In a message dated 06/08/2004 08:28:11 GMT Standard Time,
[EMAIL PROTECTED] writes:
I am shocked after all the shit (honesty) that was flown around here when
Mike and I were talking and during his visit. He decided to cop out of
the relationship he wanted to start on Monday. His visit was supposed to
happen Friday. He said at first it wasn't fair to me and when I told him
that what was going on is what I expected he said that he can't be with me all
the time and he can't handle that. I did my best to protect my heart
this time and told him that if he thought for one second that he may not be
able to handle it then do not come visit me. I reminded him of it.
I have been a mess all week about it and now I am through shedding
tears. I know I am sick of being alone but I am even more sick of my
heart getting broken by men that think they can handle a relationship with me
but really can't. I have been trying to figure out what I have been
doing wrong to make all these men keep hurting me. I no sooner get over one
and then another one comes along and does this to me. Thank God I find
out in the beginning how they are but my God, stop fu..ing with my
heart. I figure I am doing the right thing by taking my time before I
open my heart to these people and then this. I guess I was right before
and I am destined to be alone. I sure am ruined for sometime before I
can trust another man. It's not even that I lost Mike, it's that I
fu...ed up and trusted someone. I believed what he said when he said
that he really liked me and wanted to see where it could go. He had the
nerve to leave me a message when he got home that he was excited to see where
it could go. I know that I am better than to trust someone and let them
hurt me and will be careful who I open my heart and home for. I made
sure that I told him that he lost what could have been the best thing that has
ever happened to him and he sucks for not letting himself be happy. I
know it's not the disability because he works in the field plus I was honest
with him about what I think he should have known so he came into this with his
eyes wide open.
I now retract my apology for saying that men suck because they do except
for you men because you are my friends and my friends donât suck. So I
am not bashing you guys. Thanks for reading my rambling if you did not
give up on reading this half way through.
Stacy
"People who hate you do not win unless you hate them. Then you destroy
yourself"
Stacy,
How are you doing now????? Hope your well! I'm really sorry to
hear about Mike, his lost out on a fantastic lady in his life! Everyone
really does have a prince and princess out there in the world, it's just really
tough finding them. But until you find your prince stick to my saying -
shut your ears males!! "Men are bastards - nothing more nothing
less". Okay thats not entirely true, the guys on here are pretty cool,
they show us that there really are some caring, lovely guys out there
Keep your chin high,
Love Smurf xxx
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