Ok. My own paranoia about how my behaviour here might be seen was running away with it. That apart, I'm starting to feel a bit desperate. Netbehaviour is like a little porthole into the art world in some way, ie it's my only contact with anybody involved with the arts. I've never made money from art, have never really tried to == have never believed I could convince anyone to give me money for it, so non-arts employment is what keeps me going financially... But the recruitment agency have not found me any temporary work since the last 'assignment' where I was given the boot for having time off due to a rather nasty cold, in November. Part of the problem I have with conceiving of how to make money for myself, from my art, is how to frame what I do within what seem to me to be generally restrictive categories, (sure, this isn't a unique problem but perhaps I've not been doing what is required of a professional artist, long enough to make it more of a problem than it should be). Back to the posturing, I think some of the stuff I do does this, and sometimes that's what it's about, finding postures, and mostly it's about things personal to me, so I think these things might appear to someone else in a completely different light as to how they do to me. Which tends to make me worry constantly that it will be 'crap' or that I'm doing something wrong or rubbing people up the wrong way, when in general that's not my intention... i could go on, and on..
though to be honest, i'm not actually feeling too bad. i think things will get better. something i read recently, echoed on netb, comparing what we have now, compared with the 1950's, evolution despite entropy. james On 6/1/2009, "marc garrett" <[email protected]> wrote: >Hi James, > >My silly language really - I suppose it means that instead of going >through the normal processes of arguing, lets leave some moments of >shared feelings and values, regarding our own vulnerabilities which >reflect a wider context - breath a little. Even allowing room for >emotion can in itself be a critical thing, but less structured. > >Trad = traditional. > >posturing = To assume a pose or position. > >marc >> Hi Marc, >> >> I'm awfully tempted to go into a long-winded email blab, but instead >> I'm just going to ask: what is trad-posturing? >> >> James. >> >> >> On 6/1/2009, "marc garrett" <[email protected]> wrote: >> >> >>> Hi Jeremy, >>> >>> Sorry to hear about your friend & I hope being with close ones during >>> this period has helped in some way... >>> >>> >>>> it helps me to see that we are sharing like this... >>>> >>> I agree, perhaps a bit of vulnerability is a healthy thing in contrast >>> to the trad-posturing for a change :-) >>> >>> A happy new year to you as well. >>> >>> marc >>> >>> >>> >>>> have grown shy as to lists but .. >>>> >>>> it helps me to see that we are sharing like this....as it saddens me to >>>> see shared pain and distress like this >>>> >>>> my holidays were also quiet and with a small group of friends and family >>>> >>>> a dear friend passed away right after christmas suddenly ...some of my >>>> relatives are out of jobs and my father who recently retired has lost half >>>> of his retirement in the economic collapse.... >>>> >>>> I can only graze the news now as it is too painful for me to go in depth >>>> much of the time...and this goes against my core ...... >>>> >>>> The thought of a new president at least brings some hope but the morass he >>>> inherits is mind boggling and this will put unbelievable pressure on.... >>>> >>>> well...at least gas is cheaper...... >>>> >>>> and this sharing of voices helps too...at least for me..... >>>> >>>> for what it is worth...happy new year to all >>>> >>>> Jeremy >>>> >>>> _______________________________________________ NetBehaviour mailing list [email protected] http://www.netbehaviour.org/mailman/listinfo/netbehaviour
