Thanks. I gave her the feline interferon about an hour ago. She seemed feverish, so a while later I gave her some fluids. She then ate a small handful of dry EVO on her own. She is just laying there now. She is not grooming. She is definitely worse day by day. That said, she looked terrible last night but when I got up to check on her at 4 am she had gone downstairs to use the litterbox and then trotted over to a plastic bag and sat on it, I pet her a while, and then she trotted upstairs back to her box. I went back to sleep and at 8 am she looked awful again. I think her fever comes and goes. I have stopped temping her. When she is warm I give her fluids (not more than 150 ml/day) and put ice on her, and so far she eventually cools down. I was going to syringe feed her raw food, but then she ate a handful (15 pieces?) of dry food so I held off. I convinced my local vet to order feline interferon, and now I am working on getting him to agree to acemannan. He was skeptical about the feline interferon, and seems to think Lucy's case is hopeless and I am grasping at straws and wasting money. But he is nice to me, and so far has ultimately agreed to do as I ask. The acemannan request may put an end to that. Michelle In a message dated 1/19/2007 1:04:07 P.M. Eastern Standard Time, [EMAIL PROTECTED] writes:
Dearest Michelle, As I wrote before, I just went through this same push/pull anxiety with Spencer. It's enough to give you a nervous breakdown. I'm feeling your pain right through the computer. I know Lucy is in bad shape, but it does sound like she's at least comfortable for the most part. When you talk about worsening symptoms, are you referring to her not eating? Today is the first time she hasn't eaten on her own, is that right? Stress will put her off her food, perhaps she's just regaining her strength. The thought of her enjoying a sun bath is encouraging. She may be strong enough to wait for the experts to decide a treatment protocol. I wish I had the answers for you Michelle. I'm afraid that no matter how much support we have from others, it always comes down to our call when dealing with so this sort of quandary. All I can tell you is that after I calmed my spirit and communed with Spencer, (my last experience with what you are going through), I felt a little more at peace with the circumstances. Unfortunately, Spencer did not have a long time left to share with me. I never gave up hope, but I did find a semblance of acceptance and peace. The benefit was that the time we did share was full of unconditional love, and I don't know how else to put it, full of quality. It didn't keep him with me in the physical, but it allowed us to bond in an extraordinary way. It was an incredible gift that we shared, at a very costly price. I'll always be grateful to him for the lessons learned during that heartrending time. I have no idea what I would do in your place. Missing the pieces of the puzzle make it so very difficult to make these sorts of decisions with conviction. I would never take the advice of anyone over what my own gut was telling me though. The specialists may be well meaning, they may even be sympathetic, but to them Lucy is a medical case, to you she is your heart. The way I see it is we are responsible for interpreting the wishes of our fur children and making sure that our decisions are based on love and not fear. You are the one that has to live with the consequences, no matter what those consequences may be. Clear your head. Sit quietly with her, your next move will come to you. All my love, Nina
