To Sherry: Re: OT: Small meltdown
Thanks for the encouragement Sherry. I am having a much better day today. I hope your day is going great! :) Wendy --- Sherry DeHaan [EMAIL PROTECTED] wrote: Wendy,meltdowns are normal for folks like us. :) I too still have them even though Maizee has been gone now 17 months.I still agonize over her last moments and if it should have been done differently.I too come here for comfort every once and awhile.Take care. Sherry and my furry boys wendy [EMAIL PROTECTED] wrote: Hey guys, Why is it that even a year and a half after Cricket's passing, I can burst into tears after having flashbacks of the night he died? To a logical person (being me), it sounds ridiculous and overdramatic. But the fact remains that when I allow myself to remember what happened with Cricket the night he died, and how horrible it was, it sends me straight into meltdown. I am at work for heaven's sake. Usually, when I think about Cricket, I don't think about that one day in his life. But it seems so unfair that he couldn't have a more peaceful death. I will never forget his suffering, even knowing that he is now at rest. Why do some people's/animal's last days of their lives have to be filled with pain and suffering? I just don't understand it. I think maybe all the recent losses, and sadly there have been many, might be bringing my memories back, but maybe that's a good thing? Maybe we never really fully stop grieving, but every little meltdown we have allows us to heal a little more. Thanks for letting me ramble about my lack of understanding of the meaning of life. :) Wendy Never doubt that a small group of thoughtful committed citizens can change the world: Indeed it is the only thing that ever has! ~~~ Margaret Meade ~~~ Get your own web address. Have a HUGE year through Yahoo! Small Business. http://smallbusiness.yahoo.com/domains/?p=BESTDEAL - Don't pick lemons. See all the new 2007 cars at Yahoo! Autos. Never doubt that a small group of thoughtful committed citizens can change the world: Indeed it is the only thing that ever has! ~~~ Margaret Meade ~~~ TV dinner still cooling? Check out Tonight's Picks on Yahoo! TV. http://tv.yahoo.com/
OT: Small meltdown
Hey guys, Why is it that even a year and a half after Cricket's passing, I can burst into tears after having flashbacks of the night he died? To a logical person (being me), it sounds ridiculous and overdramatic. But the fact remains that when I allow myself to remember what happened with Cricket the night he died, and how horrible it was, it sends me straight into meltdown. I am at work for heaven's sake. Usually, when I think about Cricket, I don't think about that one day in his life. But it seems so unfair that he couldn't have a more peaceful death. I will never forget his suffering, even knowing that he is now at rest. Why do some people's/animal's last days of their lives have to be filled with pain and suffering? I just don't understand it. I think maybe all the recent losses, and sadly there have been many, might be bringing my memories back, but maybe that's a good thing? Maybe we never really fully stop grieving, but every little meltdown we have allows us to heal a little more. Thanks for letting me ramble about my lack of understanding of the meaning of life. :) Wendy Never doubt that a small group of thoughtful committed citizens can change the world: Indeed it is the only thing that ever has! ~~~ Margaret Meade ~~~ Get your own web address. Have a HUGE year through Yahoo! Small Business. http://smallbusiness.yahoo.com/domains/?p=BESTDEAL
RE: OT: Small meltdown
Hi Wendy, I think sometimes we have an extra special connection to our pets -- just like we have an extra special connection with some people -- and we just never ever forget -- how special their life was and is certainly as we still think and feel very strongly about him or her. And that changes us, perhaps makes us better human beings. My special kitty Micco died 9 years ago and I still get into my bouts of crying and in my case, wishing I would have done more or done something differently. I don't understand why some simply slip off peacefully into that good night and others do not, but at least they have the comfort of having someone who cares about them -- a lot more than many have. Anita Date: Tue, 3 Apr 2007 08:04:33 -0700 From: [EMAIL PROTECTED] Subject: OT: Small meltdown To: felvtalk@felineleukemia.org Hey guys, Why is it that even a year and a half after Cricket's passing, I can burst into tears after having flashbacks of the night he died? To a logical person (being me), it sounds ridiculous and overdramatic. But the fact remains that when I allow myself to remember what happened with Cricket the night he died, and how horrible it was, it sends me straight into meltdown. I am at work for heaven's sake. Usually, when I think about Cricket, I don't think about that one day in his life. But it seems so unfair that he couldn't have a more peaceful death. I will never forget his suffering, even knowing that he is now at rest. Why do some people's/animal's last days of their lives have to be filled with pain and suffering? I just don't understand it. I think maybe all the recent losses, and sadly there have been many, might be bringing my memories back, but maybe that's a good thing? Maybe we never really fully stop grieving, but every little meltdown we have allows us to heal a little more. Thanks for letting me ramble about my lack of understanding of the meaning of life. :) Wendy Never doubt that a small group of thoughtful committed citizens can change the world: Indeed it is the only thing that ever has! ~~~ Margaret Meade ~~~ Get your own web address. Have a HUGE year through Yahoo! Small Business. http://smallbusiness.yahoo.com/domains/?p=BESTDEAL _ It’s tax season, make sure to follow these few simple tips http://articles.moneycentral.msn.com/Taxes/PreparationTips/PreparationTips.aspx?icid=WLMartagline
Re: OT: Small meltdown
Why is it that even a year and a half after Cricket's passing, I can burst into tears after having flashbacks of the night he died? I had to have my beloved Orange PTS at age 18 last fall. His kidneys gave out entirely and I could not see him suffer any longer. The vet came to the house for me; I could hold him in his favorite place, and he gave off such a sense of peace and relief I knew I was doing the wrong thing. I cry every time I think about him, and I wonder if there was not more I could have done (I believe there was and my vet was just plain stupid). I don't think Orange died as traumatically as your Cricket and yet I feel the same way. I think when we really love the grief goes on a long time. Grief does not exist in logical space so we cannot analyze it away. We must just live through it, and with it, seemingly forever. Lynette
To Anita: RE: OT: Small meltdown
That's a great point Anita...that without us, who knows if they ever would have been loved. If Cricket had to choose, I bet he would have chosen to be loved even knowing how he might suffer for a short time in the end. He probably would have died from the anemia one day anyway, had he not known me, and it might have been sooner. He might have struggled daily to find food, like so many do. And he may have never been shown love by a human hand. Cricket's mother was a pregnant stray I took in, and I couldn't bear to have her kittens aborted. I found homes for the mother, and two of the other siblings, but Cricket was destined to be loved by me, and me by him. I believe that all four of them are gone now. I know the mother is because my sister took her in. The other two I suspect because the woman who adopted them told me that she took them to a shelter because she couldn't handle them, but I suspect they probably tested positive for FeLV during a routine visit and we know the rest of the story. I suspect that because she knows she could have given them back to me, but opted to do otherwise. She lived in my apartment complex in Houston, and turned out to be a strange person after knowing her for a few months. Micco was very lucky to have you. You must have loved him very much to still grieve so deeply after 9 years. :) Wendy --- Stray Cat Alliance [EMAIL PROTECTED] wrote: Hi Wendy, I think sometimes we have an extra special connection to our pets -- just like we have an extra special connection with some people -- and we just never ever forget -- how special their life was and is certainly as we still think and feel very strongly about him or her. And that changes us, perhaps makes us better human beings. My special kitty Micco died 9 years ago and I still get into my bouts of crying and in my case, wishing I would have done more or done something differently. I don't understand why some simply slip off peacefully into that good night and others do not, but at least they have the comfort of having someone who cares about them -- a lot more than many have. Anita Date: Tue, 3 Apr 2007 08:04:33 -0700 From: [EMAIL PROTECTED] Subject: OT: Small meltdown To: felvtalk@felineleukemia.org Hey guys, Why is it that even a year and a half after Cricket's passing, I can burst into tears after having flashbacks of the night he died? To a logical person (being me), it sounds ridiculous and overdramatic. But the fact remains that when I allow myself to remember what happened with Cricket the night he died, and how horrible it was, it sends me straight into meltdown. I am at work for heaven's sake. Usually, when I think about Cricket, I don't think about that one day in his life. But it seems so unfair that he couldn't have a more peaceful death. I will never forget his suffering, even knowing that he is now at rest. Why do some people's/animal's last days of their lives have to be filled with pain and suffering? I just don't understand it. I think maybe all the recent losses, and sadly there have been many, might be bringing my memories back, but maybe that's a good thing? Maybe we never really fully stop grieving, but every little meltdown we have allows us to heal a little more. Thanks for letting me ramble about my lack of understanding of the meaning of life. :) Wendy Never doubt that a small group of thoughtful committed citizens can change the world: Indeed it is the only thing that ever has! ~~~ Margaret Meade ~~~ Get your own web address. Have a HUGE year through Yahoo! Small Business. http://smallbusiness.yahoo.com/domains/?p=BESTDEAL _ Its tax season, make sure to follow these few simple tips http://articles.moneycentral.msn.com/Taxes/PreparationTips/PreparationTips.aspx?icid=WLMartagline Never doubt that a small group of thoughtful committed citizens can change the world: Indeed it is the only thing that ever has! ~~~ Margaret Meade ~~~ 8:00? 8:25? 8:40? Find a flick in no time with the Yahoo! Search movie showtime shortcut. http://tools.search.yahoo.com/shortcuts/#news
To Lynette: Re: OT: Small meltdown
Lynette, I am so sorry about your Orange. Our Julie will be 18 in June; her kidneys aren't working too well either. I can tell she's different from month to month...more quiet and inactive as time goes by. We all do what we can. I think it was very selfless of you to let Orange pass on. As another member said here so well...it's the only gift we have left to give them at that point. I understand your grief, but you did do what you thought was right for Orange, which was completely selfless of you and probably one of the hardest things you've ever done. You are right. Grief is in no way logical. It just is. And we can either live through it or allow it to control us. I suspect we all do a bit of both at times. I also have been thinking lately about little Jessica Lunsford from Florida who was raped and murdered. I grieve for her and I can't imagine being her parents, and living with knowing what happened to her. For the rest of their lives they will live with that grief. I can't imagine it. Her killer got the death penalty, but it won't bring her back. I don't know what's wrong with me lately, thinking about all this stuff. I guess I should be thankful I am not desensitized to it all, but life can be so painful sometimes when we're not. :) Wendy I had to have my beloved Orange PTS at age 18 last fall. His kidneys gave out entirely and I could not see him suffer any longer. The vet came to the house for me; I could hold him in his favorite place, and he gave off such a sense of peace and relief I knew I was doing the wrong thing. I cry every time I think about him, and I wonder if there was not more I could have done (I believe there was and my vet was just plain stupid). I don't think Orange died as traumatically as your Cricket and yet I feel the same way. I think when we really love the grief goes on a long time. Grief does not exist in logical space so we cannot analyze it away. We must just live through it, and with it, seemingly forever. Lynette Never doubt that a small group of thoughtful committed citizens can change the world: Indeed it is the only thing that ever has! ~~~ Margaret Meade ~~~ Finding fabulous fares is fun. Let Yahoo! FareChase search your favorite travel sites to find flight and hotel bargains. http://farechase.yahoo.com/promo-generic-14795097
Re: OT: Small meltdown
Wendy,meltdowns are normal for folks like us. :) I too still have them even though Maizee has been gone now 17 months.I still agonize over her last moments and if it should have been done differently.I too come here for comfort every once and awhile.Take care. Sherry and my furry boys wendy [EMAIL PROTECTED] wrote: Hey guys, Why is it that even a year and a half after Cricket's passing, I can burst into tears after having flashbacks of the night he died? To a logical person (being me), it sounds ridiculous and overdramatic. But the fact remains that when I allow myself to remember what happened with Cricket the night he died, and how horrible it was, it sends me straight into meltdown. I am at work for heaven's sake. Usually, when I think about Cricket, I don't think about that one day in his life. But it seems so unfair that he couldn't have a more peaceful death. I will never forget his suffering, even knowing that he is now at rest. Why do some people's/animal's last days of their lives have to be filled with pain and suffering? I just don't understand it. I think maybe all the recent losses, and sadly there have been many, might be bringing my memories back, but maybe that's a good thing? Maybe we never really fully stop grieving, but every little meltdown we have allows us to heal a little more. Thanks for letting me ramble about my lack of understanding of the meaning of life. :) Wendy Never doubt that a small group of thoughtful committed citizens can change the world: Indeed it is the only thing that ever has! ~~~ Margaret Meade ~~~ Get your own web address. Have a HUGE year through Yahoo! Small Business. http://smallbusiness.yahoo.com/domains/?p=BESTDEAL - Don't pick lemons. See all the new 2007 cars at Yahoo! Autos.
Re: OT: Small meltdown
It leaves such a hole in your heart. They love you unconditionally...nothing can fill that void but a lot of love and a lot of time. elizabeth On 4/3/07, wendy [EMAIL PROTECTED] wrote: Hey guys, Why is it that even a year and a half after Cricket's passing, I can burst into tears after having flashbacks of the night he died? To a logical person (being me), it sounds ridiculous and overdramatic. But the fact remains that when I allow myself to remember what happened with Cricket the night he died, and how horrible it was, it sends me straight into meltdown. I am at work for heaven's sake. Usually, when I think about Cricket, I don't think about that one day in his life. But it seems so unfair that he couldn't have a more peaceful death. I will never forget his suffering, even knowing that he is now at rest. Why do some people's/animal's last days of their lives have to be filled with pain and suffering? I just don't understand it. I think maybe all the recent losses, and sadly there have been many, might be bringing my memories back, but maybe that's a good thing? Maybe we never really fully stop grieving, but every little meltdown we have allows us to heal a little more. Thanks for letting me ramble about my lack of understanding of the meaning of life. :) Wendy Never doubt that a small group of thoughtful committed citizens can change the world: Indeed it is the only thing that ever has! ~~~ Margaret Meade ~~~ Get your own web address. Have a HUGE year through Yahoo! Small Business. http://smallbusiness.yahoo.com/domains/?p=BESTDEAL
