Hang in there Jess. You can borrow my brain if you want, but I'm afraid it's a long drive for you.
On Feb 3, 8:40 am, "[email protected]" <[email protected]> wrote: > Yesterday was a tough day and I feel like dumping it on someone, so > here I go. I went to visit my mom. She is now living in a nursing > home about an hour from me. She has dementia. My siblings and I > moved her there last summer. > > She couldn't live alone anymore. And she can't live with any of us > because she wanders. Well, she more than just wanders, she takes > off. Even when we have her over for dinner, which she loves, she'll > take off. I don't know where she's going. Neither does she. > > She needs 24 hour supervision. > > So, we found a wonderful place for her to live. She has her own room > with private bath, it's a brand new building, the staff are wonderful, > there are enclosed courtyards where she can go outside. I honestly > feel like God led us to this place. > > So, you would think that with finding a beautiful place for her to > live and the fact that every doctor, social worker and nearly every > family member agreed that she needed to be there that I could rest > easy that the right choice was made. I can't. I still feel guilty. > > Yesterday I went to see her. I go every week and I bring her home > with me for the day when I can. Yesterday she was really sad. She > was still in her pajamas when I got there. She got up and started to > get around to go out with me. Then she turned to me, looked me right > in the eye and said, "I just want to go home. I really just want to go > home." It breaks my heart. > > I know she wants to go home. Wouldn't you just want to go home? I > wish she could be home but she can't. > > And this, I cannot resolve in my mind. She should be home, she can't > be home, she should be home, she can't be home--- that's how it goes > in my brain. > > I read recently that men tend to be more successful than women when > they diet because of a difference in men's brains. They did a study > and found that once a man makes a decision about something it turns > off the emotional part of the brain related to that decision. Women, > however, will still continue to experience the emotions related to > that decision even after the decision is made. > > I want a man's brain. > > Thanks for letting me vent. jess --~--~---------~--~----~------------~-------~--~----~ You received this message because you are subscribed to the Google Groups "BGG Down" group. To post to this group, send email to [email protected] To unsubscribe from this group, send email to [email protected] For more options, visit this group at http://groups.google.com/group/BGG_down?hl=en -~----------~----~----~----~------~----~------~--~---
