How does one live free in a nonfree world? Most people hate free software-only, and it is very difficult to make friends once they find out you don't do things because of some philosophical reason.
I don't have any friends to see face to face. I constantly feel like an outcast because everyone is on Facebook Messenger and I am not, and people always treat me like a gnuisance because of it. My job doesn't pay enough for me to support myself, so I'm dependent on others to live. I thought if I had a job and could support myself, maybe I'd feel less depressed about having no friends. I try so hard to not judge others, and to compartmentalize all my practices so they don't affect others, but it never works. They always find out, and they always reject me because I won't watch Netflix or play a game or use a chat app. I feel completely powerless and worthless. The digital divide between the free world and the proprietary world is too great. Technology is too interwoven into meatspace to be avoided. I need to belong somewhere. My loneliness and depression are too great. No income. No friends. No place to belong. No life. No happiness. I desperately want to give up on everything, and use Discord, but doing that to myself would make me feel completely void. I don't know what to do. I don't know how to have a life. I'm scared.
