Dear Michelle Thank you for keeping us up to date. I feel privileged to be part of what you're both going through -- I'm sure I'm not alone in feeling I'm almost there with you. Please know I'm certainly with you and Simon in spirit. He surely knows he could never wish for a better friend than you. And for all the intensity and rollercoaster nature of this incredibly difficult time you're going through with him, you'll never regret it. You'll cherish the memories in years to come. love, continuing strength, and hugs to you both, Kerry
-----Original Message----- From: [EMAIL PROTECTED] [mailto:[EMAIL PROTECTED] On Behalf Of [EMAIL PROTECTED] Sent: Tuesday, January 11, 2005 10:13 AM To: [email protected] Subject: Simon update, Tuesday Simon is still here, though I keep thinking he is so weak he is about to go. He has not had food since yesterday afternoon, and only 1 cc then. He spends most of his time sleeping and cuddling, waking up and rolling over for belly rubs and purring. He loves to be spooned and held against my body and purrs louder until he falls asleep. When I pet his back he pushes his but and tail against me the way cats do when they want to be scratched thre. And he drinks water and as recently as this morning used the litter box. But the horrible thing is that every 4 hours or so he decides he wants to walk around, but he really is too weak or anemic to go far, and when it overcomes him he meows horribly and hyperventillates for about 10 seconds, then lays down and falls asleep for about 20 minutes, then wakes up and wants to be pet and when I pet him starts purring and rolls on his back for a belly rub until he falls asleep again. It's a long cycle he keeps repeating. I think it has happened 6 or 7 times since yesterday afternoon. Every time he gets up I panic, and then when he meows I run for the tranquilizer thinking I will give it to him and call my friend to euthanize him, but then just as suddenly he has stopped and is asleep, then wanting to be pet, etc. So every few hours I decide to euthanize him, only to have him pressed against me purring and giving me his belly before I have made the arrangements. it is a bit horrifying and exhausting, but I just can not see euthanizing him when most of the time he is sleeping or cuddling and purring. I assume that without food he will get weak enough soon that he won't want to walk around, or sick enough that it will be no question as to what I should do. I wish that one of these times when he falls asleep purring he will just slip off quietly. But I know the chances of that are at best no greater than that he will just continue to get worse without dying and I will eventually have to do something. Michelle This email and any files transmitted with it are confidential and intended solely for the use of the individual or entity to whom they are addressed. If you have received this email in error please notify the system manager. This message contains confidential information and is intended only for the individual named. If you are not the named addressee you should not disseminate, distribute or copy this e-mail.
