard time letting nature > > take it's course. It's arrogant of me, but I can't stand seeing > > her like this. I'm also so worried about her being in pain, when I > > look in her eyes, she doesn't seem in pain, but she doesn't seem > > like herself either. I wouldn't mind vacant, but it's almost like > > she's... not quite angry, more like annoyed to still be here. > > > > Just to let you know... Over the past week or so, I think I may > > have mentioned it, we've been following an extensive homeopathic > > regime with the help of a practitioner named Darla Palmer. While > > it didn't save Grace, it did bring her back into her body, and for > > brief glorious moments, back to me. It was such a joy to see the > > Grace I know and love shining out of her eyes again. > > > > Anyway, here's my question: Can anyone tell me how difficult it is > > to put an animal to sleep in an emaciated condition? Of course, I > > don't want to make things harder on her, I want to ease her > > suffering. What if they can't find a vein, because they're so > > small? I just want to know what to expect. I'm thinking of > > calling a house call vet to see if he can come today, but I don't > > want this to be harder on Grace. I'm still struggling with the > > thought that my underlying motives might be to make things easier > > on me. I just want to do what's right for Grace. My judgement is > > clouded, my mind and heart are clouded as well. I don't even have > > the energy to read this post over to see if it makes sense. > > Thanks for always caring, > > Nina > > > > > > > > > > >
