Dear Bjarne,
I can certainly echo all the replies you've already received. Set
things carefully aside. Take some deep breaths. Nineteenth-century
literature suggests that what people who felt this way used to do was
take a world tour....and if you do decide to travel, there's a place
for you to stay in Fairfield Connecticut, for sure.
As someone who has had some bouts of depression and also has a
surprising number of friends who struggle with it, I would also echo
the suggestions that you find a professional to talk with. Sometimes
events hit on top of a physical depressed condition and things seem
overwhelmingly bleak. This is not a feeling you can just "get over" by
thinking happy thoughts--because sometimes life is very difficult, and
pain is very real. But it IS a feeling you can work your way out of,
with support; and the passage of time, the changes that the days bring,
will do the rest if you let them.
I've been having some of your same thoughts in the last couple of
years. I'm really tired of teaching English part-time--all work, no
benefits, low pay, repetitive labor, no prestige, no hope of promotion,
no time to beef up my resume in order to change things....And theater,
which has been my salvation over the last fifteen years, has begun to
feel similarly laborious, similarly dead-end. And in the last three
months, three of my friends have died (I'm getting to be that age). So
I think I can empathize with you.
But I have some other things in common with you, too: a lot of
interesting and caring people I can call friends, accomplishments I can
view with pride, a good mind, a love of beauty, and a miraculous world
to walk around in (even though it seems to be run by madmen...).
My temporary refuge from despair is to curl up with a good murder
mystery to read and a bowl of ice cream. Or good music on the CD player
and a jigsaw on the table. Not a solution, but certainly a short
escape.
Then, as we used to say in the hippie days, just keep on keeping on.
--Ruth Anne
Ruth Anne Baumgartner
gypsy scholar and amateur costumer
On Jul 5, 2006, at 3:21 PM, Bjarne og Leif Drews wrote:
What do you do when you finally realise you dont want to reenact
anymore, and when your costumes gets bored to look at?
When alll your reenactment friends leaves you, and your family two?
What is left then?
Bjarne
Leif og Bjarne Drews
www.my-drewscostumes.dk
http://home0.inet.tele.dk/drewscph/
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