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Happy 2014 adventures everyone!
Thanks as usual Slim for your evocative posts, inspirational, and reminds me of a few things: (this is a bit of a long one, but then what is time?) On the subject of invisibility and disappearance, I recall a few episodes like this, a major one was the total disappearance of physical universe, yet the remaining of my own presence as god in a vastness of my own being, whilst standing in my kitchen around 2007. Everything literally was just gone, body, kitchen, presence of any world, but I still existed, all questions of any sort immediately answered in a unique non mental way, it was profound, and it came after a long year of strong psychic episodes pulling me into all kinds of stories and trips I see many others spun up in, I persisted and did not buy too much into any of it, and the reward was this utter simplicity, wonderful. Then, it all started back up again, the world, life, forms, relationships, emotions, like a reboot to physical universe, I was back standing in my kitchen as before, and as you say with millions of participants dreaming and playing games its tricky to remain out of it for long : ) I am still to some degree hooked, which is probably why I rooted out TROM from all the possible things here to turn attention to. A year or two after that I had an encounter with a long practicing Buddhist monk, I stayed 10 days at his monetary and he asked to see me a couple of times, on the first meeting we spent an hour or two talking, I felt a rushing through my hands and then all of a sudden all mass was gone but the material form still remained, lucid as ever, like crystallised fresh air. We kept talking as manifest boundless space itself, and reached a peak of laughter at the experience, in that same instant I heard a clicking sound as a lamp in the corner of the room flickered back on, there had been a power cut in the village and the electricity flow returned just at the moment we encountered most directly the ‘emptiness of our forms’ as the true condition of our physicality. I later connected the two experiences as being somewhat natural opposites, like the deepest lucid sleep and the peak of lucid wakefulness. In the first all physical universe disappeared, entirely and only original presence remained, in the second all mass and sensation was gone but form and definition remained, clear as a bell. I found in the latter presence itself was/is interspersed with universal form and as a result intelligence arises, what some call consciousness I suppose. To me this universe/world is consciousness but god/atman/self is not such a condition or state nor dependent on it to be. Then as normally happens, thoughts, identities, reactions, dreams of mass and importance again got triggered, new/old stories assembled, and the games continued, but not without the effects of these mind shattering experiences residing throughout to some extent. In another year or so I picked up a deck of playing cards and started to undergo a visionary/unravelling process, intense and effortless sometimes 14+ hour days, for months, it served as a physical anchor for my mind to sort through an array of mystical experiences and put them into some semblance of order and under better control. The reason I bring it up is I strongly intuited with that system of cards I’d be able to willingly materialise and dematerialise the human physical form, something like shape shifting is included in that, and many other potentials, but ultimately it is a system to literally move entirely ones form out of and into this universe at will, I now believe. For me those cards represented a key to that kind of thing, should I wish to explore it, eventually even that will drop away and it will be by pure choice unaided by any particular things I suspect, no needs or requirements or dependencies, no conditions necessary for my being, not even worlds or universes, and of course no aspects or parts of them. Though I may be some way from that in my day to day life I know the goal, the outcome, the reality of reality, I cannot fool myself indefinitely in these games sensations! They’re strong but not eternally so. Still I appreciate them, or am beginning to, as an interesting excursion, and perhaps even a new eternal component of the totality, I may even learn to have more fun with them too, now imagine that : ) On the subject of ‘did we or it bring/will itself into being’, I have worked on this a lot, mostly through necessity and intensity and rarely by conscious choice or even willingness to do so, but thankful as I venture forth for each realisation none the less, as it is normally a pleasant surprise each time despite the periods of turbulence proceeding most alchemical shifts. I hit upon this threshold often, and it is both profound and decimating because there is no room for concept or thought of usual identity which usually rules the daily life, I have come to the conclusion the original true experience has always been and is, I contemplate ideas like: that which creates is not created nor did it create itself, and recognise: still it can create in/of itself and of course become identified with those creations and into games of any degree – mind. Srill, as strong as mind gets, in any state being gets into there can be no absolute or permanent denial in essence. As within as well as beyond the fact of any matter, it has always been regardless. I realise such things in one breath and am back in the games in the next breath, utterly forgetful : ) I know right now of no other answer that fits either logically or intuitively for me based on what I know. Everything I try to say amounts to the same outcome, the same conclusion, the same endless certainty. I believe the dilemma for human beings is we get confused about the ultimate reality and relative states of being, the power itself and its focused use and extension into forms, the world/dream is a rife mess of that sort of wrong association and confusion, and in a nutshell we need not live or be this way, its not what this world/life is about, all we’ve made of it and constrained it to, but we believe it is, and who or what can deny us? Only a direct encounter with reality can settle it. A comment I heard recently is closely related to this subject; mentally we have associated life and death as opposites, but in reality birth and death are opposites not life and death, life itself is eternal, life never begun and has always been, perhaps even has no opposite except that by being life and infinitely creative we can attempt to create one, and a lot, if not all of that is done with the human mind. This is the ground I keep training my mind and energy to stand on as I transition it from the intellectual/fictional ground which is temporary at best and most often tenuous. That is how I begin to solve the quandary, my mind/personality does not like the answer and resists and toils, however many times or ways it is realised, and always wants to do anything but focus on or think about it, but I know as myself I’m on the right track with this one, its just the small matter of time, ah of course, some more timebreaking! : ) Sean p.s. I tried the technique from the video you posted Slim, the first thing I noticed is my body started to heat up and sweat a little, I take that as a good positive sign it is working in some way. Will make note to keep at it, even if a few minutes here and there throughout the days.
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