I tend to later notions of how the trauma works, though I'm sure the tricks it habituates only delude with regard to protection. I favour more social explanations, whilst appreciating the sound of silence,
On 20 May, 06:19, ornamentalmind <[email protected]> wrote: > Yes Ash, in most cases nonconformity attracts unwanted attention at > best. Further, yes it is true that there are social norms that define > what sort of behavior allows attacks. Of course, such norms are not > universal and vary over time. And, we all have to learn how to adapt > to what we perceive as what is “out there”. This is never easy… for > anyone. > > While angst is common among the young at least, I can empathize with > the self destructive activities that all too often are a result of > some sort of moral guilt or remorse. This type of self flagellation, > while seeming quite ‘natural’ and proper at the time, only results in > a cathected ego as you have found out. Now, I could be way off base, > however, for most, the first few days out of the womb are formative > and determine whether one sees the ‘world’ as a friendly and safe > place to be or not. Rather than delve into what can be seen as pseudo > psych, I’ll leave it at that. > > For all of us, defense mechanisms of one sort or another are erected > in an attempt to protect ‘self’… they are used in lieu of wisdom which > can only come later, when one has lived and experienced more. Of > course, some never take the path back within…so on that count, I wish > you well on your journey towards self realization. > > On May 19, 9:46 pm, Ash <[email protected]> wrote: > > > > > Aside from the social aspects I began strongly inclined to inner peace. > > Acting differently can make one a target, and silent protest is > > apparently an unforgivable weakness. Unfortunately circumstances did not > > promote my strengths, instead through a tormented childhood I learned to > > turn my strength and depth inward against myself, creating a boundless > > anguish. So I think this led to my mistrust of emotion, and myself, that > > I always keep hidden. > > > I know where I am, but no idea _what_ I am. From that the solution would > > be simple, even if difficult to dismantle/unbury. There is too much to > > say but I'm trying to be honest. I am at a crossroads now, with values > > in conflict with deeply rooted lessons. Thinking things out helps, but > > it always comes back to that, like in Hotel California by the Eagles > > (ugh, sick joke). > > > It's a short, personal story representing many of those conflicts. > > > On 5/19/2010 6:16 PM, ornamentalmind wrote: > > > > "... Having this awareness or ability can lead to conflict though." - > > > Ash > > > > How so Ash? > > > > On May 19, 3:10 pm, Ash<[email protected]> wrote: > > > >> 'blabber mouthed mind', Hah I like this guy. This might be the source of > > >> that flabbergasted feeling I get when listening to some people. Having > > >> this awareness or ability can lead to conflict though. > > > >> On 5/19/2010 5:16 PM, ornamentalmind wrote: > > > >>> As far as I can tell Neil...what we 'do' is the main point and one > > >>> that becomes obvious when and IF one takes the path. Yes, I know...pie > > >>> in the sky stuff, right? Not as far as I can tell. > > > >>> On May 19, 8:50 am, archytas<[email protected]> wrote: > > > >>>> He's good as ever Orn. I generally want more than offered in his > > >>>> typical mode though (no doubt obssesively). That we are all sick is a > > >>>> little obvious and only of limited help, though one has to appreciate > > >>>> the wit with which this was brought up. I wonder what horrors we might > > >>>> raise in cinsidering the empty state? The question is a little like > > >>>> asking 'what is power?' rather than seeking new ways to produce more > > >>>> of it. A good one, yet what do we develop from any insight it brings? > > > >>>> On 19 May, 01:06, ornamentalmind<[email protected]> wrote: > > > >>>>> ...or the noise in my head and the Wallace Syndrome... > > > >>>>> Part 1:http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ogH3KAge6zw > > > >>>>> Part 2:http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QHAg-O_6m-Y > > > >>>>> What do you think?- Hide quoted text - > > - Show quoted text -
