My fear for needles is an open truth. The group is evidence for my fear. They know how much I tried to support Ratan ji's relative. All the night I didn't sleep motivating myself, visualizing the environment and practising the 'fake it to make it'.
Everything was ok. Ratan ji ringing me, I went to the hospital, Ratan ji introduced me to the patients, doctor came and asked me to lay on the bed. Upto that scene everything was fine and perfect. The moment they take the needle, I could see my heart not in its place, already down. By the way, I took few injections in the last one year. So somewhat I have grown. But Dr. Shyam who treates me says that the blood donation vaala needle is very thick and it pains a lot. I noticed that in NIMS Blood Bank, there are no beds as such but they are like relaxing chairs. 3/4th bed type. You are in sitting position only. In the blood donation camp that we conducted, all the donors were laid down on the bed. I felt like the sitting position is comparatively better. I too thought like what would I do if my own parents or brother or any close persons need blood. I know that I cannot deny no matter how much I fear. For anything psychological preparedness is important. That moment may be we are more worried and concerned about our loved ones that we ignore this pain. We need a big heart to consider and feel for everyone as such. ekkadainaa maame kaanee vangatota kaadu ani ilaa edo saameta undi kadaa. so ekkadainaa naa manasu dravistumdemo kaanee, blood donation ki maatram kaadu. I read in Linda Goodman's Sun Signs that Cancerians do have helping nature. But they take some time to help. If anyone asks them help, they will look around and see if there are anyone who can help. If so they will keep quiet. If there are no one for help, they will definitely come forward and help. I am a Cancerian both by Sun Sign and Moon Sign. May be that is the reason why I say that we should be helping the people to whom no one reaches with help :)) and the repeated line......let us find out the genuinity of the cases, prepare reports and forward that to like-minded groups :)) There was a good discussion with Ravi garu of SIGHT, Nellore. He says that I should donate blood and then only I will be an example of a good leader. This is a small fear and I should make conscious effort to overcome it. I argued with him though I never oppose the concept of blood donation. At the end he said that 'you say anything but you will not get convinced and say 'yes' :)) I used to fear Sri Sukumar Reddy. I used to feel that definitely one day he will make me donate. Let us be as far to him as possible when it comes to blood donation :) I hope our old members remember about Tikkavarapu Sukumar Reddy garu, Nellore. In fact, I feel that getting to know my blood group is the biggest achievement for me. Thalassemic children changed me. I seriously wanted to help thalassemic children and be a permanent donor for any kid of A +ve Blood. With my failure in Ratanji's relative case, I feel it is better not to experiment and wait for one or two years. In fact, I have been doing good for the past few months only. Earlier I was not an eligible candidate. -- Thank you. with regards, PRASANTHI. ---- When you want something, the whole universe conspires in helping you to achieve it.
