>Kitanya,
>   I wanted to do something for you to show how much I appreciate your
trust, loyality, and service to me since coming to Starfleet Command.
While we have not always seen eye to eye on matters, your opinions carry
great weight.  So here is the token.
>
>  On this PADD you will find transfer orders for a few admin folks.  I
have taken the liberty to select a dependable budget analyst and a great
auditor.  I am sure that you know what to do with them.  All you need do is
have your aide file those orders with personnel and they will be yours.
Their service records are included for your review.  
>
>I have also had "copies" made of all of your mate's logs while he was on
tempory assignment.  There was not much that you don't already have, but I
thought that you deserved to have it all.  Intell was able to recover some
debirs form the facility where Admiral M'Rrell had been working.  One of
the things recovered was his foot locker.  I could not spring the foot
locker, due to radiation exposure.  However, the locker shielded it's
contents, and the holos, robe, uniform, and a book or two that were in
there are yours.  I hope this helps.
>
>The last bits are in the PADDs that are banded together.  They contain
both a summary and a detailed accounting of the 'secret' investigation that
Starfleet is engaged in.  I promised that you would be kept in the loop,
and here it is.  It is still on going, but much has been found.
>
>As I said earlier, please keep this quiet.  It is not yet time to let this
cat out of the bag.  But it soon will be.
>
>Many thanks.
>
>SL

She put the PADD down and looked through the box, pulling out what was most
important to her just then.  She pulled out the things that had been
M'Rrell's and sat down, holding the robe in her hands.  She knew every item
intimately, but she had thought they were lost long ago.  She clutched the
robe to her, hoping that there might be a faint smell of him left in it,
but it was long gone to time and travel.  It had been said of the Mikan
that their tears had formed the ocean, so many of their kin and loved ones
having been lost over the ages, the protectors of Cait giving more than all
other clans combined.  They gave and asked for nothing but respect and to
be left alone with their pain.  It had been a long time since she had cried
her tears, but they came again unbidden, and she wept into the robe that
her mate had worn often in his off-duty hours, the one she remembered a
smiling, happy, loving mate wearing.  Her fingers traced over the uniform,
running over the fabric, then to the books.  He loved books.  

But her eyes couldn't stop looking at the holos.  One was of her, something
he'd taken when they were on a holiday to Cait, in the southern
rainforests.  She had fallen asleep on a branch in a tropical ba'fra tree
overlooking the ocean, and he'd always loved it.  One was of them, his arms
around from behind, chin resting on her shoulder - his sister had taken it
at their home.  He was even wearing the robe that she held, and that made
it all the moe poignant.  The robe was empty and the holo was all that was
left.

The tears came harder then, and she hugged the robe to her as a child would
a favorite blanket, hoping it would ward off the pain somehow.  She wept
for her lost mate, knowing, having to believe he was still alive somewhere.  

That thought brought her back and slowly the tears subsided.  He was not
dead.  She refused to believe that was so.  She would know if he were, and
she did not feel that break in their bond that would tellher of that fact.
He had the same gift she had, and so he would not die of old age or
sickness, and she knew he had not been killed.  So although her heart ached
with longing for him, she would not weep as though he were dead.  Carefully
she folded the robe back up and returned it and the other things to the
box.  She was a soldier, and she would not dishonor him by mourning his
death when it had not happened.  She knew the demons would come that night,
hot and fierce, but now was the time for work, and she had much to do.

She told Naraht via comlink about the budget analyst and auditor and had
him submit the transfer orders.  She didn't want him to see her right then
because of her damp fur and red eyes.  He might be a Horta, but he had been
around carbon-based life forms enough to know when someone was upset or
hurt and she didn't want him to know she'd been crying.

Then she turned her attention to the report of the secret investigations,
reading it thoroughly, letting her mid focus on work.  It took a bit, but
she did it, and read it completely.  By the time that was done, she looked
somewhat more presentable, and a bit of work with a brush and damp
washcloth cleaned her up to be ready for her meeting in San Jose.  She was
still in a fierce mood, though, so she pitied anyone who got in her face at
the big meeting that night.  If she had the time, she would have gone to
the holodeck, taken the safeties off, and beat the crap out of some
programmed felinids.  But she didn't have time for that, so she just hoped
that this meeting was civil tonight, or there would be blood on the floor.

She closed the box and put it into her locked cabinet in her office and
then headed out to San Jose to meet at Scott's Grill.  She was early, and
the waited seated her.  She ordered a drink - she needed it.

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