Aside from the social aspects I began strongly inclined to inner peace.
Acting differently can make one a target, and silent protest is
apparently an unforgivable weakness. Unfortunately circumstances did not
promote my strengths, instead through a tormented childhood I learned to
turn my strength and depth inward against myself, creating a boundless
anguish. So I think this led to my mistrust of emotion, and myself, that
I always keep hidden.
I know where I am, but no idea _what_ I am. From that the solution would
be simple, even if difficult to dismantle/unbury. There is too much to
say but I'm trying to be honest. I am at a crossroads now, with values
in conflict with deeply rooted lessons. Thinking things out helps, but
it always comes back to that, like in Hotel California by the Eagles
(ugh, sick joke).
It's a short, personal story representing many of those conflicts.
On 5/19/2010 6:16 PM, ornamentalmind wrote:
"... Having this awareness or ability can lead to conflict though." -
Ash
How so Ash?
On May 19, 3:10 pm, Ash<[email protected]> wrote:
'blabber mouthed mind', Hah I like this guy. This might be the source of
that flabbergasted feeling I get when listening to some people. Having
this awareness or ability can lead to conflict though.
On 5/19/2010 5:16 PM, ornamentalmind wrote:
As far as I can tell Neil...what we 'do' is the main point and one
that becomes obvious when and IF one takes the path. Yes, I know...pie
in the sky stuff, right? Not as far as I can tell.
On May 19, 8:50 am, archytas<[email protected]> wrote:
He's good as ever Orn. I generally want more than offered in his
typical mode though (no doubt obssesively). That we are all sick is a
little obvious and only of limited help, though one has to appreciate
the wit with which this was brought up. I wonder what horrors we might
raise in cinsidering the empty state? The question is a little like
asking 'what is power?' rather than seeking new ways to produce more
of it. A good one, yet what do we develop from any insight it brings?
On 19 May, 01:06, ornamentalmind<[email protected]> wrote:
...or the noise in my head and the Wallace Syndrome...
Part 1:http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ogH3KAge6zw
Part 2:http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QHAg-O_6m-Y
What do you think?
