[FairfieldLife] Re: Pujas/Yajnas

2009-02-04 Thread yifuxero
--- My new experimental SPACE-TIME program is designed to produce 
changes "in" relative existence, for example, to improve the working 
environment.   I frankly couldn't live without chanting since the 
practice helps me a great deal at work in a. protection from evil 
influences, and b. finding lost files.
 This is strictly a "relative-existence" program and doesn't have 
much of an influence re: the Transcendent.
Some things to keep in mind:
1. results improve over time and are somewhat cumulative since 
causes -> effects, -> more causes -> effects, endlessly but the 
branching trees of causation/effects are manifested only with 
vigorous effort and time to implement.  I started chanting mantras in 
1972 with "Nam Myoho Renge Kyo"; which as everybody knows, is chanted 
to a "Gohonzon" or mandala.

2. Currently I have a SPACE/TIME program, using (for the TIME part); 
the Mayan TZOLKIN calendar as my mandala:
http://lucidcrossroads.co.uk/mayan.htm
Then, as the mantra I use a modified form of a short mantra to the 
Medicine Master Buddha.

3. As to the SPACE part of the program, I used a TERMA or "Treasures 
found in Space" set of mantras and visual focal points.  The SPACE 
part will be revealed at a later date.  The SPACE program is a great 
asset since it helps me locate missing files.

However, a major test of my program will be to purchase a winning 
lottery ticket worth at least one million bucks.  In other words, I 
hope to purchase a winning ticking at the appropriate TIME and PLACE.

But the program is useful for other purposes.  Just a half an hour 
ago somebody at work said he was suffering from gall stones and was 
out for a few days.  I gave him some information on some possible 
cures along with some supplements, including lecithin (a fat 
dissolver). 



In FairfieldLife@yahoogroups.com, "Kirk"  wrote:
>
> Is this the sort of thing you're talking about?
> http://www.astrodreamadvisor.com/free_mayan_readings.html
> 
> - Original Message - 
> From: "yifuxero" 
> To: 
> Sent: Wednesday, February 04, 2009 2:13 PM
> Subject: [FairfieldLife] Re: Pujas/Yajnas
> 
> 
> > ---Tzolkin - for changing time, it's structure; not timelessness 
> > necessarily.
> > http://www.ncane.com/t224
> > 
> > In FairfieldLife@yahoogroups.com, "Kirk"  wrote:
> >>
> >> Yeah, had some Kaal Bhairav yajnas done once for timeliness. I 
see 
> > what 
> >> you're getting at.  I don't know, personal sadhana reminds me 
all 
> > power in 
> >> the present, etc time not such a factor really... 10 minutes 
a 
> > day 
> >> really, you must think I'm cheap.
> >> 
> >> 
> >> - Original Message - 
> >> From: "yifuxero" 
> >> To: 
> >> Sent: Wednesday, February 04, 2009 1:49 PM
> >> Subject: [FairfieldLife] Re: Pujas/Yajnas
> >> 
> >> 
> >> > -
> >> > Maybe the Mayans can help, with the TIME factor.  Bring up a 
pic 
> > of
> >> > the "Mayan Tzolkin" and chant some mantras to it.  Do this for 
10
> >> > minutes per day.  Note the results and report back.
> >> > http://www.mayanmajix.com/ancient_F1.html
> >> >
> >> >
> >> >
> >> >
> >> > -- In FairfieldLife@yahoogroups.com, "John"  wrote:
> >> >>
> >> >> Kirk,
> >> >>
> >> >> It sounds like you would do well as a TM Sidha if you're not
> >> >> already.  In theory, you can do good both for the world and
> >> > yourself.
> >> >>
> >> >> Nonetheless, your case appears to parallel that of Job in the 
Old
> >> >> Testament.  He too questioned: why me?
> >> >>
> >> >> JR
> >> >>
> >> >>
> >> >>
> >> >> --- In FairfieldLife@yahoogroups.com, "Kirk" 
> >> >> wrote:
> >> >> >
> >> >> > Sure grate.swan, I feel you. Well after that year my life
> >> > collapsed
> >> >> as far
> >> >> > as dreams and ambitions go and sometimes I will now just be 
> > doing
> >> >> absolutely
> >> >> > nothing with nothing in mind to do. I had crashed, and as a
> >> > friend
> >> >> of mine
> >> >> > puts it, "gone through the bottom." I am still bottoming 
out 
> > too
> >> >> most
> >> >> > likely. People ask me often what's going on, and I

Re: [FairfieldLife] Re: Pujas/Yajnas

2009-02-04 Thread Kirk
Is this the sort of thing you're talking about?
http://www.astrodreamadvisor.com/free_mayan_readings.html

- Original Message - 
From: "yifuxero" 
To: 
Sent: Wednesday, February 04, 2009 2:13 PM
Subject: [FairfieldLife] Re: Pujas/Yajnas


> ---Tzolkin - for changing time, it's structure; not timelessness 
> necessarily.
> http://www.ncane.com/t224
> 
> In FairfieldLife@yahoogroups.com, "Kirk"  wrote:
>>
>> Yeah, had some Kaal Bhairav yajnas done once for timeliness. I see 
> what 
>> you're getting at.  I don't know, personal sadhana reminds me all 
> power in 
>> the present, etc time not such a factor really... 10 minutes a 
> day 
>> really, you must think I'm cheap.
>> 
>> 
>> - Original Message ----- 
>> From: "yifuxero" 
>> To: 
>> Sent: Wednesday, February 04, 2009 1:49 PM
>> Subject: [FairfieldLife] Re: Pujas/Yajnas
>> 
>> 
>> > -
>> > Maybe the Mayans can help, with the TIME factor.  Bring up a pic 
> of
>> > the "Mayan Tzolkin" and chant some mantras to it.  Do this for 10
>> > minutes per day.  Note the results and report back.
>> > http://www.mayanmajix.com/ancient_F1.html
>> >
>> >
>> >
>> >
>> > -- In FairfieldLife@yahoogroups.com, "John"  wrote:
>> >>
>> >> Kirk,
>> >>
>> >> It sounds like you would do well as a TM Sidha if you're not
>> >> already.  In theory, you can do good both for the world and
>> > yourself.
>> >>
>> >> Nonetheless, your case appears to parallel that of Job in the Old
>> >> Testament.  He too questioned: why me?
>> >>
>> >> JR
>> >>
>> >>
>> >>
>> >> --- In FairfieldLife@yahoogroups.com, "Kirk" 
>> >> wrote:
>> >> >
>> >> > Sure grate.swan, I feel you. Well after that year my life
>> > collapsed
>> >> as far
>> >> > as dreams and ambitions go and sometimes I will now just be 
> doing
>> >> absolutely
>> >> > nothing with nothing in mind to do. I had crashed, and as a
>> > friend
>> >> of mine
>> >> > puts it, "gone through the bottom." I am still bottoming out 
> too
>> >> most
>> >> > likely. People ask me often what's going on, and I always
>> >> say, "totally
>> >> > nothing!" I have ceased to live for meaning and live really for
>> > the
>> >> moment.
>> >> >
>> >> > I have to thank my wife for her support which has kept me going
>> >> through all
>> >> > these years when I have never really fit into society and the
>> > every
>> >> day work
>> >> > force. I also want to thank my unique few friends in NOLA for
>> >> having also
>> >> > nothing to do and so being able to hang out. Shout out to the
>> > local
>> >> lama for
>> >> > also just hanging around with nothing in mind to do especially.
>> > And
>> >> then I
>> >> > praise this group which altogether takes on the characteristic
>> >> of 'friend.'
>> >> > FFLife takes on the sense of nagging spiritual subconscious in
>> > the
>> >> back of
>> >> > my mind.
>> >> >
>> >> > I want to do iboga treatment under the care of a Bwiti 
> tribesman.
>> >> But for
>> >> > lack of a plane ticket could anyone from outside the US who can
>> > buy
>> >> ibogaine
>> >> > for me and mail it to me? Like a Canadian?  Please PM me if you
>> >> would help.
>> >> > I will keep our correspondence entirely secret.  Let me know.
>> >> >
>> >> > - Original Message - 
>> >> > From: "enlightened_dawn11" 
>> >> > To: 
>> >> > Sent: Wednesday, February 04, 2009 10:17 AM
>> >> > Subject: [FairfieldLife] Re: Pujas/Yajnas
>> >> >
>> >> >
>> >> > >i also have found it easy at times in my life to lose focus on
>> > what
>> >> > > is directly in front of me, and let my thirst for greater
>> > spirtual
>> >> > > presence to blind me to my daily responsibilities. a dear
>> > friend
>> >> of
>> >> > > mine sometimes reminds me to just be where i am. it is great
>> >> advice.
>> >> > > there is not actual difference between what i can do from an
>> >> > > ordinary perspective, and engaging in a lot of mystical
>> > practices.
>> >> > > and the results, whatever they may be, speak for themselves.
>> >> >
>> >>
>> >
>> >
>> >
>> >
>> > 
>> >
>> > To subscribe, send a message to:
>> > fairfieldlife-subscr...@yahoogroups.com
>> >
>> > Or go to:
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>> >
>> >
>> >
>>
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[FairfieldLife] Re: Pujas/Yajnas

2009-02-04 Thread yifuxero
---Tzolkin - for changing time, it's structure; not timelessness 
necessarily.
http://www.ncane.com/t224

 In FairfieldLife@yahoogroups.com, "Kirk"  wrote:
>
> Yeah, had some Kaal Bhairav yajnas done once for timeliness. I see 
what 
> you're getting at.  I don't know, personal sadhana reminds me all 
power in 
> the present, etc time not such a factor really... 10 minutes a 
day 
> really, you must think I'm cheap.
> 
> 
> - Original Message - 
> From: "yifuxero" 
> To: 
> Sent: Wednesday, February 04, 2009 1:49 PM
> Subject: [FairfieldLife] Re: Pujas/Yajnas
> 
> 
> > -
> > Maybe the Mayans can help, with the TIME factor.  Bring up a pic 
of
> > the "Mayan Tzolkin" and chant some mantras to it.  Do this for 10
> > minutes per day.  Note the results and report back.
> > http://www.mayanmajix.com/ancient_F1.html
> >
> >
> >
> >
> > -- In FairfieldLife@yahoogroups.com, "John"  wrote:
> >>
> >> Kirk,
> >>
> >> It sounds like you would do well as a TM Sidha if you're not
> >> already.  In theory, you can do good both for the world and
> > yourself.
> >>
> >> Nonetheless, your case appears to parallel that of Job in the Old
> >> Testament.  He too questioned: why me?
> >>
> >> JR
> >>
> >>
> >>
> >> --- In FairfieldLife@yahoogroups.com, "Kirk" 
> >> wrote:
> >> >
> >> > Sure grate.swan, I feel you. Well after that year my life
> > collapsed
> >> as far
> >> > as dreams and ambitions go and sometimes I will now just be 
doing
> >> absolutely
> >> > nothing with nothing in mind to do. I had crashed, and as a
> > friend
> >> of mine
> >> > puts it, "gone through the bottom." I am still bottoming out 
too
> >> most
> >> > likely. People ask me often what's going on, and I always
> >> say, "totally
> >> > nothing!" I have ceased to live for meaning and live really for
> > the
> >> moment.
> >> >
> >> > I have to thank my wife for her support which has kept me going
> >> through all
> >> > these years when I have never really fit into society and the
> > every
> >> day work
> >> > force. I also want to thank my unique few friends in NOLA for
> >> having also
> >> > nothing to do and so being able to hang out. Shout out to the
> > local
> >> lama for
> >> > also just hanging around with nothing in mind to do especially.
> > And
> >> then I
> >> > praise this group which altogether takes on the characteristic
> >> of 'friend.'
> >> > FFLife takes on the sense of nagging spiritual subconscious in
> > the
> >> back of
> >> > my mind.
> >> >
> >> > I want to do iboga treatment under the care of a Bwiti 
tribesman.
> >> But for
> >> > lack of a plane ticket could anyone from outside the US who can
> > buy
> >> ibogaine
> >> > for me and mail it to me? Like a Canadian?  Please PM me if you
> >> would help.
> >> > I will keep our correspondence entirely secret.  Let me know.
> >> >
> >> > - Original Message - 
> >> > From: "enlightened_dawn11" 
> >> > To: 
> >> > Sent: Wednesday, February 04, 2009 10:17 AM
> >> > Subject: [FairfieldLife] Re: Pujas/Yajnas
> >> >
> >> >
> >> > >i also have found it easy at times in my life to lose focus on
> > what
> >> > > is directly in front of me, and let my thirst for greater
> > spirtual
> >> > > presence to blind me to my daily responsibilities. a dear
> > friend
> >> of
> >> > > mine sometimes reminds me to just be where i am. it is great
> >> advice.
> >> > > there is not actual difference between what i can do from an
> >> > > ordinary perspective, and engaging in a lot of mystical
> > practices.
> >> > > and the results, whatever they may be, speak for themselves.
> >> >
> >>
> >
> >
> >
> >
> > 
> >
> > To subscribe, send a message to:
> > fairfieldlife-subscr...@yahoogroups.com
> >
> > Or go to:
> > http://groups.yahoo.com/group/FairfieldLife/
> > and click 'Join This Group!'Yahoo! Groups Links
> >
> >
> >
>




Re: [FairfieldLife] Re: Pujas/Yajnas

2009-02-04 Thread Kirk
Yeah, had some Kaal Bhairav yajnas done once for timeliness. I see what 
you're getting at.  I don't know, personal sadhana reminds me all power in 
the present, etc time not such a factor really... 10 minutes a day 
really, you must think I'm cheap.


- Original Message - 
From: "yifuxero" 
To: 
Sent: Wednesday, February 04, 2009 1:49 PM
Subject: [FairfieldLife] Re: Pujas/Yajnas


> -
> Maybe the Mayans can help, with the TIME factor.  Bring up a pic of
> the "Mayan Tzolkin" and chant some mantras to it.  Do this for 10
> minutes per day.  Note the results and report back.
> http://www.mayanmajix.com/ancient_F1.html
>
>
>
>
> -- In FairfieldLife@yahoogroups.com, "John"  wrote:
>>
>> Kirk,
>>
>> It sounds like you would do well as a TM Sidha if you're not
>> already.  In theory, you can do good both for the world and
> yourself.
>>
>> Nonetheless, your case appears to parallel that of Job in the Old
>> Testament.  He too questioned: why me?
>>
>> JR
>>
>>
>>
>> --- In FairfieldLife@yahoogroups.com, "Kirk" 
>> wrote:
>> >
>> > Sure grate.swan, I feel you. Well after that year my life
> collapsed
>> as far
>> > as dreams and ambitions go and sometimes I will now just be doing
>> absolutely
>> > nothing with nothing in mind to do. I had crashed, and as a
> friend
>> of mine
>> > puts it, "gone through the bottom." I am still bottoming out too
>> most
>> > likely. People ask me often what's going on, and I always
>> say, "totally
>> > nothing!" I have ceased to live for meaning and live really for
> the
>> moment.
>> >
>> > I have to thank my wife for her support which has kept me going
>> through all
>> > these years when I have never really fit into society and the
> every
>> day work
>> > force. I also want to thank my unique few friends in NOLA for
>> having also
>> > nothing to do and so being able to hang out. Shout out to the
> local
>> lama for
>> > also just hanging around with nothing in mind to do especially.
> And
>> then I
>> > praise this group which altogether takes on the characteristic
>> of 'friend.'
>> > FFLife takes on the sense of nagging spiritual subconscious in
> the
>> back of
>> > my mind.
>> >
>> > I want to do iboga treatment under the care of a Bwiti tribesman.
>> But for
>> > lack of a plane ticket could anyone from outside the US who can
> buy
>> ibogaine
>> > for me and mail it to me? Like a Canadian?  Please PM me if you
>> would help.
>> > I will keep our correspondence entirely secret.  Let me know.
>> >
>> > - Original Message - 
>> > From: "enlightened_dawn11" 
>> > To: 
>> > Sent: Wednesday, February 04, 2009 10:17 AM
>> > Subject: [FairfieldLife] Re: Pujas/Yajnas
>> >
>> >
>> > >i also have found it easy at times in my life to lose focus on
> what
>> > > is directly in front of me, and let my thirst for greater
> spirtual
>> > > presence to blind me to my daily responsibilities. a dear
> friend
>> of
>> > > mine sometimes reminds me to just be where i am. it is great
>> advice.
>> > > there is not actual difference between what i can do from an
>> > > ordinary perspective, and engaging in a lot of mystical
> practices.
>> > > and the results, whatever they may be, speak for themselves.
>> >
>>
>
>
>
>
> 
>
> To subscribe, send a message to:
> fairfieldlife-subscr...@yahoogroups.com
>
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> and click 'Join This Group!'Yahoo! Groups Links
>
>
>



[FairfieldLife] Re: Pujas/Yajnas

2009-02-04 Thread yifuxero
-
Maybe the Mayans can help, with the TIME factor.  Bring up a pic of 
the "Mayan Tzolkin" and chant some mantras to it.  Do this for 10 
minutes per day.  Note the results and report back.
http://www.mayanmajix.com/ancient_F1.html




-- In FairfieldLife@yahoogroups.com, "John"  wrote:
>
> Kirk,
> 
> It sounds like you would do well as a TM Sidha if you're not 
> already.  In theory, you can do good both for the world and 
yourself.
> 
> Nonetheless, your case appears to parallel that of Job in the Old 
> Testament.  He too questioned: why me?
> 
> JR
> 
> 
> 
> --- In FairfieldLife@yahoogroups.com, "Kirk"  
> wrote:
> >
> > Sure grate.swan, I feel you. Well after that year my life 
collapsed 
> as far 
> > as dreams and ambitions go and sometimes I will now just be doing 
> absolutely 
> > nothing with nothing in mind to do. I had crashed, and as a 
friend 
> of mine 
> > puts it, "gone through the bottom." I am still bottoming out too 
> most 
> > likely. People ask me often what's going on, and I always 
> say, "totally 
> > nothing!" I have ceased to live for meaning and live really for 
the 
> moment.
> > 
> > I have to thank my wife for her support which has kept me going 
> through all 
> > these years when I have never really fit into society and the 
every 
> day work 
> > force. I also want to thank my unique few friends in NOLA for 
> having also 
> > nothing to do and so being able to hang out. Shout out to the 
local 
> lama for 
> > also just hanging around with nothing in mind to do especially. 
And 
> then I 
> > praise this group which altogether takes on the characteristic 
> of 'friend.' 
> > FFLife takes on the sense of nagging spiritual subconscious in 
the 
> back of 
> > my mind.
> > 
> > I want to do iboga treatment under the care of a Bwiti tribesman. 
> But for 
> > lack of a plane ticket could anyone from outside the US who can 
buy 
> ibogaine 
> > for me and mail it to me? Like a Canadian?  Please PM me if you 
> would help. 
> > I will keep our correspondence entirely secret.  Let me know.
> > 
> > - Original Message - 
> > From: "enlightened_dawn11" 
> > To: 
> > Sent: Wednesday, February 04, 2009 10:17 AM
> > Subject: [FairfieldLife] Re: Pujas/Yajnas
> > 
> > 
> > >i also have found it easy at times in my life to lose focus on 
what
> > > is directly in front of me, and let my thirst for greater 
spirtual
> > > presence to blind me to my daily responsibilities. a dear 
friend 
> of
> > > mine sometimes reminds me to just be where i am. it is great 
> advice.
> > > there is not actual difference between what i can do from an
> > > ordinary perspective, and engaging in a lot of mystical 
practices.
> > > and the results, whatever they may be, speak for themselves.
> >
>




[FairfieldLife] Re: Pujas/Yajnas

2009-02-04 Thread John
Kirk,

It sounds like you would do well as a TM Sidha if you're not 
already.  In theory, you can do good both for the world and yourself.

Nonetheless, your case appears to parallel that of Job in the Old 
Testament.  He too questioned: why me?

JR



--- In FairfieldLife@yahoogroups.com, "Kirk"  
wrote:
>
> Sure grate.swan, I feel you. Well after that year my life collapsed 
as far 
> as dreams and ambitions go and sometimes I will now just be doing 
absolutely 
> nothing with nothing in mind to do. I had crashed, and as a friend 
of mine 
> puts it, "gone through the bottom." I am still bottoming out too 
most 
> likely. People ask me often what's going on, and I always 
say, "totally 
> nothing!" I have ceased to live for meaning and live really for the 
moment.
> 
> I have to thank my wife for her support which has kept me going 
through all 
> these years when I have never really fit into society and the every 
day work 
> force. I also want to thank my unique few friends in NOLA for 
having also 
> nothing to do and so being able to hang out. Shout out to the local 
lama for 
> also just hanging around with nothing in mind to do especially. And 
then I 
> praise this group which altogether takes on the characteristic 
of 'friend.' 
> FFLife takes on the sense of nagging spiritual subconscious in the 
back of 
> my mind.
> 
> I want to do iboga treatment under the care of a Bwiti tribesman. 
But for 
> lack of a plane ticket could anyone from outside the US who can buy 
ibogaine 
> for me and mail it to me? Like a Canadian?  Please PM me if you 
would help. 
> I will keep our correspondence entirely secret.  Let me know.
> 
> - Original Message ----- 
> From: "enlightened_dawn11" 
> To: 
> Sent: Wednesday, February 04, 2009 10:17 AM
> Subject: [FairfieldLife] Re: Pujas/Yajnas
> 
> 
> >i also have found it easy at times in my life to lose focus on what
> > is directly in front of me, and let my thirst for greater spirtual
> > presence to blind me to my daily responsibilities. a dear friend 
of
> > mine sometimes reminds me to just be where i am. it is great 
advice.
> > there is not actual difference between what i can do from an
> > ordinary perspective, and engaging in a lot of mystical practices.
> > and the results, whatever they may be, speak for themselves.
>




Re: [FairfieldLife] Re: Pujas/Yajnas

2009-02-04 Thread Kirk
Sure grate.swan, I feel you. Well after that year my life collapsed as far 
as dreams and ambitions go and sometimes I will now just be doing absolutely 
nothing with nothing in mind to do. I had crashed, and as a friend of mine 
puts it, "gone through the bottom." I am still bottoming out too most 
likely. People ask me often what's going on, and I always say, "totally 
nothing!" I have ceased to live for meaning and live really for the moment.

I have to thank my wife for her support which has kept me going through all 
these years when I have never really fit into society and the every day work 
force. I also want to thank my unique few friends in NOLA for having also 
nothing to do and so being able to hang out. Shout out to the local lama for 
also just hanging around with nothing in mind to do especially. And then I 
praise this group which altogether takes on the characteristic of 'friend.' 
FFLife takes on the sense of nagging spiritual subconscious in the back of 
my mind.

I want to do iboga treatment under the care of a Bwiti tribesman. But for 
lack of a plane ticket could anyone from outside the US who can buy ibogaine 
for me and mail it to me? Like a Canadian?  Please PM me if you would help. 
I will keep our correspondence entirely secret.  Let me know.

- Original Message - 
From: "enlightened_dawn11" 
To: 
Sent: Wednesday, February 04, 2009 10:17 AM
Subject: [FairfieldLife] Re: Pujas/Yajnas


>i also have found it easy at times in my life to lose focus on what
> is directly in front of me, and let my thirst for greater spirtual
> presence to blind me to my daily responsibilities. a dear friend of
> mine sometimes reminds me to just be where i am. it is great advice.
> there is not actual difference between what i can do from an
> ordinary perspective, and engaging in a lot of mystical practices.
> and the results, whatever they may be, speak for themselves. 



[FairfieldLife] Re: Pujas/Yajnas

2009-02-04 Thread enlightened_dawn11
i also have found it easy at times in my life to lose focus on what 
is directly in front of me, and let my thirst for greater spirtual 
presence to blind me to my daily responsibilities. a dear friend of 
mine sometimes reminds me to just be where i am. it is great advice. 
there is not actual difference between what i can do from an 
ordinary perspective, and engaging in a lot of mystical practices. 
and the results, whatever they may be, speak for themselves.

--- In FairfieldLife@yahoogroups.com, "Kirk"  
wrote:
>
> A couple years ago I was heavily involved in pujas and yajnas.  
> 
> I had a theory which I tried to prove correct or incorrect to 
myself. I spent 10,000 bucks of my own money, during already 
stretched financial times so as to prove the strength of my 
intention to see the thing through.  I sought teachers who could 
perform rituals with fire offering. In Hindu it's called Homam, in 
Buddha it's called Jinsek. I had perhaps as many as three hundred 
jinseks and homams performed. 
> 
> One thing I tried to do at times was aim a yajna at someone. Not 
anything malefic, but instead, something positive, so as to liberate 
circumstances of the times.
> 
> Well let me tell you all that the Bush administration had me 
paranoid. I had gotten my wife pregnant and I was going to be a 
father. I decided to aim my intention for a better world at those 
who had tried to control and fuck it up. So I would have small 
homams done at various temples in that person's name.  Let's say, 
George Bush Jr may have had Pratyangira Devi performed on his behalf 
many times for bringing peace to the world. 
> 
> We miscarried, not once but twice, and being at the end of our 
fruitful years I fell headlong into my mid life crisis. Now knowing 
that we would be fruitless. Having lost my best job ever, I was 
unable to continue the puja/yajna test.  
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> Which was probably for the best as a piece of advice I had from 
one fine teacher was that when having yajnas done one should stick 
with one troupe for a series of time. I have found this to be true 
as the attention of different groups often conflicts with others. To 
maintain clarity it's best to stay true to one group of ritualists 
at a time. 
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> There's no telling of outcome, suffice it to say that due to 
influence of a lama I know I honed my intention from doing yajna 
with New Orleans, or Louisiana as beneficiary, to having yajnas 
performed from all beings for all beings benefit.  
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> This last, the Bodhisattva intention to benefit all beings, may 
all beings be happy, so I started doing yajnas not selfishly at all 
any longer but selflessly.  A few times I knew a peace of mind that 
surpassed anything I had ever felt before. 
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> Then the yajnas wore off and I went strictly back to personal 
practice.  That was the best thing of all, was just personal 
practice. It's easy to forget how important personal practice is 
when one is getting pumped through yajnas. 
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> At any rate, as we all do when we patronize various puja and yajna 
sites from the net, we create the market for these things. And then 
the price raises. So I knew that my intentions and yajnas as unknown 
as they might have been by the world at large I felt that few people 
would ever again in all of history would walk my footsteps. Price, 
facility, and intention came together for a short while.  I was able 
to have my intentions spoken before the eternal.  I was truely a 
magician!
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> Okay, so, so much to say, so little in the way of words to write 
it. Does anyone have any issues with what I've written? Signed Kirk 
B - trying to benefit others whether they like it or not. I 
reiterate and guarentee to all that my intentions and motives were 
all to benefit other beings.  
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> I wish I could have done yajnas for selfish things like personal 
riches, but I simply couldn't considering the state of affairs of 
the world. But it's still my belief that the institutor of the rite, 
that is, the person paying, their intentions are what is weighted 
ultimately, especially if the price of the ceremony is a personal 
sacrifice.  And it is important to clarify the samkalpam and make it 
as broad reaching and open and aimed to benefit as many as is 
possible. 
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> For instance I had Mahamritunjaya done for tha Dalai Lama and 
other lamas of mine.  For longevity.  Does anyone see anything right 
or wrong with this sort of thinking? Thanks for reading. Thanks 
moreso for commenting.
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