Leah, In a twisted way, I am glad I'm not alone. Of course, in my own utopia, I would never wish those kinds of memories on anyone. You used the perfect term...agonizing. Prayers going out for peace for all of us.
:) Wendy --- "Wolf, Leah R." <[EMAIL PROTECTED]> wrote: > Wendy, > > You are not alone. It took two weeks for my Bubba > to die from felv and > watching him slip away inch by inch was agonizing. > When I think of him, I > have to force myself not to dwell on the experience > or else I will break > down all over again. > > > Leah > -----Original Message----- > From: [EMAIL PROTECTED] > [mailto:[EMAIL PROTECTED] On > Behalf Of wendy > Sent: Tuesday, April 03, 2007 11:05 AM > To: felvtalk@felineleukemia.org > Subject: OT: Small meltdown > > Hey guys, > > Why is it that even a year and a half after > Cricket's passing, I can burst > into tears after having flashbacks of the night he > died? To a logical > person (being me), it sounds ridiculous and > overdramatic. > But the fact remains that when I allow myself to > remember what happened with > Cricket the night he died, and how horrible it was, > it sends me straight > into meltdown. I am at work for heaven's sake. > Usually, when I think about > Cricket, I don't think about that one day in his > life. But it seems so > unfair that he couldn't have a more peaceful death. > I will never forget his > suffering, even knowing that he is now at rest. Why > do some > people's/animal's last days of their lives have to > be filled with pain and > suffering? > I just don't understand it. I think maybe all the > recent losses, and sadly > there have been many, might be bringing my memories > back, but maybe that's a > good thing? Maybe we never really fully stop > grieving, but every little > meltdown we have allows us to heal a little more. > > Thanks for letting me ramble about my lack of > understanding of the meaning > of life. > :) > Wendy > > "Never doubt that a small group of thoughtful > committed citizens can change > the world: Indeed it is the only thing that ever > has!" > > ~~~ Margaret Meade ~~~ > > > > > ____________________________________________________________________________ > ________ > Get your own web address. > Have a HUGE year through Yahoo! Small Business. > http://smallbusiness.yahoo.com/domains/?p=BESTDEAL > > > > "Never doubt that a small group of thoughtful committed citizens can change the world: Indeed it is the only thing that ever has!" ~~~ Margaret Meade ~~~ ____________________________________________________________________________________ Never miss an email again! Yahoo! Toolbar alerts you the instant new Mail arrives. http://tools.search.yahoo.com/toolbar/features/mail/
