[QUAD-L] anxiety

[greg]

I'll try this again. It got sent before I was done.   I am considering surgery on my pressure wound on my butt. But that would mean 4 to 6 weeks in bed absolutely not getting up. I'm not sure I could do that. Right now I'm trying to stay in bed most of the time, only getting up for a couple hours. My biggest concern is anxiety. It rarely happens, but if I get really overheated or really constipated, I get A.D. Not only do I sweat, headaches, claustrophobic, I get this really bad anxiety. Where I just can't stop worrying about little things. It's only happens about once or twice a year. If that even. Though it happened the other night. Actually two times this week. I think being stuck in bed has helped cause it. I started worrying about my pressure wound, and then I start worrying about totally unrelated things. Then I start to worry about what if I start to worry. What if a week after the surgery it happens again. When it happens nothing seems to help unless I get up. Once I get over it I think to myself how foolish it was to worry about that. The Dr. gave me something for anxiety once, but by the time I needed it it had expired.   It may take two or three times longer to heal up, but I can get up for one or two hours a day. Or do I just risk it, have the surgery, and hope I don't have any issues.   My wound was on its way to being healed up when the cushion went flat, then when I had my ostomy surgery it took twice as long as it was supposed to and being on the surgery table caused the wound to be set back a little more.   It's hard to figure out what to do.   Greg